Morning girlies.
I'm sorry Mirolee :/
Yesterday we got the worst news ever. DH has a felony warrant for the murder of Jaxon. It is sick and twisted and I can't go into much detail at all, but we were told this could happen since there was a death involved. He was "driving" when it happened, and I was further along than 20 weeks, they said that's all it takes. Even though it was an accident, there is no one else to blame and the state is pressing charges "for my baby".
So lastnight was a whirlwind. The cops had visited every family members house but ours. So we decided to have a nice long talk and went to bed around 3. I can't sleep anymore, but praise God hubby's still in there snoring, has quite a day ahead of him.
We have our lawyer ready. There is a 50,000 dollar bond, so it's that serious. He is going to turn himself in so that we don't have to sit here wondering what's going to happen anymore, waiting for the knock on the door. I am terrified. I don't understand why this is happening and I feel like someone is trying to give Jaxon justice, when they have NO IDEA about anything. About the 12 days of hell we went through losing him, just no idea what it has been like for us. And what is a worse "punishment" than the loss of a child?!! Ugh it's just sick.
We have high hopes that this will be taken care of quickly, seeing as it was an accident. And that he will come home afterwards. I can't believe it though.. My worst nightmare, and his, come true.
I'm not at work, I just feel like dying right now. Don't know if anyone can relate, but I figured I'd be honest since you girls know our story. Prayers would be nice. If I'm MIA anymore, you know why. I'll be back sooner or later though.
Love you girls