Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[heath81003]

Hello all, I am new to this forum and I just need to vent so I figured this was the right place! My DH and I have been TTC our first for over a year. We found out I had a blocked tube and he has low morphology. This is the hardest thing I have ever gone through and no one understands what it's like (expect those on this forum). All of my friends have gotten pregnant with ease pretty much on their first month trying. I try to be happy for them but it is just so hard to to be around them sometimes. My DH is very understanding and lets me vent but I feel bad doing so all of the time because I don't want to seem too "needy" or "obsessed" with TTC. So sometimes I turn to my mom, who I am very close with, but even then she doesn't understand what it's like. We are going to see a specialist so hopefully he can help us but I know that just means more $$$. It sucks to have to spend so much money when people have babies by accident! Sorry the long vent but it feels good to get if off my chest sometimes!

 

[LoveCakes]

Tami you are better off without that person in your life, even when all this has passed.

At least your mum isn't coming during ovulation, that could be awkward lol

 

[Lazydaisys]

Tested early. 10dpo! Why why why why why bfn!!!! Gutted. Surely!!!! Come on now!!!!!

 

[tamithomas]

Tami you are better off without that person in your life, even when all this has passed.

At least your mum isn't coming during ovulation, that could be awkward lol

Roflllllll. I would have skipped that cycle without question if that were the case. We did the whole bd with other people in the house once and we found it to be very awkward. Never again .

 

[mapletulip]

Hey Mapletulip, thanks for your words I really appreciate it!!! Like you have no idea... haha
I'm not Dutch but my Husband is, we are Dairy farmer's so I've really found myself in the middle of full on dutch culture- I love it and embrace it. We are in Canada.

I'm trying to refocus, and just be patient and trust that it will happen. But man. Im going to see a Hollistic practioner tomorrow just to see another viewpoint before I go to my specialist appt. So maybe she will set my mind at ease.
Thankyou!

Cool, keep us ladies posted on what the holistic practitioner says, I'm curious to see what they say. I have been taking Fertilaid and ordered Fertile CM supplements. However, my husband and I have been under a lot of stress this past year with our own business and some employees stealing a lot of money and now we're dealing with 5 court cases in the business, so I am thinking our fertility is affected by all that. Oh and we are in Canada too! Alberta!

 

[mapletulip]

Tami you are better off without that person in your life, even when all this has passed.

At least your mum isn't coming during ovulation, that could be awkward lol

Roflllllll. I would have skipped that cycle without question if that were the case. We did the whole bd with other people in the house once and we found it to be very awkward. Never again .

lol, I couldn't bd either with my parents in the house. AWKWARD!

 

[mapletulip]

Tested early. 10dpo! Why why why why why bfn!!!! Gutted. Surely!!!! Come on now!!!!!

It ain't over till the sings!

 

[Jett55]

Wow completely gutted. As if I don't feel bad enough dh had to spend an hour yelling at me for wanting a baby & I'm a selfish psycho who only cares about ttc & wanting a baby. And because I get upset over not having one yet I'm a little child throwing a fit because I didn't get my way. waay to kick me when I'm down thought your husbands supposed to be there & support you but apparently they're not!

 

[Lazydaisys]

Wow completely gutted. As if I don't feel bad enough dh had to spend an hour yelling at me for wanting a baby & I'm a selfish psycho who only cares about ttc & wanting a baby. And because I get upset over not having one yet I'm a little child throwing a fit because I didn't get my way. waay to kick me when I'm down thought your husbands supposed to be there & support you but apparently they're not!

I had this too, think its because they can't fix it and make it better and just don't know what to do with us when we get in this state

 

[hopeful12be]

so flippin confused I thought af came 4 days early when my cycle has never been off well first day was super light almost spotting day two was a tampon full and now i'm back to spotting pink clearish stuff i'm so confused never had a af like this before or is it af? my bodys so screwed up this month idk whats going on!

 

[Nicolefunnell]

I am happy for those who are getting pregnant, but I am so sick of EVERYONE getting pregnant. My cousin has three babies her all three and under. She can get pregnant so easily even though doctors KEEP advising her NOT to get pregnant after her first. All three were born way too early an had to stay in the NICU. Now she is saying she wants a fourth! That makes me so mad because she keeps saying her third wasn't too early so maybe this one wont. However, her babies suffer when it's they are getting close to birth and this time something might happen worse. She can't hold her fluids and the babies in a way crouch into one Side trying to stay in the fluids and become under distress. I'm so annoyed!

 

[ashntony]

Wow completely gutted. As if I don't feel bad enough dh had to spend an hour yelling at me for wanting a baby & I'm a selfish psycho who only cares about ttc & wanting a baby. And because I get upset over not having one yet I'm a little child throwing a fit because I didn't get my way. waay to kick me when I'm down thought your husbands supposed to be there & support you but apparently they're not!

Mine does that but then he feels bad.... he feels like its his fault

 

[ToBeBlessed]

Hi, I am new here.
Feeling calm to see people like me around here. I was diagnosed with pcos and ttc#1. I am on CD28 of my 1st clomid cycle.
Have few symptoms of tender/swollen/sore breast and nipples, high body temp, sore throat, constipation, lot of creamy cm...does it look like any light on me?
Am in 2ww now. please pray that this is our cycle. lots of babydust to u all.....

 

[Nicolefunnell]

Wow completely gutted. As if I don't feel bad enough dh had to spend an hour yelling at me for wanting a baby & I'm a selfish psycho who only cares about ttc & wanting a baby. And because I get upset over not having one yet I'm a little child throwing a fit because I didn't get my way. waay to kick me when I'm down thought your husbands supposed to be there & support you but apparently they're not!

Mine does that but then he feels bad.... he feels like its his fault

Wow! I am so sorry. I also don't think they know how it feels EVERY single month the get a BFP. They don't have wait around and worry. Then again, it might be his reaction to the BFP and that's how he showed his sadness?

 

[Limm]

Yesterday, my GP told me I might have to have blood tests again and is going to look into having me referred to a specialist to help with conceiving.
Today, she walks into my work, browsing the children's section and pushing a pram with her baby daughter in. The same little girl that she has a big framed photo of in her office whenever I visit.

I couldn't help but mutter bad words under my breath. It's not her or her baby's fault (she doesn't know where I work and I've never seen her outside of her work before) I just felt like if there was a god/fate person he/she was being a douche.

 

[Bordeaux]

So there I am eating healthy to get pregnant and one of the many girls pregnant at work is there chucking back coca cola

 

[Jett55]

Wow completely gutted. As if I don't feel bad enough dh had to spend an hour yelling at me for wanting a baby & I'm a selfish psycho who only cares about ttc & wanting a baby. And because I get upset over not having one yet I'm a little child throwing a fit because I didn't get my way. waay to kick me when I'm down thought your husbands supposed to be there & support you but apparently they're not!

Mine does that but then he feels bad.... he feels like its his fault

Wow! I am so sorry. I also don't think they know how it feels EVERY single month the get a BFP. They don't have wait around and worry. Then again, it might be his reaction to the BFP and that's how he showed his sadness?

He says he hates that there's nothing he can do about it. And to top it off guys at his work are making jokes sayin maybe he's sgiiti

 

[Jett55]

Wow completely gutted. As if I don't feel bad enough dh had to spend an hour yelling at me for wanting a baby & I'm a selfish psycho who only cares about ttc & wanting a baby. And because I get upset over not having one yet I'm a little child throwing a fit because I didn't get my way. waay to kick me when I'm down thought your husbands supposed to be there & support you but apparently they're not!

Mine does that but then he feels bad.... he feels like its his fault

Wow! I am so sorry. I also don't think they know how it feels EVERY single month the get a BFP. They don't have wait around and worry. Then again, it might be his reaction to the BFP and that's how he showed his sadness?

He says he hates that there's nothing he can do about it. And to top it off guys at his work are making jokes sayin maybe he's shooting blanks & bragging because all they did was have unprotected sex with their wife & she got pregnant each time. people suck! And to top it off we don't even know what the problem is & he won't even try to help me find an affordable doctor

 

[AlyCon]

I'm never going to be a mom.

 

[ashntony]

I hate the waiting game....