I think the bit I actually find hardest (until all the symptoms kick in and I remember how hard that is ) is the keeping it a massive secret! I totally get why most keep it a secret in the first tri, but it's weird isn't it really, we are at a point where many of us will feel sick every day, be shattered etc etc all with good reason, yet tell no-one, so people probably think we're just being a bit rubbish! Yet normally if you have a cold even, you tell people! People at work keep asking me 'do you think you'll have another one?' like they know, and it's so awkward!