hope everyone is doing okay!! I miss you ladies! 
I'm updating my journal...
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Had a horrible OB appt today. Had a new male OB come in with the head nurse into my tiny room and get on to me for my diabetes and the fact that I have gained 20lbs in the last 7 weeks. First off, I AM controlling my diabetes!! And secondly, I am not doing anything different as far as eating or activity than I was before the last 7 weeks. I have only gained 20lbs the ENTIRE pregnancy!! I was in tears by time I left and they are talking about wanting to take her earlier just to ensure that she doesnt get too big. Go ahead!!!! That way I wont have to see any of you stupid DRs ever again!! I have no control other than what I am already doing to ensure she is healthy and happy. They were upset that I didnt bring in my blood sugar monitor, well I would have if you had told me I needed to!! I was told to bring it in next Monday, like it's going to matter a week before I deliver?!?!? Morons!! I am sorry, It just upsets me all over again every time I think about it! At my scan afterward with the high risk specialist, she assured me that the baby is only in the 61% percentile and that my sudden weight gain is probably water weight as my ankles are swollen now and werent before. 
to keep getting BFN's but please don't give up yet hun Sometimes at the point of dispair is when you are closest, try not to think about it too much but keep on with the treatments
I know the feeling right about now bless your heart 
I hope baby girl comes really soon for you sweetie so you don't have to go back to those morons so sorry lots of love to you!
Does your insurance cover ivf? Let me know if you have any questions about it! I seem to be an expert. 
Not something I'd like to say, but it is what it is. Good luck, my dear! When do you do this last round before ivf?
but end of May when new cycle starts I will do the injectibles just without insemination of any sort or else my insurance wouldn't cover the medications well doctor is getting me "extra" meds this cycle so I can use some for IVF...we have IVF scheduled for July...but I can push it back if I want to try more cycles with just injectibles and " save" some injectibles so I have less to pay for my IVF I cannot wait though I am so very excited just sucks to say that if it doesn't work the first time I probably can't do another cycle as my insurance will not cover anything IVF related but I am PRAYING for ONE last miracle I was told today I was a miracle b/c my two boys are a medical mystery ....my first one was with my first hubby....I had a miscarriage then got pregnant with Tyler the cycle after the miscarriage. Then with Trysten I was dating someone who had less than 1,000 per mui of spermies...when it should have been 20-70 million plus the fact both of my tubes aren't really working at all!!! I have TWO miracle boys now if I only could have one more I'd be a very happy lady LOL
Soooo ready to see her pics when she is born
