OP! Yay!!! Those look AMAZING!
I say this with the greatest level of support and respect for your health and your pregnancy ... I think you need to try to find a positive place in the next few weeks to try and stop worrying. Whether that be the next beta level, or the next test, or whatever you select, you need to really do that for yourself. Now, if you’re like me that is IMPOSSIBLE, so maybe make a game plan with your new midwife or physician or whoever you’ve chosen and go from there! It might be beneficial for your mental health to sign up for scheduled betas/early ultrasounds/genetic testing etc., because you don’t seem at all at ease quite yet (And that’s no judgement! I’m the exact same way!!
but switching to a doc who was willing to help me has put my mind at ease SOOO much).
Like some cramping and pain is normal, bleeding is often considered standard, etc etc. These thing shouldnt be causing you dread, you have the right to have knowledge within reason about these symptoms of pregnancy. Literally every bit of evidence you have towards this pregnancy is showing you what a strong and fortuitous embryo it is..... and I think, if you can find a way to enjoy that somehow, with worry as a side dish and not the main course, it would do you a world of good! And you deserve that and infinitely more! Happy mom = happy baby