The Beanstalkers (formally ttc buddy?)

[mk8]

Hi Rae

Feeling a bit blue tbh, af came. Currently on last cycle of clomid (6) and have my first appointment with a fs end April. For some reason getting af this time round was tough for me. 17 cycles, 15 months of well timed bd and still no bfp. Need to snap out of this though and be positive.

How are you doing? Not long until the urologist appointment right?

 

[raelynn]

Sorry AF got you, MK. I know it sucks each time she comes.

Hubby's urologist appointment is on Monday. It'll be here before we know it since hubby's b-day and Easter are this weekend so I have a lot to keep me busy. Hopefully we'll have our next step soon. I hate the limbo periods.

 

[Lisa92881]

Oh mk I'm so sorry. Damn that witch. I'm glad your fs appt is coming up and I hope you're able to get some answers. Remind me, have you had an hsg?? If not, I would definitely ask the fs about getting one.

Rae - Awesome! Have a great weekend (Happy Bday Mr. Rae!) and I hope you get great news on Monday!

As for me, had a dr appt today and she said everything looks and sounds good. Heard the heartbeat, and now I feel a little better about telling more people and will probably tell work next week.

 

[raelynn]

Glad things are going well for you Lisa! I really hope the rest of us will be heading down that path soon!

 

[Lisa92881]

You will all join me soon, I just know it!

 

[KendraNoell]

I'm sick, it sucks. Especially when baby doesn't notice and he's all moving around like normal but I am so exhausted and sicky and miserable!

I took today off work to rest and I felt better for a few hours but unless I'm completely drugged up on benadryl and tylenol cold I am pretty much a sniveling mess. I gotta go back to work tomorrow too and I don't know how I'm gonna get through it

 

[pinkanhopeful]

Congrats lisa hope all goes well with your pregnancy

 

[raelynn]

We had the urologist appointment today. They found 'some' sperm in 3 out of the 5 samples taken during hubby's surgery. They didn't have exact numbers but we have some to work with. We just have to get back in touch with the fertility center to get started on IVF.

 

[mk8]

Great news Rae- Hope this is the start of your BFP

Lisa- great to hear that your pregnancy is going well

Kendra- sorry you're still feeling sick. Hope you manage to get some rest and feel much better soon.

As for me, I am back in the game. Bored of this now girls, I really am. I just feel a bit lost at the moment. 15 months and nothing. I havent had an HSG yet so will push for that when I have my fertiility specialist appointment at the end of the month. I am worried if they do find something wrong and also worried if I fall into the unexplained category. Sigh.

 

[KendraNoell]

mk, mine was cycle 16, you just never know

 

[raelynn]

MK, keeping my fingers crossed that the fertility specialist will figure it all out for you. Has your hubby had an SA yet? Obviously, the root of our issues has been that, not that my PCOS is helping any at all. I hope you get to move forward soon! To be honest, I've been keeping myself busy with a million other things just so I don't have time to sit and obsess about baby stuff anymore. It has been helping a lot.

 

[mk8]

Hi Rae, yup, hubby has had sa and everything was normal so I'm going to push for an hsg when I meet the fs this month. I've heard that the waiting list can be long though so I reckon I will prob end up paying for it privately. I just don't know what to do after that.

Good to hear you're keeping yourself preoccupied

 

[Lisa92881]

Mk - Its so hard!! Like Kendra said, it could happen soon! Or, I def think an hsg could help. One of my best friends was trying for 18 months with no luck, all tests showed that everything was perfect. She had the hsg in October and got pregnant in December. She thinks she hsg def helped cause they didn't do anything else differently. She's now 21 weeks along. She also got pregnant the month before they were scheduled to do Clomid, injectibles, and iui....so maybe meeting with the FS will scare your body into cooperating like it did with her!!

Rae - Glad to hear you're doing good and keeping positive. You're so strong, I'm very proud of you!

 

[mk8]

Thanks for your words of encouragement ladies. It really helps.

Well this week is supposedly fertile week so will be getting it on with hubster! Haha. I want to make BD more fun again. Last cycle it was actually quite hard work, which is not good for anything. We are going back to every other day as we tried every day for 5 days last cycle and I think it almost killed us! Haha.

I have been reading LTTTC posts and came across one that said the positive things about not getting preggers yet. It was lovely. I do think I have been unhappy in the past year. I have had many good times of course but seeing AF month after month is emotionally draining. So I have tried to focus on the positives...
- Hubby and I have gotten closer
- We will REALLY appreciate it when it happens
- We have got to travel whilst we try
- Our careers have excelled in the past year
Obviously I want nothing more than to hold my own baby in my arms but having to wait a little bit longer isnt that bad I suppose.

How are you ladies doing?

Lisa- how many people have you told?

Kendra- feeling better?

 

[raelynn]

MK - I completely agree with that. I can say for sure that struggling with infertility has brought hubby and I much much closer. He has been so supportive and willing to do anything for this baby that it has made me love and respect him so much more. I think tragedy helps to bring people together (My dad moved out when I was just starting high school and my mom and sis are freakishly close because of that heartache). And, I just know these babies will be adored for what we have gone through to get them.

Lisa - Thank you so much! It really is great to get support from you ladies during all the waiting.

So my latest news...
I spoke with our fertility center nurse today and she is calling in a script for birth control to my pharmacy for down regging. I start as soon as AF gets here (which we all know could take some time with my wonky cycles). I'll also go in for my mock embryo transfer during the down regging cycle so they can measure everything to know where to place our embryos during the actual transplant. I can't believe we're going to finally get started! Come on AF!! The whole process will take a while (1 month of down regging before we even move onto the fertility drugs) but that is good since hubby can't have another surgery until 3 months after his last and they'll use another surgery for backup if the frozen sperm don't survive defrost. Hopefully it won't come to that!

 

[KendraNoell]

MK- I think its great that you are finding things to be positive about. I am sure going to miss vacations whenever we want for the weekend

I am feeling ok, was having contractions earlier but thankfully got them under control.

Rae- So happy for you!!!

 

[mk8]

Rae, that's great news! Are you planning on doing anything different in the meantime? Diet changes, acupuncture etc? There are mixed theories on acupuncture so you may want to try that.

Kendra, sorry to hear you are getting contractions again but good to hear its back under control. Take it easy mrs, not long to go!

 

[raelynn]

Ladies, I'm glad our positive news gives you guys hope. We really went into the TEST appointment a few weeks ago not expecting to find anything. We were very pleasantly surprised. Hubby has NOA too so apparently the few sperm his is producing just aren't making it out. Glad we have some saved now though! Unfortunately, they can't guarantee they'll survive so urologist will be on standby on egg retrieval day in case we have to do a last minute TESE to try and find fresh samples. Hubby is a bit disheartened about this but hopefully we won't have to go down that road.

 

[Chatnoir]

Glad eveything is moving along for you Rae!

MK I know what you mean about bding getting a bit tiresome! I o'd yesterday according to my cbfm...which just happened to be my birthday so hoping I will get a belated birthday present!!

I am thankfull that although we haven't got pregnant yet, we have sorted out our debt and are def closer as a couple and we will sooooo appreciate it more when we do get pregnant!

Hope you all enjoyed your Easter weekend! Xxx

 

[mk8]

fingers crossed for you chat! sorry but i have forgotten how many months you have been ttc. have you had all the tests done?