Starting to wonder...

[mamabee87]

We're now in the homestretch of the TTW. I am 10DPO and AF is due in 4 days. I know I could test now, but I'm afraid of the what seems to be the constant of BFN. I want to believe that the symptoms I'm experiencing are that of the babe I am hoping to have. But I find myself every month feeling as though this could be the month and then the dreaded AF makes her appearance and I am heartbroken. I have recently been seeing my gyno for abnormal cell formation on my cervix, being that of high grade CIL and I worry that maybe this has something to do with our not being able to conceive our 3rd babe. With our first two, I was able to conceive pretty quickly. Within the first 2 months of trying. But this time it hasn't come so easy, and I'm starting to worry that perhaps I won't be able to have another. So we'll see if AF makes her appearance this month. And if she does, I'll have to talk to my gyno on my next appointment in two weeks to find out if maybe the cervical cells are impeding our TTC efforts....

Thanks for reading, I think I just needed to vent a little....

 

[lilmisscaviar]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this I'm in the same boat except I had a miscarriage in July and haven't been able to become pregnant since. I've had four periods already and am wondering if I'll ever be able to have a third child. I already have a girl and a boy, and I'm very thankful for that, but at the same time I feel a third - well actually we originally planned on having four - would make our family complete. It sounds selfish, but it really isn't. DD keeps bugging me to have a baby "for her" lol.

Anyways after numerous scans, bloods and paps we have yet to come to a conclusion why I keep miscarrying and why we now are not able to get pregnant at all. I keep thinking every month "this is it!" only for AF to rear her ugly head. I've prepared myself for disappointing BFN after BFN. It was so easy to become pregnant with my first two. My DS was actually conceived only 3-4 months after giving birth to my DD while I was on BC and now it feels like I'll never be able to hold another baby in my arms.

I wanted to share my story with you to know that you're not alone. I hope we both get BFPs soon. It would really be icing on the cake if it was by Christmas! Good luck to you and lots of baby dust!

 

[squirrel.]

Sorry to hear you're going through this and it must be a big worry with the abnormal cells too.

I am exactly in the same place as you. My first two came along so easily with our first being a slip-up on the pill of all things and our second coming the second month we tried. This time it will soon be 8 months and with only a chemical pregnancy to show for it. I feel like a complete failure and am really worried that something is broken in one of us now.

I really hope this is your cycle and that you get a BFP in a couple of days.

 

[mamabee87]

AF made her appearance last week...We're now on CD8 and getting some pretty heavy EWCM. Poor hubby is gunna be tired out soon lol. I have an appointment with a specialist Dec 1 and will mention it to him. Fingers crossed for a Christmas BFP. That would be such a lovely present. Good luck to you ladies as well!