Ty ladies, I just think I've had the last straw though, and I've gotten to the point where I don't want to try, or want kids, or plan at all. I'm moving on because none of the health care providers here want to help...or trying to get back in contact with me even when I had the emergency. I literally am not going to get any help with anything so I just give up. I think it would be better for me to go because you all are right. This has become a great supportive thread and there's no way I would wish to take that away from any of you. Loved getting to see all your wonderful journeys and see you all succeed.