Things I cannot say out loud....

[BrokenfoREVer]

Mum... Does doing the washing mean your ignoring mine & Joshs again? Like last time? Am I allowed to pitch the same fit you did when I left yours?

Also...it's funny how you never notice how much there is to do when I'm doing it. Cleaning up after your OCD is not at all fun!

On a much lighter note... I'm glad you've stopped sulking. I can hear you playing with Josh & it's cute ^.^

 

[LadyRoy]

SD: I know you are only 3 1/2 but if you pop in the night please don't take your nappy off in bed. There us crap everywhere. Even in your hair. I feel sick at the stench.

OH: thank you for cleaning it all up so I can hide in bed xxx

 

[Lettuce]

eeewwww ladyroy!

DH thank for my lie in.

 

[tanya]

*tmi*
Thank god for that! I've not 'been' in a whole week, been taking senna and fibregel for days with nothing, had such bad cramps last night I cried.
Now ive had a poo! Wouldve preferred not to have the first one in a week at mil's house but not much I could do, tbh I'd have gone in a bush just to get my tummy back!
Apologies fOr tmi

Sil- are you reading this forum? A couple of times lately I've said things on here and then she seems to sort it out? I moans about the cat litter on the floor, next thing I know itd been swept up, I moaned about the washing up and cleaning and next thing I know she's insisting on washing up? Coincidence or not?

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Yay for poo!

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Right...I am well aware this is totally pathetic but

Josh is MY baby. So its MY right to tell people things about him. Like his weight. You did this when I was pregnant, running off to tell people he was a boy. That is MY news not yours. You want to be able to tell people that, have your own baby!

Mother...shouting at me & calling me pathetic isn't helping here. Yes I know people shouldn't bare the brunt of my bad mood...but can you blame me! I'm fed up with this. I AM HIS MOTHER. Not your fucking sister...how ever much she tries to act like that.

Grandad...if you ever threaten to hit me for not having both hands on Josh again I will never bring him to see you again. I am his mum. I'm 20 yrs old & I'm his mum. I'm not fucking playing at this. He's not someones baby I've borrowed. I had hold of him & he was perfectly safe. So safe in fact...his leg dropped half an inch when I took my hand of it & he never even batted an eyelid. How would I ever get anything done if I held him with 2 hands constantly...I'd be stuck in one room for a start, since I wouldn't be able to open any doors. You did it last week too & I let it go. Not again. Also, he's not a tiny newborn anymore (not that he was ever tiny! You too great pleasure in telling me how 'fat' I was when I was pregnant) He is very strong & was perfectly safe. How do I know this...cos I was the one fucking holding him!

Yes I was very rude to you grandad, I'm sure you will go & tell everyone so they can have a go at me. But I'm not a child you can threaten anymore. I don't care how king-like you think you are. I have total respect for you, but sometimes I think you forget I'm an adult & a mother, not a 5 yr old you can hit for being cheeky.

FOB...Just fuck off & die seriously!

Okay...I'm totally aware how pathetic that rant is. But its how I'm feeling right now. So.Angry!

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Not pathetic at all! I hate how people underestimate young moms

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Thank you.

I'm sick of being made to feel like I'm playing at it & I'll be handing back to an responsible adult soon.

Funny how people never want to swoop in at 2/3/4/5/6 in the morning though. Oh no then its 'I've done my time getting up with babies'

 

[Ozzieshunni]

I know! And what's with wanting to have babies overnight? I wouldn't wish that on anyone! Sure, maybe it'll give me a break, but more likely than not, I'll still get up and I'll probably worry 10000x more!

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Exactly. I know damn well if Josh wasn't in his own bed in my room I'd be up all night worrying if he was okay, what if so&so doesn't wake up with him. What if he's missing me. What if he thinks I've abandoned him. It wouldn't be a break...I'd be a wreak by the time I got him back

 

[Lauki]

Haha, I'd wish anyone good luck trying to get Sophie to sleep at night or get her back to sleep when she wakes up!

No way she's sleeping over anywhere until she's probably 2-3 years old.

Broken, you are not being pathetic. It's horrible when people undermine you, you really shouldn't stand for it and indeed tell them what you think!

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Thank you Lauki

 

[Natsku]

Not being pathetic at all Broken, they're the ones being pathetic!

I'd love for someone to look after Maria overnight no one would dare

 

[Lettuce]

brokenforever, they were in the wrong. Of course you are careful with your child! I never understand that, I mean do they think anyone loves your child more than you?!

 

[Ozzieshunni]

Nats, no wood pile would be safe!

 

[Lauki]

Also, I do just about everything with Sophie on my hip being held by one arm. If I hadn't mastered that skill I'd never be coming out of the living room!

 

[tanya]

Also, I do just about everything with Sophie on my hip being held by one arm. If I hadn't mastered that skill I'd never be coming out of the living room!

I tried that the other day ad Flynn tried to throw himself away from me, I'm gonna have to stick to throwing him over my shoulder for the time being lol
Broken- they are in the wrong not you, it doesn't matter what age you are you carried a baby in your womb for nine months,, you gave birth you are a mother, you are josh's mother and anyone who doesn't accept that and respect you as a mother doesn't deserve to spend time with him.

Mil- I didn't eat my apple pie coz I didn't like it, replacing the sugar with artificial sweetener tastes weird, I have no idea what you did to the pastry either and the pattern round the edge which was made by pushing your fingernail into the pastry made me feel sick.
Also please stop giving my baby chocolate, he's 7 months old! He doesn't need chocolate and just because dh can't say no to you and let's you get away with doing whatever you want doesn't mean I agree with it but since dh is flynns parent too I apparently have to respect his wishes.
Mil- I will cook and clean when I want, stop asking how im getting on with the housework!

 

[StarlitHome]

I'm sick of being made to feel like I'm playing at it & I'll be handing back to an responsible adult soon.

Oh hon I feel you. When Molly was younger my MIL made me feel like that all the time (not exactly surprising as she'd been doing that since we got married, made me feel like we were "playing house").
You are not being pathetic at all.

Oh, and as for your granddad? He can go suck eggs, if I didn't carry Molly one-handed (and she's a CHUNK, she weighs over 20 pounds) I'd never get anything done.

 

[Ozzieshunni]

I hear that! I've worked up my arm muscles carrying Alex one handed

 

[BrokenfoREVer]

Thanks very much ladies. Glad to know I'm not just being really over sensitve