Hey girls,
im just gonn apost my journal post in here as i am to tired to write anything out at the mo..
God what a horrible night..
Im afraid ive got nothing to report really.. after an evening and half a night of full contraction (teeth clinching hurtfull ones i might add) i somehow managed to drift to sleep for a bit on paracetamol and waking up every hour or so they seem to have dropped off considerably!!!
I was so close, i was at the verge of calling the midwife to come to hospital but i thought i could wait it out just a little more as they were still 5 min apart for a good minute instead of the recommended 3!!!
Im tired, im in pain (from those contractions and rubbish sleep) even though i dont have any tightening right now..
Emotional because it keeps failing and i am getting more exhausted as days go by, wondering how the hell im gonna keep my strenght up to push this baby out by the time i go into "real" labor myself.. i do not want forceps or anything in the like and told the midwife this morning id rather have my waters broken now whilst i am still well then having to wait for me to be classified "high risk" or another 2 weeks of this crap..
* have to note: midwife still calls it irritable uterus now, says they will not induce as baby is not over 41 weeks! and it will have to be on medical grounds which will at the soonest be Thursday but it only depends on my erratic BP and kidneys.. which will be measured again tomorrow..
Overall i am just devastated.. and to make maters worse the midwife even mentioned to me "no one was more suprised not to get a call last night"
FUCKING GREAT! I WISH I HAD!