Things I cannot say out loud....

[BrokenfoREVer]

I could honestly just sit and cry and cry

 

[StarlitHome]

Maybe we'll be bump buddies Starlit

That would be fun!

Broken

 

[Dragonfly]

Trying so hard not to go on a deleting spree on facebook I am so fed up with some people. Then I dont know if I can be bothered with the agro of messages after.

 

[Lettuce]

Can't say this outloud yet, cos its not public on facebook etc and I want my brother and sil to have their moment....

But I'M AN AUNTIE!!!!!!!!!!! wee boy arrived this morning!

 

[tanya]

Hey broken, I was being nosy and had to look at the 'corset pics' yuck was my first point but then I noticed that in the one with a black and pink corset if you look in the mirror you can see a pushchair and baby watching, I would be bringing that shit up and saying you don't want josh exposed to behaviour like that?
Just a thought x

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Thanks Tanya. I'll mention it to my solicitor, not that it'll be taken notice of, cos everything is supervised ATM.

I think it's disgusting though. Who would take thier child into Ann summers & parade round like that in front of them! And I'M the bad parent(!)

 

[Ozzieshunni]

She's just vile, sweet

Auntie Lettuce!

Dragonfly

 

[Fergie]

Congrats DragonFly
Congrats Auntie Lettuce
And go slap his arse into court Broken

Having a shit time. Our 20 week scan didn't exactly go well. I should have known as soon as i walked in the U/S room as the "Dr" who scanned me is the same one i've requested not to be anywhere near. Bubs has talipes, which if it was just the talipes wouldn't bother me at all ( i did the baby U/S clinic on a monday morning so i know what they are and how they are treated ), but i know that they are a marker for other issues. I'm trying so hard to keep it together for OH and Boo but inside i'm just breaking. As soon as that bloody Dr said "baby is healthy ... but" i had to know what we were having so we are having a little boy . Whenever that man is near me he just gives me bad vibes (he was the same Dr who scanned me with Zara, the one who constantly told me to be quiet and shut up throughout her 20 week scan ). I've been told i have to have another 2 scans and wait for an appt with the Ortho Consult (please let it be someone i've worked with), which sort of does ease my mind a bit that i'm just being seen by ortho, but i don't trust that Dr at all.

It's so nice to let it all out. My pancreas has been playing up with all the stress and worry and to top it all Boo has to attend Paeds to have her MMR done. I'm seriously cracking here and the only thing that's helping me keep it together is our new wee dog Bea (AKA bumble, iggle piggle, honey). Getting out on my own with her for a walk is clearing my head and working out the stress. She's a lovely little rescue dog (6yr old cross staffy + jack russell) and Boo loves her as do we.

I'm so glad there's somewhere like here to get everything off my chest

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Awww Fergie... A wee little boy. That's wonderful. I'm sure any issues will be abso fine, try not to stress yourself out to much.

Grr at that dr though

Your new dog is beaut, I'm glad she's bringing you such peace. I'm sure she's loving her foREVer home.

OH... The fact you are a morngy fuck with no sense of humour does not mean I am. Don't tell me off like a child in public cos you don't think it's funny. I do, I rather enjoy upsetting old people who look down their noses at me like I'm scum. So grow up and join in or your gonna spend a loooooooong time being embarrassed by me

 

[Natsku]

fergie, I hope its just the talipes and not anything else. But congrats on a little boy! Call him Dave please.

Yay auntie Lettuce!

Urgh flu, go away, I had to cancel my psychologist appointment AGAIN cos of you damn flu

 

[Ozzieshunni]

I'm worried about Alex going to my friend's house tonight, lol. She's watching him for three hours until DH gets off work. He's never stayed there alone, but he knows her and she has two young boys and a daughter who is a little older. I hope he'll be okay. I know she's good with kids and I trust her, but ARGH!

 

[sandilion]

MIL and FIL: If you EVER start preaching your anti gay rubbish to me and my LO ever again, I will be ripping him from your arms and you most likely wont be seeing him again. So sick of you guys pushing your psychotic beliefs onto us, and the fact you are already trying to brainwash our baby raises BIG RE FLAGS and will no longer be tolerated.

FIL: Yes DH and I have gone vegan get the F over it! We'll do what we like. We're not making you do the same thing so shut your stupid ignorant mouth as I am sick to death of hearing your unwanted opinions all the damn time. There are many other things we can talk about, but you constantly insist on lecturing us on anything we do in life. Shut the F up you nasty angry old man.

MIL: Get with the damn times woman! BLW is not cruelty to a baby, he is so advanced with his eating skills and you trying to pin him down and force your jarred mush down his throat will not win you any browny points with him NOR i. YES he can eat a piece of toast thank you very much, and i would be happy to show you if you would just get the F over yourself and allow me. In fact get ready for it because you will be pushed aside the next time we visit you and you better step back and let me do my thing otherwise you're gonna start copping an ear full. I know you cant handle it whenever i speak up so i have been biting my tongue, but not anymore.

I also would appreciate you keep your parenting advice to yourself thank you very much, as even though you live in complete denial of the matter, you and FIL did a real number on DH all through his childhood and I am still having to pick up the pieces from your fuck ups as parents. You're lucky we are even giving you this second chance after your fake apology to me. I can see straight through you; and your constant bitchy remarks to me that get made when its just you and I are gonna stop from here on, as the next time you make a snide comment to me you will be copping one straight back. If you don't want the confrontation, then stop testing me.

Ahh dear, bring on Xmas!

 

[Dragonfly]

Sandilion your inlaws win worst inlaws on bnb. I havnt heard anything worse than what they have said. I would go insane. I know its a hard place when you cant say much for want of peace, sometimes my OH ones say things *nothing in this scale* that annoy me and I am biting my fist. You deserve a medal for it. You could play anything you can find with Julian Clary in it. That should make them drop dead.

 

[sandilion]

Heh yeah they're pretty bad! I haven't even said half of what they have put me through. Did i ever mention that on the very first Christmas i spent with this family (When DH and i had only been together for a couple months at the time) they gave me second hand under wear as a gift. God knows where it came from. At the time i didn't know if it was all a practical joke or what so didn't react.... but nope, it was them wanting to send me the message loud and hard that I will never be accepted. They are seriously completely F'd in the head. It's scary. Apparently MIL copped it pretty bad from FIL's parents, so now she is making history be repeated and giving me complete hell to make herself feel better for what she went through.

OT: Love your avatar Dragonfly, your boys are just adorable - and OMG you're preggers! Congrats x

 

[Dragonfly]

I needed some pics for parents calender that where christmas themed so done them yesterday.

Wonder how your partner didnt turn out like them. I know its possible as I dont feel like I come from my own family. My brother would be an anti gay, lazy chav or a 35 year old who claims off the dole and is rude to a lot of people. And my parents are so different to me to. I may add not like my brother, we dont know how he ended up like that. My mum pretends he is mentally disabled, seriously she does. She isnt aware theres names for people who refuse to work and leech of others.

yep preg apparently. Not sunk in at all. Probably if I start being sick or something it would.

 

[sandilion]

I know what you mean, its very bizarre he managed to not turn out just like them - But i do at times feel concern and his idea at times on how LO should be raised concern me and i generally have to give him a stern talking to that it will NOT be happening that way. For example, to deal with his up bringing of so called 'hard love' (when he tells me about it though i fail to see where the love part was) and he tends to take the gruff approach with LO, so then i have to step in and tell him I will not allow it to be that way. So unfortunately I probably will have that to deal with, but thankfully he is no where near as bad as them.

He has at times shown his Dad's unreasonable angry temper over silly small things, but I always speak up and remind him he is acting like his Dad and I can see he definitely is making effort to change that. Its hard. Some of their bad behavior has unfortunately been learned.

Your brother sounds awesome ...

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Absolutely dreading tomorrow. I feel sick.

Their first contact in 10 months. I have no idea how I want it to go. I just don't want my baby to be upset, but I don't want him to form any sort of bond with that idiot either.

I just don't want it to be tomorrow...ever. I just want to stay in this wonderful afternoon playing with my rocker boy

Oh & idiot... Reporting me to fruad shows exactly what type of person you are. I haven't done anything wrong you moron! And it just shows you care more about power & games of one-up than you do about Josh. You are such a bast*rd and I hope karma brings you exactly what you deserve!!

I'm such a mess ladies. I'm so scared about tomorrow

 

[Natsku]

tomorrow will go ok, don't worry

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Do you have to leave him or is it supervised?

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

I have to leave him, but a worker will be supervising the contact. So he won't be alone with Paul, but I won't be there