dancareoi
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GETTING MARRIED
and we are going to TTC end of SUMMER SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!
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GETTING MARRIED
and we are going to TTC end of SUMMER SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!
I really don't know why I do this too myself, I have just gone onto pregnancy 3rd tri forum and can feel the jealousy building inside of me, and want to tell some of them to stop whinging about such silly things when they have a healthy baby growing inside of them! I know its wrong to feel that way, but sometimes I really can't help myself, it comes out of no where! I want this nastiness too go, i'm a nice person not a nasty jealous one! x
Hey you, I totally understand what you mean! I have a friend who got her :BFP: a week after I did and they were just "TRYING TO SEE IF IT WORKS" and me and hubby had been TTC for 13 months before my first :BFP:! Anyway after my miscarriage... after about 1 month, I thought I was alright enough to meet her with other friends. Oh how I regret my actions! Until today, I have this hatred towards her. I don't know where it came from but I just hate her. I can't hear/know her baby updates without hating her sooooooooo much!!! So I ended up emailing her saying I need to be selfish and protect myself from more pain. Basically, I've not heard from her since our meet up. I'm glad she gave me space but 5% of me feels really guilty.
https://i6.photobucket.com/albums/y248/Ladiruthless/IMG02022-20120310-0549-1.jpg
GETTING MARRIED
and we are going to TTC end of SUMMER SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!
I really don't know why I do this too myself, I have just gone onto pregnancy 3rd tri forum and can feel the jealousy building inside of me, and want to tell some of them to stop whinging about such silly things when they have a healthy baby growing inside of them! I know its wrong to feel that way, but sometimes I really can't help myself, it comes out of no where! I want this nastiness too go, i'm a nice person not a nasty jealous one! x
Hey you, I totally understand what you mean! I have a friend who got her :BFP: a week after I did and they were just "TRYING TO SEE IF IT WORKS" and me and hubby had been TTC for 13 months before my first :BFP:! Anyway after my miscarriage... after about 1 month, I thought I was alright enough to meet her with other friends. Oh how I regret my actions! Until today, I have this hatred towards her. I don't know where it came from but I just hate her. I can't hear/know her baby updates without hating her sooooooooo much!!! So I ended up emailing her saying I need to be selfish and protect myself from more pain. Basically, I've not heard from her since our meet up. I'm glad she gave me space but 5% of me feels really guilty.
I really don't know why I do this too myself, I have just gone onto pregnancy 3rd tri forum and can feel the jealousy building inside of me, and want to tell some of them to stop whinging about such silly things when they have a healthy baby growing inside of them! I know its wrong to feel that way, but sometimes I really can't help myself, it comes out of no where! I want this nastiness too go, i'm a nice person not a nasty jealous one! x
Hey you, I totally understand what you mean! I have a friend who got her :BFP: a week after I did and they were just "TRYING TO SEE IF IT WORKS" and me and hubby had been TTC for 13 months before my first :BFP:! Anyway after my miscarriage... after about 1 month, I thought I was alright enough to meet her with other friends. Oh how I regret my actions! Until today, I have this hatred towards her. I don't know where it came from but I just hate her. I can't hear/know her baby updates without hating her sooooooooo much!!! So I ended up emailing her saying I need to be selfish and protect myself from more pain. Basically, I've not heard from her since our meet up. I'm glad she gave me space but 5% of me feels really guilty.
You have nothing to feel guilty about. ANy of us who have been through this know exactly how you are feeling.
How are you feeling after your BFP the other day?
You are not being nasty at all. I know exactly how you feel. I can`t even look at a pregnant person.
Last week I went to visit my nan, her neighbour had a little girl at the end of feb and she was emptying shopping out of the car, I usually speak when I see her, but not this time, I just rushed straight into my nan`s house. I could`nt make small talk and congratulate her, or risk seeing the baby.
i felt terrible for doing this, but I`m not ready to get too close to a baby!
WILSMUM - you are more than welcome to join us, so sorry it has to be under such sad circumstances.
I will quickly tell you my story:-
NOV 2001 - age 30 - little boy born
NOV 2004 - age 33 - little girl born
JUL 2009 - age 37 - MMC at 8 weeks gestation
MAY 2010 - age 38 - Little boy born
OCT 2011 - age 40 - PG by accident. DH 42 - Nuchal scan on 8th dec at 12-13 weeks showed all was well with low risk for DS.
JAN 9 2012 - Routine check up at hospital at diabetes clinic(gestational) - 17 weeks PG - midwife couldn`t find HB with doppler - scan showed baby died 13-14 weeks.
JAN 12 2012 - Gave birth to LO in hospital.
We chose not to have PM or find baby`s sex - baby cremated Jan 23 2012.
It`s only been 9 weeks since we lost our LO - it was like a living nightmare to begin with. Things have gradually got better, but every now and again I have a meltdown
I want to TTC asap but DH is not sure, he is worried about things going wrong again, so at the moment i am in total limbo, which doesn`t help at all - especially as the clock is ticking as I will be 41 in august.
I think that is a good motto - `one day at a time`
YELLOW - congrats - it will be a very worrying time for you, i know, I`ve been there, but as `our` motto says - one day at a time.
one rainbow baby - let`s hope we can have some more.