Things I cannot say out loud....

[Natsku]

The plus side of weaning - the poos don't tend to be explosive anymore
The downside - they smell so much worse....

Maria: why must you do a poo when you're supposed to be napping?!! Also, go to sleep now, come on!

 

[Lettuce]

I'm on the mini-pill! That must be it!

mystery solved!

Ok, so I know I need to lose weight, but seriously, 2 pairs of pyjama trousers ripped apart in 2 days?!! Wtf?
And I'm seriously panicking about oh's 30th next month! Darling MIL has decided she wants a joint 60/30th! A bloody ceilidh. So I'm left to organise the whole thing, and I'm so fat! I'm dreading it! I have no idea what to buy cos I have no idea what suits me anymore! All the clothes I used to wear look terrible on me, my usual style doesn't look right, I think my body shape has changed but now I don't know what to wear!
Totally self indulgent rant. x

No, no.. not at all. I just went last night and bought a bunch of high protein and fiber things for a diet because I am so embarrassed that I don't want to be seen in public...

Don't feel like you're being "self indulgent"... it's just....difficult.

I just feel dreadful! I think I'm going to ask my SIL to come to the shops with me, she's good at seeing what suits people and maybe she'll see what I can't see! Before I would be able to pick stuff up and know what suited me, now I just stand there, looking round blankly. Xx

Ozziehunni, Jen is teething too, that might explain it!

 

[MizzDeeDee]

I'm on the mini-pill! That must be it!

mystery solved!

Ok, so I know I need to lose weight, but seriously, 2 pairs of pyjama trousers ripped apart in 2 days?!! Wtf?
And I'm seriously panicking about oh's 30th next month! Darling MIL has decided she wants a joint 60/30th! A bloody ceilidh. So I'm left to organise the whole thing, and I'm so fat! I'm dreading it! I have no idea what to buy cos I have no idea what suits me anymore! All the clothes I used to wear look terrible on me, my usual style doesn't look right, I think my body shape has changed but now I don't know what to wear!
Totally self indulgent rant. x

No, no.. not at all. I just went last night and bought a bunch of high protein and fiber things for a diet because I am so embarrassed that I don't want to be seen in public...

Don't feel like you're being "self indulgent"... it's just....difficult.

I just feel dreadful! I think I'm going to ask my SIL to come to the shops with me, she's good at seeing what suits people and maybe she'll see what I can't see! Before I would be able to pick stuff up and know what suited me, now I just stand there, looking round blankly. Xx

Ozziehunni, Jen is teething too, that might explain it!

 

[cowboys angel]

OH- If you ever get me drunk like that again, I will divorce you. If you ever tell me AFTER you've gotten me drunk again, I will divorce you. If you don't come back with my coffee soon, I will divorce you.

That is all.

 

[divadexie]

OH- you are stupid.
WHY WHY WHY after months and months of the SAME arguments, me telling you I want a little bit more help in the house, have you now decided that you are going to do Everything and told me to get out the kitchen when I came in to make LO's tea 20 mins ago.
You tell me people think I am taking the Pee because you work full time and I don't?! Your job starts at 9 and finishes at 5!! Mine starts when the kids wake up until after they have gone to bed!
Then you complain that I am always out and you always have to feed the kids and put them to bed?! there was ONE extra day last week, because I was helping a friend out. I generally don't go out until after they are in bed. And then you complain when I don't come back in time for you to go out! Your friend doesnt even have his kids all the time so why cant he just come here?! Why should I have to rush back? The only time I get to myself is when I am unintentionally irritating you

I do not want nor need you to do all the cooking, cleaning, looking after the kids. Even if it is your holiday this week. I just want a little bit of help, stop being so childish and awkward! You know you are just going to end up pissed off and more tired by the end of the week, and then you are going to blame it on me, so another argument will happen


I am fed up. I feel like you don't want me here anymore. I feel like I am just to convenient you, to do your cooking, cleaning, ironing. Then when I am in, you are either up in your office or out. You rarely talk to me, if we are in the same room because you cannot concentrate on the tv and me talking.
I can't explain how fed up I am right now. I don't know what the point is any more.

 

[cowboys angel]

Oops, I meant if he ever tells me he thinks I'm pregnant after getting me drunk again, I'll divorce him.

I was typing with a nasty hangover...sorry

 

[MizzDeeDee]

Baby-

You were so upset today that you were sweating and sticky from the effort of "telling me off". I know Dad has gotten in the habit of walking with you for 30 minutes or longer, but then you won't fall asleep and you'll be overtired.

I'm sorry you were so upset that your little cheeks were red but I have to put that pacifier in your mouth, rub your head or tummy, and get you sleeping.

I'm sorry baby!

p.s.
Your dad better find a new trick to get you to settle.

 

[Natsku]

Dear dishes: Please wash yourselves

 

[Lettuce]

I got 2 new dresses!!! I actually feel good in them! My SIL picked them!
https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5116981&prodFindSrc=paramNav

And https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5182611&prodFindSrc=paramNav

 

[MizzDeeDee]

I got 2 new dresses!!! I actually feel good in them! My SIL picked them!
https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5116981&prodFindSrc=paramNav

And https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5182611&prodFindSrc=paramNav

I especially like the one with flowers! I bet they both look nice though.

 

[Natsku]

They look nice. I wish we had shops with prices like that over I can't remember the last time I bought myself new clothes that weren't from Lidl

 

[Lettuce]

I got 2 new dresses!!! I actually feel good in them! My SIL picked them!
https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5116981&prodFindSrc=paramNav

And https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5182611&prodFindSrc=paramNav

I especially like the one with flowers! I bet they both look nice though.

Thank you!
They are lovely, and better yet, DH likes them too! He was like "they're not your usual style.... " yippee!

Ohhh cowboys angel are you feeling pregnant?!!

 

[Lettuce]

They look nice. I wish we had shops with prices like that over I can't remember the last time I bought myself new clothes that weren't from Lidl

Are you from Britian originally? I just wondered, I'm so nosey! is it good living in Finland? I hear it's expensive, but I've always wanted to visit a scandinavian country!

 

[Natsku]

They look nice. I wish we had shops with prices like that over I can't remember the last time I bought myself new clothes that weren't from Lidl

Are you from Britian originally? I just wondered, I'm so nosey! is it good living in Finland? I hear it's expensive, but I've always wanted to visit a scandinavian country!

Yeah I'm from Britain, moved here 4 years ago. Its alright, bloody expensive though!

 

[KittenKat]

Denmark is the same too, OH was going to buy me some new clothes while we were over there in the summer but everything that I liked was more than I would spend on clothes and it was such a pity as alot of the stuff was just my taste which is rare.....though I did get a really funky autumn coat that wasnt too bad. But I didnt do too bad as OH's mum had gotten hold of some nearly new stuff from somewhere and most of it fitted and was just my style

 

[cowboys angel]

I got 2 new dresses!!! I actually feel good in them! My SIL picked them!
https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5116981&prodFindSrc=paramNav

And https://www.peacocks.co.uk/product/index.jsp?productId=5182611&prodFindSrc=paramNav

I especially like the one with flowers! I bet they both look nice though.

Thank you!
They are lovely, and better yet, DH likes them too! He was like "they're not your usual style.... " yippee!

Ohhh cowboys angel are you feeling pregnant?!!

Right now I'm feeling hungover...but my stomach is starting to 'pooch' a bit, as my lovely husband pointed out to me last night, AFTER I was more than slightly trashed,

The is still about a week and a half out, so we'll find out!

 

[Lettuce]

Fingers toes and everything crossed for ya!

Myself: why oh why must you torment yourself with the natural birthing thing! you don't belong there! Why look?! You know it'll just upset you and make you feel a failure again.

 

[cowboys angel]

Thanks!

Why is looking at the natural birthing thing so bad hun?

 

[Lettuce]

Thanks!

Why is looking at the natural birthing thing so bad hun?

I had a rough time with labour, was induced at 41 + 4 and was in labour for 30hrs, pushed for 1.5, but her head was tilted so failed forceps in theatre, they had to push her back up with a spinal that only worked up to my belly button (yes, it hurt), and an emcs with PPH (2.5lt blood loss)
And I torment myself with reading about the evils of unnecessary induction, epidurals and how every woman can have the birth she wants! I even correct people when they ask about me giving birth, I say I didn't give birth, and it really hurts.
People say having a healthy baby is the only thingthat matters. Yes it's important, and I thank god every day for my hale and hearty girl, but it's not the only thing, I grieve for my lost experience. I blame myself, I can't even feel sorry for myself cos I feel it's my fault.
Sorry, some days I don't care, but others... Well, others are just harder. ESP when I hear of a friends successful labour! (I'm delighted for my friend but it just hurts)
Oops, pity post. X

 

[StarlitHome]

Once again, MIL - if when you are holding Boo-boo and she starts fussing and I say "I think she needs to eat", I'm probably right. You can play with her again when she's happy and you'll both enjoy it more, so just hand her back!!