Started spotting, af due tomorrow. Af most likely on the way. Another cycle failed. I'm at the end of my rope. We can't afford anything but natural so it's the old fashioned way or nothing at all. So not fair to struggle so badly to get bfp meanwhile watching plenty of teens and people who are in no shape of raising a kid get pregnant at a sneeze and yet here I am, fourth year into our marriage and still no child. Starting to think being a mother will remain nothing but a fantasy. I feel like a 2 year old wanting to throw a tantrum on the floor. Excuse me while I go eat a box of Peanut Butter chocolate chip cookies and cry my heart out.