thanks ladies for your comments.
starglow - i've seen a counselor myself, but OH doesn't want to go so it was pointless to continue going. my family lives hours away from me and i could always move with them if the situation arose, but it would ruin my schooling. hopefully things will never move in that direction.
lilly - we really ARE great friends, and i have no doubt in my mind he's going to be the best daddy to our little girl. i know he will NEVER run out on her and will treat me with respect even if things don't work out between us.
itsy - he really IS coming around, things have gotten a lot better since those posts i used to make on the main board. I'm surprised you remember.
i just have days like yesterday when things feel overwhelming, and reading starglow posting about her hubby getting mad when she's cranky just triggered what i'd been feeling all day. OH was actually good to me last night (after i posted) trying to make me feel better from my rib pain since i ended up stopping in the middle of eating dinner because i was crying so much. enough about that.
some of you have to pack a LOT for baby! SEVEN outfits for every 24 hours? Over here the hospital provides us with everything baby needs until it's time to go home. All I'm bringing for LO is her going home outfit, and a blanket! average length of stay at my hospital is supposed to be about 36 hours after an uncomplicated vaginal delivery. 72 hours if a c-section is needed.
for myself, i've only put in two sets of pj's, a nursing camisole, nursing bra, and a pack of new (very cheap) underwear. maybe i'll throw in a pair of shorts in case the ones i wear on the way to the hospital get ruined.
As the very last thing in my hospital bag I put in two old towels and a garbage bag. that way when it's time to go we can put the garbage bag over the seat i'll be sitting in and one of the towels on top in case my water breaks! If we're in OH's car, his leather seats have a/c AND heat capabilities and it might get ruined if wet. If in my car, I'd just be upset because it's a fairly new car lol The second towel is for the drive home, in case bleeding is very heavy and I leak through my clothes a bit.
I'm not freezing any food either. My mother will be coming down to help the first couple weeks and she will be doing the cooking and cleaning for me. which is great since OH can't cook anything except pancakes lol