I m/c my twins Christmas Day and was finally started to feel better thinking to the future...ovulating...1st AF. NOTHING. NO signs of O, no AF, cervix is high and closed. BFN after BFN. A friend of mine is 37 weeks with boy/girl twins and just posted on FB she's in labor. I should be happy but I am so insainly sad and jealous thinking it should be me pregnant with the twins, I'M the one that's married, I'M the one that was TTC. Then my best friend found out a week after I m/c that she's pregnant. She's scheduled an abortion for next week. I'm the only person she has to be by her side through this tough time but it's KILLING ME. I DO NOT believe in abortion. She knows what happened. Yet she's asking ME to help her through killing her baby. OMG I just want that stupid stick to turn up with 2 pink lines and have a scan with a beautiful baby and heartbeat. Am I wrong??? I just feel like curling up and dying right now. ***UPDATE 2/3*** Woohoo!!!! OB's office is open today! I had my 1st beta drawn Monday, basically 36 hours after I had a faint positive on the Dollar Tree test and a 12 hours after the full blown positive on the FRER. Well my beta was 103!!! I am so excited. I just know this one is a sticky one. And I am SOOO freaking glad I asked for my progesterone to be tested because guess what? I WAS low, only 9! The on call doc prescribed the Prometrium Monday night and I've used it since then and I am feeling great. I am so glad I asked for this or I'm sure I would have m/c again, another healthy pregnancy, because of something that could have been corrected. I am so freaking happy right now!!!! I am headed out for my 2nd beta and progesterone levels here in a few minutes, will have those back either this afternoon or by 9AM tomorrow. I am over the moon right now!!!!