Things I cannot say out loud....

[Ozzieshunni]

Mine must be lazy, lol. He'll crawl backwards and pull himself up on my fingers, but nothing else really so far. He'll go mamamamamama when he's upset, lol.

 

[Lettuce]

Oh enjoy it when theyre immobile... Nothing is safe and you just worry constantly that they'll fall!

Nah, not lazy, laid back! must be the California in him, cool laid back dude.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Ah, that would be the Hawaiian then, lol My grandpa is Hawaiian.

 

[Lauki]

Enjoy it ! Sophie is pulling up on absolutely everything but then gets a bit too confident and has quite a few slips! Also she gets angry when she can't get herself back on the floor again and starts screaming .

Jenn sounds like she's doing great!! What does she look like now? She must've changed so much from your avatar!!

 

[tanya]

i really can't say this out loud but dh has gone out for a meal with his work mates, any normal person would think 'I hope he enjoys himself' i can't help torturing myself and being convinced that thats not where he's gone.
i considered following him but it would be too hard to explain to his sister where i was taking the baby at bath time and too difficult to think of a reason why they should babysit, all id need to do is drive to the place i think he's gone to, and see if his car is there, I decided to get drunk instead tho so I'm sat drinking by myself while my husband is possibly exploring his gay side, i think he's in the same area where he said he was going but that area has two gay bars and a swingers club thats doing bi night tonight (i googled)
when i told his (gay) sister where in town he'd gone the first thing she said was "I bet he's gone to a gay bar"
I can't confront him and i can't confirm it so i don't know why I'm even typing this, its probably miss stella artois talking.
i plan to majorly guilt trip him for a few days, flynn was looking for him at bed time and wouldn't settle and his mums just rung me in tears she's been trying to get in touch with him to tell him that his nan who's in hospital had an mri scan today and they think she's got terminal lung cancer.
I'm having a fucking wonderful evening.
on the plus side i got a new handbag today but couldn't get the scarf i wanted as I couldn't justify paying £97 for a scarf, it was in the sale though and it was beautiful. I might try and guilt trip dh into buying it for me, if he does it definitely confirms my theory that he's gone out to have sex with random men, £97 on a scarf is a clear sign of guilt i think.

either that or I'm a paranoid freak and he really has gone out with his workmates and is having a curry.

maybe if i got out more i wouldn't spend all day thinking about the terrible things people can do?

 

[Lettuce]

tanya, what makes you think he would do that?! I hope he has just gone for a curry, you'd prob be able to tell when he comes home.

Oh lauki, she's not so different, just cheekier! I'll upload a pic when I can. Do you have fb? If so I'll pm you and you can add. x

 

[tanya]

lettuce- i caught him out a couple of years ago contacting men on the internet for sex, pretending to be me setting it up, i confronted him and he just denied it and deleted the emails, i put it behind me and tried to forget but i guess that the trust never fully returns.

i do feel a little guilty now, I texted him to call me coz i wanted to tell him about his nan and when he rung me and i told him he said he wasn't enjoying himself and was coming home soon, ill see when he gets home how he behaves and probably lay awake all night analysing every move.

he's probably really out for a curry and ill be able to confirm it quite easily next time i go through to his shop and casually ask some of the people who are supposed;y with him whether they enjoyed their curry.

more beer!!

 

[Karlie06]

Tanya xx

 

[cerrie311]

I do hope that you figure it out either way... I definitely understand your trust issues with him. I went through a similar situation with my ex...

 

[tanya]

hmmm, hes come home early but considering he went for a curry he's brought a sandwich home from tesco, i don't know what to think

 

[rainbowbaby2]

Cant say thia out loud..... but if your wanting people to drop everything and be there for you be prepared.to be there for them in return its not a one way street and you cant guilt trip anyone for not being there if you dont give a hoot about them in the first place selfish old boot

 

[Lettuce]

Tanya, that is awful. does he smell of curry? He's home early so I think that's prob a good thing. X

 

[Lauki]

Tanya - I hope things turn out okay for you .

Lettuce - I do have Facebook! Let's be friends ! (I loooooooooooove baby pictures!!)

 

[tanya]

He didnt smell of curry no, and he came home hungry which is odd when he'd been out for a meal :-/
Hopefully him coming home means he didn't like it and won't do it again, we live with his sister so he can't get anyone in when I'm out.
I think hes bi and is curious of that side of himself and the temptation to try it is too strong, I know the feelings coz I went through them at 15, hopefully it'll pass again and he'll manage another few years without doing it, it always seems to be just after something stressful, we'd just got married and moved into our first house last time, I suspected him when I was pregnant and now we've been evicted, sharing a house, he's been promoted to a stressful job.
I'm not defending the behaviour just trying to be understanding.
Maybe I should let him do the things he wants to in bed even though tbh it grosses me out.

Urgh! I give up! Until I have proof I'm just not gonna think about it, he brings in a good wage, he's a good father and I could do much worse

 

[Natsku]

Tanya. Hopefully he changed his mind and thats why he came home early.

To OH: You fucking well better get up and drive us to Maria's clinic appointment. Your bad mood does not trump her needs I really don't want to have to call your dad to take us like last time.

 

[Lettuce]

Tanya! I hope it's all ok.

Nats, that's really not fair. I hope he gets up and goes.

She's only 2 miles away, not the moon, she's with her gran! Who loves her, she's prob having a ball.
Now stop watching fraiser and get on with stuff!

 

[Natsku]

Stop lazing around Lettuce!

Im gonna go wake him up in a mo and ask him.

 

[Lauki]

I can't say this out loud cause it'll make me seem like a saddo !

We had a playdate today and I was so excited because I haven't seen anyone but hubby in 1.5 weeks and the days are getting long and boring! So I had Sophie all dressed up and ready to go, bag packed and all! But the mum+baby who were coming to pick me up were late! So I decided to just check Facebook to make sure and turned out I missed a message they were all poorly, so cancelling the playdate!

For some reason it really upset me . I feel so stupid for it, but I've been stuck with a very clingy, non stop crying and never sleeping baby for 10 days and could do with some distraction..

Ugh.. I do sound like a saddo!

 

[Dragonfly]

The fact you didnt even get me a thing, never even said a nice word to me apart from the usual barking my head off then left without even saying you where going out and barking again at me down the phone speaks volumes. Its like a confirmation I am just dirt to you.One day in the year where I wanted to be appreciated not treated like shit. Theres always more important things for you to do than to ever do anything with me. Another day where you make me feel like shit only its worse as everyone around me is showing of what they got I didnt even get a card or a nice word said to me. Costs nothing what I wanted.

 

[Lauki]

I got an Asda Smart Price Valentines card over the email .