SIL - I know you think you've somehow "won" because you've managed to drive a wedge between me and MIL, but tell me exactly, what is your prize for "winning"? Karma's a b***h, love, and I have no doubt you'll get yours. Who do you think you will have when your parents have passed on? Your brother wants nothing to do with you, your wider family avoid you like the plague, and I'm pretty sure the 800+ "friends" you have on FB (most of whom you've never actually met in real life) won't give 2 hoots about you either. You haven't seen your niece since February and probably won't for a long time - was it worth it? It's a good job my Dad defriended you on FB before your nasty little rant about me. Would you like your father to have to read the things you'd put on there about me, if the tables were turned?
Oh, I know if you were to read this you wouldn't care. After all, this is all MY fault. It's MY fault you don't have the life you want. It's MY fault we had children and you didn't. It's MY fault we are (mostly!) happily married when you're not. It's all my fault. You're good at playing the victim. "Poor C. It's not her fault, she's depressed/had a hard life/been bullied 20 years ago"- again, seemingly mine and your brothers fault. You're nothing but a jealous, spiteful, manipulative, narcissistic cow, and even if DH does decide to one day get back in touch with you, it'll be a cold day in hell before you set foot in my house again. Happy? Worth it? Tell me it was when you're old and alone.
MIL - you may think you're making a point by your petty little actions and remarks, but all you're doing is showing me where SIL got her attitude from in the first place. I'm sorry you feel I "deserved" what SIL said just because I wouldn't give her her own way, but I've actually lost all respect for you as a result. I expect you to stick up for your daughter (I'd be worried if you didn't), but to blindly crash in and stick up for her when she's caused so much pain and heartache.......all I know is that I'd be ashamed of Freya if she acted the way your daughter has, and I'd be telling her so.
DH - I can't tell you to your face, and I put a smile on for you, but I'm so unhappy. I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to be the one who has to look after your parents because they have no-one else around. They don't deserve me at the moment. I want to go back home, to where my mum and dad are, and it breaks my heart that we can't. I want another baby, and it breaks my heart that we can't. I put a smile on for everyone who asks when we're having another, and I answer all their questions, but inside, it hurts like hell. I'll never stop blaming myself for what happened to Freya. I'm worried that this weeks holiday with my mum will make me feel worse not better. I'm struggling, and I just want to be at home with my family.