Things I cannot say out loud....

[lisaf]

My story: I am new to this site and I have been trying to conceive for the past 2.5 years. Every day, all around me, it feels as though each and every person I know is getting pregnant and I can't help but hate each and every one of them. I feel as though I am overcome with jealousy and I hate it. That is just not who I am. I am in a constant state of self pity and refuse to go to any baby related function which tends to isolate me from everyone I know. I feel slightly bad when I decline and then I think to myself, how the F did these two produce a child and we can't. it's awful to think that, i know...but I do at least once a day and i think this about my really good friends. What's wrong with me that I feel this way. Have any of you felt this way? Is it normal or am i just a big B?

Its soooo normal I remember feeling the same... I ended up spending a fortune on baby presents for my friends because I was feeling so guilty about not being able to stand being around them most of the time. It was just so hard, mostly because they had NO IDEA how hard it is to struggle to get pregnant... one of them even told me how she understands because it took her 4 whole months to get pregnant.... She said this to me when I was on month 10, hadn't been ovulating, was taking clomid and still not getting pregnant etc... I would have smacked her if she hadn't said it over the phone. A true friend will at least understand that you are in pain and respect that you need some time to isolate and lick your wounds and is happy to do something non-baby related or talk about something besides babies with you and/or ask how you are doing with your struggles.
There are many amazing women on here who understand exactly where you are coming from.

 

[Eliza_V]

DH: I hope me going away for a week with LO makes you realise how much you've upset me with what you've done, and what you'll miss if you even think of doing it again.

LO: How can one small person need so much stuff and take up so much space?!?! I don't think I'll fit all of your stuff in my car...

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Vixie. Has he totally pushed you over the edge? Make this will make him see sense!

 

[Karlie06]

Sending Vixiepoo xx

 

[Eliza_V]

he has completely I don't want to go into it all as just thinking about it makes really upset, but I haven't felt this low in a long time. I'm worried he'll just see it as an opportunity to relax, have quiet time, and bitch to his friends about the big bad wife who doesn't let him do what he wants or something. But I'm hoping that won't be the case and he'll learn from this. i've lied to my family as to why I'm driving 200 miles down to them though; i said because it's half term the baby groups have stopped (that bit is true) but I've lied and said that a lot of my friends (or their husbands) are teachers (kind of half-true) so they're going away half term as well (that bit isn't true) and I've made out Stu is going away with work for a night, when it's only for a day. Whether they believe me or not I don't know!

xxx

 

[Ozzieshunni]

To be honest, I would tell your family the truth They might be able to offer you support.

 

[Eliza_V]

My family aren't really the supportive type.. More the "I told you so" superiority complex type. part of the reason I live 200 miles away!! Lol xx

 

[Lettuce]

Though I think it's understandable you haven't told them, I guess you should. Tho that's easy for me to say, I don't tell them when DH has hurt my feelings. Prob cos they love him.
hope it wakes him up a bit, and hope you have a lovely time. Don't be surprised if they've guessed. hope you find support and understanding. xxx

 

[tanya]

I have said it out loud but I'm so excited I have to tell everyone lol

We have the first tooth!!!!

I've never been so excited to be bitten lol

 

[Ozzieshunni]

My family aren't really the supportive type.. More the "I told you so" superiority complex type. part of the reason I live 200 miles away!! Lol xx

That's a bummer I hope the time apart makes him realize what he could lose.

 

[Cupkake.Luver]

To my "room"-

Why are you so small? Xavier has no room anymore!

 

[StarlitHome]

Cold/poorliness - FUCK. RIGHT. OFF. I don't need this right now, I have a baby. And if you get her too I will be pissed.

 

[BabyBoo36]

Hugs vixiepoo x

 

[Lauki]

Teething / Separation anxiety - Fuck off, you changed my lovely child into a very sad and scared little baby! Uncool to pick on someone so small!

 

[BabyBoo36]

To the rude old lady sat next to us at the theatre - I'm sorry, I must have missed the law they passed saying babies were not allowed in public places. I mean, what was your problem?? She was as good as gold, sat quietly jiggling on Daddy's knee throughout, and the only time she made any noise at all, was when she recognised her Nanna on stage and got a little bit excited - which funnily enough made everyone else around us go "awwww!". In fact, I think your mobile phone made more noise when it kept going off. Also, quick hint for you - if you don't want people asking you to move so they can get past, request an aisle seat. Simples. Although I noticed you still expected everyone to move for you when you got out your seat to answer your bloody phone....

SIL - no, she's not on puree's. Sigh......

FIL - please stop calling her "the child". She has a name you know.....

BnB - why won't you let me upload any pictures?? I have a fab one of Pud covered in pasta and sauce which you won't let me upload! Bloody "file upload failed".....

DH - thank you for the huge box of chocs which you had to give me early as you can't hide them. Although I can guarantee there won't be many left by tonight!

 

[Ozzieshunni]

I don't get people. I wouldn't bring Alex to a theatre, but that's because he tends to scream out at the most awkward moments I had him at my volunteer support meeting and people said he was as good as gold! Didn't even notice him there.

 

[Lettuce]

Stupid woman babyboo.

Dear doctor, please don't laugh at me for bringing me daughter in for a cold, I'm frightened its a chest infection. Plus her hernia is no better, plus she has ingrown toenails... (Born with them, weird, I know.) I've been a sane mother so far. Please don't laugh.
Little baby girl, I'm sorry. I don't want you to be sick. I know you're ill cos you are coughing, crying and you want to sleep, that's not my baby....

 

[BabyBoo36]

Get better soon Jenny.

Ozzie - I wasn't too worried about taking her as she's usually a good as gold, plus it was a dance show (Nanna tap dances) so I knew she's be fascinated by the costumes and movement as she was glued to the TV when "Strictly" was on!

 

[Ozzieshunni]

That's cool

Lettuce, can you believe Jenny and Alex are going to be eight months old in FOUR days?

 

[Lettuce]

Nope! But then again, I can't believe I'll be 29 in 5days!
She's just not a baby anymore, she walks (cruises and holds hands, let's go to pick things up) and pulls up to stand, she crawls (bloody fast) and shouts dada, mamaaaaaaaa! And ca for cats. She def know cat. She shouts it at them. She's so cheeky and loud! never mind seeing what she's like as a toddler, can see her as a teenager!