So this afternoon I had another huge scare. I will take it from scratch.
I didnt have any brown clots at all, so I thougth that it was the end of that nightmare... I was wrong.
When my mum and dad came back from work, around 18.00 went to the loo for a wee, and LOTS of red/burgundy blood started flowing out of me. I wiped and I filled tissue after tissue.
I started shaking from terror, called my doctor ( it was his day off today so called his mobile) and we arranged to meet in his practice in 30 mins. I took all the blood stuff with me and off we went with my parents. I cried a bit on the way, I felt really scared.
Went in, he put me really quickly on U/S and baby looked ok. He measured her and she is growing ok and as she should. He then decided to check my cervix.. he put something in it and it hurt like HELL I started crying but didnt make a noise as I didnt want to scare my baby. He then checked by hand as well.
He saw a lot of brown and pink discharge probably my "show" /plug.... he then did an internal ultrasound. My cervix is funneling. So externally is closed by internally is kind of open... so the thinks that this is what is causing the bleeding and that I am starting to dillating.. Great.
He then put me on the cardiotocographer, baby seems ok, she moves as usual and there were no contractions.
He then sent me to another specialist ob/gyn that has very good U/S equipment to check my placenta to ensure that I am not having an abruption. The other obgyn didnt see anything wront with my placenta at this stage, and agreed that the bleeding is probably caused by my cervix.
Now, I have been asked to monitor it all very closely. My bed is slightly elevated now at home so I can keep my feet up literally. I am not allowed to go to the toilet for a wee, so must get something in the room, to wee in. I can only get up for number two. I must not under any circumstances get up. I have to take it each day at the time, the doctor couldnt tell me how long I have, but the only thing I can do now is take it extremely easy.
If my bleeding gets worse I will be hospitilised for close monitoring or even birth. Everything is up in the air now and nothing is certain.
I am shocked I think. I am thinking one minute that ofcourse we will last we lasted so long, we only need a few more weeks. And then on the other hand I am thinking, what if tomorrow it happens? Like a time bomb!
xxx
