Hello everyone! I am soooo thankful to have found this thread! After a week of obsessively reading every single page, I finally am ready to introduce myself (yes... I read all 373 pgs!!!!). My first son passed away due to SIDS 9 years ago, and I have a 7 year old son. I'm 35 years old. We started TTC 1 year ago... within the last year I had a misscarriage at 5+5 followed by a chemical pregnancy. I did 3 months of clomid unsuccessfully, and was taking a couple of months off when we finallly got pregnant!!!
I started spotting at 5+5 and totally freaked out (it was dark red.. almost like wine color)... my doctor saw me that same day found no reason for the spotting, she took some swabs, put me on bedrest and sent me home... we scheduled the next US for 2 weeks later. She later called to tell me that I had a yeast infection which could cause spotting, so I had to take ovules for the infection for 5 days. Those 5 days were horrible... I woke up every morning with spotting in every single shade of red/brown. On the 4th day I freaked because of the amount and the clots... I was sure I was miscarrying. I called my doctor and she asked me to keep on bedrest and wait and see. The spotting stopped that same afternoon and I was spot-free for 10 days. Then, at 7+6, I had redish-brown bleeding in the early afternoon. I had been on modified bedrest since my first ultrasound, but on that particular day I had been running errands all morning. I called my doctor who immediately scheduled an US for that same day. I went in and the baby was doing just fine... with strong heartbeat... measuring perfectly. She also found a small SCH. 1.25 cm * .65 cm. She said it was small and that it should hopefully reabsorb by 20 weeks... but she wanted me to keep my bedrest to try to avoid it getting bigger. I had been taking progesterone orally since I found out I was pregnant, so she now asked me to take the progesterone vaginally from now on so that more of the progesterone was actually absorbed. I consider myself very lucky that my doctor is very caring, and a very strong believer in bedrest, water, and US every 2 weeks (and I love that I have her personal cell phone number in case of emergencies). Over the next day my red spotting turned to brown, then to tan... and by the next night it was completely gone. Right now I've been spot-free for 7 days... and my next US is in 6 more days. I know I should be thrilled and excited that I have no more spotting, but I'm still a complete basket-case! I worry about every little thing... I worry about missed miscarriage (the progesterone makes me wonder if it's only delaying the inevitable)... I get anxious and cry if my boobs don't hurt that much one day ... I feel like I'm going crazy.
The stories here have been sooooo helpful. I've cried with the sad ones and was thrilled with the successful ones! Although every time a sad ending happened I would go back to see how their SCH started, I couldn't help but compare to my own situation. It truly scares me to see that some were very small, just like mine, yet still had a sad ending
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I used to love being pregnant... the glow... the attention... the hopes and dreams. Now I just want to fastforward to just meeting my baby
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I'm sorry to ramble on... sorry for the looooong essay
... I feel like I have no one else to talk to (no one that would truly understand).