On that day I never again dared to breastfeed on the sofa, now I know why they say "Never breastfeed while tired on the sofa"
today after taking 3 hours to put lo to sleep she slept for 13 min and I yelled at her and told her I hated her. hope she doesn't understand/remember....
today after taking 3 hours to put lo to sleep she slept for 13 min and I yelled at her and told her I hated her. hope she doesn't understand/remember....
I can't tell you how many times I did this with DS1. He definitely doesn't remember, hell - sometimes I lose the plot with him now and he still loves me just as much.
The other day I was getting LO ready for nursery. She didn't need a bum change but i though what the hey and changed her anyway. So as you can probably guess, as soon as the nappy came off, LO peed everywhere!
Her vest was a write-off and her t-shirt was wet all up the back. But the thing was, I really liked the outfit I'd picked out for her....so I dried the pee puddle with the hair dryer, put it back on her and took her to nursery!
I feel terrible tonight.
Last night OH took over the nightwatch and let me sleep but I am still soo exhausted. I had no idea how hard it would be with twins! They hardly ever let up! And we now suspect that one of the boys is suffering from silent reflux. But in a way I almost hope it is that cause why else would he wake yelling his head off 20 minutes after dropping off over his feed? Why would it take almost 2 hours for him to settle after a feed?
I feel terrible.
When I drove to the all night pharmacy to get some colief I imagined turning the car towards Dover and just driving through the tunnel and the night till I reached Switzerland and my mum and leave it all behind. I didn't really want to leave but for a moment it was a sweet fantasy.
I feel terrible but I am not enjoying this very much right now.