Yesterday I had my last follow up with my ob post mc. My hcg is back to zero. I was initially relieved. My ob, who is so wonderful and compassionate and I absolutely LOVE, wants me to wait 2 full normal cycles (first af won't count) to try again. I see her wisdom as I have several underlying health issues and I accepted it pretty well.
But this morning I burst into tears frustrated at having to wait. I really really wanted to have my Sept baby. I don't want to wait anymore. All day I saw reminders....mom's with 2 little ones and pregnant....the stupid expectant mother parking space. So frustrating.
I am annoyed at my mom for not really doing anything or even really talking about my mc. I told her what was going on, and you know she barely let me talk about it. I'm annoyed because all she wants to talk about is my sister's stupid work place drama...which is endless.
I'm annoyed that my husband is always always at work. It's this way all the time, but I feel like I don't get a break! He works 7 days a week right now and I'm home with our two toddlers. I love it, but I feel I've had no down time to process or heal. Much less any time to have time together alone.
I'm just angry and frustrated at everything.
But this morning I burst into tears frustrated at having to wait. I really really wanted to have my Sept baby. I don't want to wait anymore. All day I saw reminders....mom's with 2 little ones and pregnant....the stupid expectant mother parking space. So frustrating.
I am annoyed at my mom for not really doing anything or even really talking about my mc. I told her what was going on, and you know she barely let me talk about it. I'm annoyed because all she wants to talk about is my sister's stupid work place drama...which is endless.
I'm annoyed that my husband is always always at work. It's this way all the time, but I feel like I don't get a break! He works 7 days a week right now and I'm home with our two toddlers. I love it, but I feel I've had no down time to process or heal. Much less any time to have time together alone.
I'm just angry and frustrated at everything.