Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[nic18]

lazy I am so so sorry for your loss x

 

[mapletulip]

That feeling of queasiness and cold shivers all over to announce that she is flying in within the next 12 hours

Had SO many symptoms this round! Very frustrating. Oh well....I did my crying yesterday and the day before when I got bright white BFN's....tonight I will poor myself some wine and try to look forward....one week till we can start trying before O again......

And sorry for your loss lazy....I can't even imagine.

 

[VP1228]

Rant 1- finally getting a bfp to have it taken away one week laterx
Rant 2- no I don't think it just wasn't meant to be! x

I was trying to find the right words to say before saying anything. I did that because I know what you went through before getting pregnant and knowing that it finally happened and then have it taken away I just felt so hurt like it was my own BFP... I will not say anything more I will just give you hugs

 

[VP1228]

I hate waking up everyday knowing that it is COMPLETELY impossible for me to get pregnant using my own ovaries!!! I wish it would just go away and let me get pregnant the old fashion way. I pray all the time that this will pass and that the doctor is wrong and I will have a baby but the more I do that the more I feel that it is not going to happen.

 

[oneKnight]

I sold my iphone and miss my FF app!!!
Feeling a bit crampy but I can't remember when AF is due!

Oh the horrors.......yeah, right. But I still miss it

 

[mapletulip]

I am in pretty severe 1st day of AF pains and my coworker yells: OH MY!! We all gather around: her daughter has been having health issues...turns out, she is PREGNANT with number FIVE after her husband was 'SNIPPED' a while ago!

I am just beyond stunned.

 

[mapletulip]

I have never done this, but I had to go the washroom and broke down. This seems really unfair. I know no-one has 'the right' to a child, but this feels insanely unfair.

 

[Jett55]

Dear fb please stop suggesting to like pages like I love being a mommy deals for mommy & all kinds of other crap incase you haven't noticed I'm not a mom & suggesting pages like that is only depressing me I hate you!

 

[VP1228]

Dear AF,
I do not know why you are 2 days late!!! STOP F'ING AROUND WITH MY FEELINGS WHEN YOU KNOW I CAN'T GET PREGNANT! MY FIANCE IS TRYING TO GET ME TO TAKE A PREGNANCY TEST WHEN THERE IS 0% CHANCE OF PREGNANCY!!! I AM SO UPSET THAT I AM GOING THROUGH THIS RIGHT NOW!!! I NEED YOU TO COME ON!!!

 

[tamithomas]

Last night was the perfect opportunity for BD as I felt I was in O peek, but no..something had to come up that was per usual out of our control and needed immediate attention. I feel so stupid for wanting to cry over it. This is so long and frustrating. DH wants to give it a go for tonight but I'm almost certain the chance will have passed by then. I really wish fertility were like organs where people could give you some through a medical procedure. So done with this torment

 

[nic18]

I want to say good luck to each of you x

 

[ashntony]

why does everything i try not work? i just dont understand why i cant get pregnant! i think it is time to go to a dr.

 

[AlyCon]

Well after my husband said those comments to me, he went and talked to our counselor and has since apologized and we are fine now. Thank you to everyone who sent kind words and hugs my way

However, that's not the end of our troubles. Right now there are things going on outside of our marriage that are not looking too good. And I have made up my mind to make a big decision that I'm keeping a secret for now (but it's something positive so don't worry). As a result of all this I am sad to announce that we are no longer TTC. We have started using protection even though we don't really have to. But I know with my luck I'd get a BFP as soon as I decide it's not the right time.

This is really bittersweet for me. I'm excited about my "big decision" and what the future holds for me if it all works out. But I am sad to think I won't be TTC again for at least a year, maybe even two years. The only upside to this is I am still young so I can focus on staying healthy, improving my marriage, and just enjoying life in general and appreciating what I do have instead of always being upset about the one thing that's missing. I will be taking a break from BnB for a while to focus on getting things in order, I will be back to update you all when I have some good news to share

All of you ladies have been so kind, supportive and understanding. I wish you all the best in your journey to motherhood! Lots of good luck and baby dust to everyone! See you soon ladies.

 

[Jett55]

Aww good luck Alycon

 

[VP1228]

I hope it goes well. I wish I could go back to not knowing why I can't get pregnant maybe it wouldn't hurt so bad. Maybe I will get a miracle and things will get better.

 

[MissyLissy]

BFN. Third IUI failed. Good thing my insesitive pregnant friend is nagging me to get together. Listening to her go on and on about her pregnancy (where she conceived FIRST TRY) and her two year old son should make me feel better, right?

Seriously, how can I politely tell her to bugger off without ruining the friendship?

 

[ClaireCath]

BFN. Third IUI failed. Good thing my insesitive pregnant friend is nagging me to get together. Listening to her go on and on about her pregnancy (where she conceived FIRST TRY) and her two year old son should make me feel better, right?

Seriously, how can I politely tell her to bugger off without ruining the friendship?

People can be so insensitive.

 

[Mumtodogs]

BFN. Third IUI failed. Good thing my insesitive pregnant friend is nagging me to get together. Listening to her go on and on about her pregnancy (where she conceived FIRST TRY) and her two year old son should make me feel better, right?

Seriously, how can I politely tell her to bugger off without ruining the friendship?

I was meant to finish work last week for my maternity leave, but obviously that didn't happen so instead I bought cake for everyone at work. My friend who knows all about my ttc journey, knows why I bought the cake and is 4 months pregnant herself told me she wouldn't have any cake as she "had a wedding at the weekend and can't fit in any of my dresses for it". With a smile on my face I told her to f-off. She thought I was joking and walked away laughing! This is the same girl who slapped her scan picture in front of me 6 days after 2nd mc and said 'check this out!!!'

Insensitive. Much.

 

[MissyLissy]

BFN. Third IUI failed. Good thing my insesitive pregnant friend is nagging me to get together. Listening to her go on and on about her pregnancy (where she conceived FIRST TRY) and her two year old son should make me feel better, right?

Seriously, how can I politely tell her to bugger off without ruining the friendship?

I was meant to finish work last week for my maternity leave, but obviously that didn't happen so instead I bought cake for everyone at work. My friend who knows all about my ttc journey, knows why I bought the cake and is 4 months pregnant herself told me she wouldn't have any cake as she "had a wedding at the weekend and can't fit in any of my dresses for it". With a smile on my face I told her to f-off. She thought I was joking and walked away laughing! This is the same girl who slapped her scan picture in front of me 6 days after 2nd mc and said 'check this out!!!'

Insensitive. Much.

Icky. People suck. They have no idea how this feels...

Current pregnant friend that I referenced above told me "that's no big deal...just adopt!" When I told her my fertility woes last winter. It made me cry. She herself didn't start TTC her second until April of this past year so as to "not have the baby during the holidays or during dear hunting season." Because that would be an inconvenience. Seriously, F her. To have the luxury of picking just which month to have your child so as to not inconvince your hubby's past time or to interfere with the holidays is NOT a problem and NOTHING I want to hear about. Of course she got pregnant right away in April and is "safe" that baby number two will be born in January. She announced to me that she got pregnant FIRST TRY, which was SUCH a relief cause number one took three whole months to get it right, and God Forbid she go through that long, hard wait again. So yeah, needless to say I DO NOT have it in me to see her again for a while. It just hurts too much...

She has been a friend for a long time though, and I don't want to ruin the friendship. I wish she'd just buy a clue and give me some space right now...but she's not insightful or empathetic enough to realize that's what I need right now.
Instead she picks the worse possible times to bother me to get together (like the day I find out IUI #3 is a bust and the RE mentions IVF to me for the first time...)

 

[ashntony]

the witch showed her ugly face yesterday.... cd 2 today and the struggle begins again