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[cupcake1981]

Garfie big , I have had too many of those horrid heartbreaking scans to, they are the just simply the worst. Thinking of you xxxxxxxxxcx

 

[thethomsons]

Oh Garfie I don't know what to say Hun, there's nothing going to help apart from we are all here to support you in anyway you need. :/( so so sorry xx

 

[mannymoo]

I'm so sorry garfie. That is heart breaking. Thinking of you lots x

 

[mommylov]

Ladies

I have been for my scan and it wasn't good news - the baby is dead no heartbeat was found

I am beyond devastated and can't believe this has happened again - I now have to make my mind up what course of action for removal I take

I will keep up with your journeys for now until I decide what I will do



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Garfie, DAMMIT!!!!!!!!! Im soooo angry!!!!!!! Im pissed that this is happening to good people like you!!!!!! My heart just sank. I just want to scream. Im so terribly sorry love. Im really angry!!! this is just not fair at all.

 

[PopTart28]

Oh garfie I'm so very sorry for you honey!
That's absolutely shit it really is, I too am very angry you are going through this again!
Please look after yourself, take your time and do what's best for you but always remember we are here if and whenever you need us.
Sending you the biggest of hugs right now and just know I'll be thinking of you, xxxxxxxxxxxxx

 

[Laubull]

Garfie I am so sorry, it really isn't fair

Sending you the BIGGEST hugs. Xxx

 

[thethomsons]

How are you today Garfie? Xxxxxx

 

[garfie]

Thanks once again ladies

Today I am feeling numb and still pregnant but I know I probably am not - I have thought of all scenarios (about 3am this morning) I thought maybe there was something shadowing it's heart?/maybe it was on it's belly (can they turn this early?)/maybe the ultrasound wasn't strong enough - oh I don't know it just keeps going around and around in my head

I'm in limbo land - I just keep crying and I'm not even dressed today



X

 

[mannymoo]

Garfie did they give you a trans vaginal u/s or an abdominal u/s?

 

[garfie]

Manny - A trans - which is why I think a mistake can't have been made



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[mannymoo]

Sorry Garfie I think the tv u/s are a lot more accurate than the abdo ones. Thinking of you loads. Also wanted to know if you were taking baby aspirin? X

 

[mommylov]

Garfie, I went through the same exact thought process last week but I agree with the girls. The TV US is usually pretty accurate but just for peace of mind, my dr did an hcg test on me before we made a decision to do anything. Sure enough levels were dropping which confirmed the mc. Do what you need to do in order for you to be comfortable with whatever decision you make. BIG BIG BIG hugs to you doll... Im soo sorry that this is happening to you. I was so angry when I saw your post and truely wish for you to have your rainbow baby. xoxoxo

Hope everyone is doing well

AFM~ Had a great appt with our new RE. I was nervous about now having to go to an RE but he and his team seem very knowledgeable and gave DH the boost of confidence that we needed right now. We are going to stay the course and do all that we can to have a healthy LO. They ran a BUNCH of blood tests on me yesterday evening which I hope to get the results by the end of the week. Hope that we get some answers from that. Also, sent our fetus off for testing on Monday hoping that we get answers from that too but that wont be for 10-14 from when we dropped it off Praying that we get soem good news with all this testing and that we have our rainbow baby soon!

 

[garfie]

Thanks Mommy

I've had all the tests come back fine and this time I was on progesterone and aspirin and will remain on it until Tuesday

This DNC I am going to ask them to do some testing on the baby - I feel I at least need to try and find out some answers



X

 

[mommylov]

Im hoping that you get some answers hun with testing the fetus. Again, Im so so so sorry that this is happening once again for you. I too was told at yesterdays appt to continue to take the BA, Neevo, and folic acid. The dr told me that even though we think we have figured out our issue (like me and my dh thought we did this last time) that its just bad luck sometimes He said the most he has ever seen with his patients was a women that had 8 mc but she just gave birth to a healthy baby boy. He said there was no explanation for her mc's. Im telling you this story not hoping that you or anyone would have to go through that many loses, but to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel. Its stories like that and seeing what the girls here have gone through and seeing them pregnant and giving birth is what keeps me going. Take all the time you need right now for you and rest and grieve. Love and be with your husband and family. Dont give up, you will hold your miracle!

 

[twinkle_paws]

Garfie I am so sorry this has happened. Just not fair at all. I hope you are taking care of yourself. I think the foetal testing sounds like a good plan. I sincerely hope you get your baby very soon.

Mommy, been thinking of you too. Hope you are ok and glad your RE was able to affer you some hope.

Hope everyone else is well xx

 

[thethomsons]

Sending you hugs Garfie and hope you are doing ok, can't stop thinking about you hun xx

 

[bagpuss19]

Hugs garfie that's crap news I'm so annoyed for you xx

 

[CherylC3]

Aw Garfie I am so sorry Hun.

 

[garfie]

Thanks Ladies

I feel humbled by your unconditional support and love

I feel lost at the moment and I am just hoping I can hang on until I have my DNC - I have gone from spotting brown to a reddish colour when wiping

I am trying to relax and take it easy as the stronger I am the better prepared I feel I will be - but that's not easy with 2 boys - 3 if you count hubby

I am also trying to keep myself busy and my legs crossed at the same time

It's strange I have a bottle of wine in the fridge with my name on - but yet I don't want it not until I have had everything confirmed then I will have a big glass - at the moment I am behaving as if I'm still pregnant even though I am back into normal clothing (what I would give to have the bloating back and the beautiful glow)

The one good thing is hubby wants to try again straight away as soon as I feel up to it - I think it was because he has seen the heartbeat so it makes it all real, before he has said that's it no more! - but I always managed to talk him around

So now I wait and hopefully managed to hang on

I am so pleased you ladies are here to support me I just feel it's been a bit one sided but hopefully when this is all over I will be back again cheering you all on



X

 

[SATH]

You take care of yourself garfie. Do you have a date for d&c? I think you deserve a large glass i totally understand not wanting to drink it just yet, i was just the same when i was waiting for the medical management.

Thinking of you hon xx