*** Positive Mental Attitude TTC - Anyone joining us? ***

[mommylov]

Thanks Smiler! I didnt even calculate it out like that but thinking back now I think that my dr said something like that... that makes me feel MUCH better!!!!!!

I bet you felt that way because you hadnt eaten anything. I am finding myself to be lightheaded or dizzy when Im hungry and to not eat for as long as you did I would def think that had a part in you not feeling well. regarding the ice cream hahahah I can just imagine you all curled up eating your ice cream ready to kill anyone that comes near you incase its your last for a while LOL I would be too!!!! Hope you dont get a call in the morning... Im thinking you wont

 

[Smiler82]

Phew! Glad that helped, always worry about saying stuff and just confusing people more

Woop woop they rang me back already and everything is fine She just rang because they ran other tests at the same time and my iron is low and said to take a supplement, which I bought today anyway because I have been quite tired. So can eat the ice cream happy in the knowledge it's not the last

 

[babybemine]

HCG went up to 199.2 Progesterone is real low at 3.5 but that is up from what it was before. Have appt tomorrow in am...nurse says they are still want me to have methotrexate. I am thinking that I want to hold off. Hoping to be put on progesterone and wait it out. With it being so small nothing should show on the scan.

The docs are thinking since I had the trigger shot that the exact day that I ovulated would be known but I am wondering is it possible that I ovulated later or possibly ovulated a second time much later than what they think which would put this baby at a smaller number?

The fear of TP and possibly loosing a tube has me worried and I wonder if I am playing with fire when deciding to wait it out.

Told the grandparents as we can use all the support we can get.

So frustrated as I do not have answers and this is not how I had planned my first pregnancy. Not the way that I wanted to tell the grandparents? I wanted to plan something cute to let them know.

 

[mommylov]

Smiler, thats awesome about your results!!!!! Im glad that everything is fine with the exception of the iron but glad you got what you needed and Im sure youll be fine with iron too!

Babybemine, Wow this has got to be such an emotional rollercoaster for you hun I understand wanting to wait it out but at the same time you have to think about your health too. My 2nd pregnancy was the same too. My levels were wierd in the begining and it was hard to even determine if I was pregnant or not. Ended up in the ER where they confrimed it (HCG was at 90) and so I ended up switching drs the next day and they did try to give me progesterone right away. My progesterone was at 8 and I didnt have any pain or anything. About a week later (about 5 weeks along) I started to have pains on my right side then in the center and things naturally took care of themselves . I really hope that it isnt an ectopic or anything and that everything turns out to be fine. What does your dr think about starting you on progesterone and waiting? I know they initially wanted you to start the methotrexate but are they open to your idea?

 

[babybemine]

Smiler, thats awesome about your results!!!!! Im glad that everything is fine with the exception of the iron but glad you got what you needed and Im sure youll be fine with iron too!

Babybemine, Wow this has got to be such an emotional rollercoaster for you hun I understand wanting to wait it out but at the same time you have to think about your health too. My 2nd pregnancy was the same too. My levels were wierd in the begining and it was hard to even determine if I was pregnant or not. Ended up in the ER where they confrimed it (HCG was at 90) and so I ended up switching drs the next day and they did try to give me progesterone right away. My progesterone was at 8 and I didnt have any pain or anything. About a week later (about 5 weeks along) I started to have pains on my right side then in the center and things naturally took care of themselves . I really hope that it isnt an ectopic or anything and that everything turns out to be fine. What does your dr think about starting you on progesterone and waiting? I know they initially wanted you to start the methotrexate but are they open to your idea?

Will see them tomorrow at 9am and hopefully have some answers

 

[mommylov]

keep us posted

 

[mommylov]

Happy Friday Everyone! Hope you girls are doing ok!

Babybemine, how did it go yesterday?

AFM~ wrote a lengthy post on my journal but in short, woke up in a bad panic this morning thinking that I needed to prepare myself for the worst Coming up on 8 weeks and thats when I lost my first baby. I know that things are different now and that we are doing everything that we can with all the meds and everything but I still feel so helpless.

 

[lilesMom]

hi guys i dont have time for proper catch up,just want ye to know im still alive ha ha
typing one handed while i pump.
had worst 10 days of my life but things much better now, i had 2 day labour and then my baby boy simon had a stroke and broken shoulder and i got infection and high blood pressure, we both only got out of hosp yest.
il be on properly in days ahead xxxx
i missed ye xxx
cn ye give me update in ye cos no way il hve time to play catch up xxxxxx

 

[mommylov]

LOVE YOU LAURA!!!!!!! Get better soon!

 

[Smiler82]

Oh my lord! Lilesmom first of all huge congratulations!! But also massive hugs to you, what a traumatic time. Is Simon ok, he seriously had a stroke? Bless him. You're alk in my thoughts hope you're all ok xxxxx

 

[lilesMom]

hi and hugs to all xxxxx

thanks guys xxxx
yeah i didnt even know babies could and do have um, things u learn eh

even with all the crap of last week and a half birth and baby r magic . xxx
simon spent 8 days in neo natel, 6 in intenive care, they were on about possible not surviving for brief time but thank god he is a strong little man.
he had a large stroke only 1 in 6000 babies get it,
he was unlucky but lucky to hve good help and still be here.
he will hve to go to stroke clinic, physio , occupational therapy, back to neo docs etc for years to fully assess him as he grows for problems but he is looking great so far and im just gonna enjoy him for now and get him all the help i can later , xxxxxx
ive agood feeling about his recovery anyway, he is very good, good movement, alert feeding etc so i think he wil be ok, he wil be my little miracle.
im so in love with him, he is just fab.
i cant wait for ye all to feel like this.
when i think of how much i love him i tear up never fails ha ha

hope alls well with everyone xxxxxxx
il be readin even if i dont have much time for typin some days xxxxxxx

 

[mommylov]

Laura I'm praying for you guys!!!! So glad he is doing well! Xoxo

 

[babybemine]

yeah lilesmom....I am so happy for you.

update on me. numbers went up to 440 estimated that I was a little over 6 weeks. felt sharp pain under ribs that took my breath away that subsided. doc not worried because no pain after. did another two ultrasound and could not find any sac or baby anywhere. with labs low and progesterone and super slow progressing hcg and no vision of baby and the risk of ectopic dooming over us. we after many tears decided to do methotexate shot.

 

[withlovemom]

Hi lilesmom...

OMG.. Hugs to u hon..hope u n Simon r doin better now..
I will keep u both in my prayers... I am sure u n ur bubba will recover soon..
Hugs to u both

mommylove, I am glad ur scan went well ?? i can imagine how happy u must b when u saw ur little bean..

babybemine.. hugs to u hon... how r u doin?? what r d docs saying now??

Smiler..glad everything is going great for u..enjoy that ice-cream of urs....

AFM, yesterday was little shocking.. i slipped n fell on my back yesterday at my house.. floor was little wet & i did not realise that... the first thought that came to my mind was I hope nothing happens to d baby... called up doctor immidiately..he said i should come for a visit n scan just for my peace of mind... went n met him n thank god everything was fine.. we heard d heartbeat on d doppler & saw d heart flickering on the ultrasound.. baby was not moving much but d doc said that is ok..he really thinks my baby is going to be a sleepy-head due to very few movements on the ultrasound .. anyways..just relieved that yesterdays fall did not end up in anything more serious..

 

[Smiler82]

Oh Lilesmom how absolutely terrifying to be told there was a chance he wouldn't survive must have been the worst time ever Am so over the moon for you that everything seems ok though, of course he still needs to be monitored etc but if he is alert and feeding well etc then those are all great signs. Hope you are able to start enjoying him and settling into motherhood xxx Are we allowed a little photo, maybe PM one?? Understand if you don't want to, not sure how I feel about posting baby pics when the time comes. I'm sure he is gorgeous though xxx

withlovemom sorry for your fall! That must have been very worrying At our 12 week scan our little one hardly moved around either so I don't think it's anything to worry about. Even now he still has his quiet days...can't say I like them but they do do a lot of sleeping in there Main thing is everything is ok.

Babybemine I'm so sorry hun. It it totally devastating to have the one thing you wanted taken away from you. Life can be so cruel at times. It is little comfort right now I know but hopefully having the shot is going to save your tube if it is ectopic. I hope you have good support around you, and don't feel rushed into 'getting over it', we've all been there and know it can be hard but we're all thinking of you xxx

AFM no real news just ticking over xxx

 

[mommylov]

Withlove, omg!!! I'm happy to hear that you got a scan and that you and bub are ok! Are you sore or anything? Take it easy hun!

Hey smiler! How are you feeling? Almost 30 weeks!!!

Babybemine, I second what smiler said so devestating to have your lo taken away but I hope that your tube is ok. Take care of yourself. Xoxo

Afm~ still nervous and very mild if any symptoms still freaks me out that I don't have strong symptons but we'll see how our little bean is doing on Tuesday. Heartbeat was at 111 last Tuesday so hopefully he/she is sticking and growing.

 

[lilesMom]

babybemine im so sorry honey xxxxxxxxxxx hugs x

 

[lilesMom]

withlovemom thanks honey xxxxxxxxxxx
glad ur fall did no harm xxx def scary xxxxx
glad alls well xx

smiler thanks hon, il send u pic soon xxx
when i hve time to sort stuff out xxxx
how u doin hon? hope alls well x

hi and hugs to all xxx

 

[mommylov]

No hb,

 

[Smiler82]

Well after saying "quiet days are ok" I spent this morning in the hospital strapped up to a monitor :S Baby has been moving but just not as much as normal, which I first noticed on Saturday. He often goes quiet near the time my week changes over so normally I don't worry about it but because this time he was quiet for 3 days and still quiet this AM I rang the midwife just be safe. It wasn't nice being in but the midwife was lovely and thankfully the monitor showed all was normal and she was also able to check the blood flow through the cord and that was ok too. He is still a little quiet today but he is starting to move a little more. I'm really tired too from low iron so I wonder if he is affected by low iron too. Am taking a supplement so hopefully in a week or two my levels will be back to normal.

Aw Lilesmom I bet you are super super busy and totally knackered too don't worry if you don't get time. Has it been a real shock to the system, does he wake up a lot in the night?

Hope everyone is doing ok xxx