Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[RainbowBaby13]

CD26 and 7dpo. Woke up from a nap and my panties had a bunch of pinky orange discharge on them. When i checked my cm it is creamy like with red blood. I am having some cramping on the right side. But other than that there is nothing else...

hopefully it's implantation bleeding

 

[ashntony]

I could only hope... I have been having it since 1dpo. On 3dpo it was like ewcm but was pinky like. We bded just in case. Next month I plan on cutting out caffine and not eating any extra sugars. Just lots of fruits and veggies and some bread and dairy. I am going to try and go organic this next cycle.

 

[RainbowBaby13]

Keeping my FX for you! Sounds very promising

 

[shannongmac]

I am so over this TWW, that is all
I am also so mad that I waited this long to actively try
I am also mad that I get jealous of other people's pregnancies, I hate feeling jealous of their good fortune
/rant

 

[TnT2529]

I have just wasted yet another day off with my googling and forum stalking. Now I am totally behind on my Law and Order SVU marathon . All joking aside, TTC seems to be consuming my life. I have good days, hopeful days, angry days and depressed days. DH and I have been ttc for a year now. My periods have been irregular/nonexistent since my mom passed away 8 months ago. My sister-law-in just announced her pregnancy and we were the last to find out because they didn't want to hurt our feelings. I feel bad that they even thought that. I am truly happy for them, but my heart did sink a little. And while I'm venting...if one more person at work asks when I'm having a baby, I might freak out. I finally told my mother-in-law that we were in fact trying and that our attempts were obviously not successful yet. I know she is excited, but she recently purchased some baby items for us and asked me if I needed a crib. Hint much?

 

[Segs0621]

Why do I feel insane every month. I have all these symptoms. Crampy, dizzy, gassy, bloated, sleepless nights, hot flashes. Then it all comes down to a bfn.

I hate that I do this to myself.

How do you cope? Does anyone else feel crazy when they know for sure they're pregnant only to get a bfn?

That was me just a few days ago. AF was a week late, but 3 BFN's later and I just felt like a huge idiot! Cramping, bloating, headaches, nausea.... All of it. Felt like I was crazy and just making it all up in my head. Threw myself one heck of a pity party, then decided to put on a brave face and get ready to try again. That's all we can do, right?

 

[Bumpy143]

This makes 6 months of TTC for me and my DH. I find that everyone else around me is getting prego. My best friend announced her 3rd pregnancy into my 3rd month of trying. And another friend of mine is having her 1st baby today. I am so sick with envy its crazy (and i feel bad about it too). All i want is it to be my turn. I am 7DPO in and this month, I don't even feel anything. in the last 5 months, I had some kind sign that I might be prego. But nothing at all this month. I'm trying not to get my hopes up. I just cant take another BFN.

 

[pleaseGODplz]

I know it sounds horrible, but I hate finding out when other people in my life are pregnant. It hurts my heart so badly. I just want to cry.

I understand.. I have dead honestly been ttc since i was 17Yo. Im now 27 and still have never gotten a bfp. Im so depressed. Im 11 days late today but i still feel like crap because i tested 3 times here n there and still bfn. I send my heart out to you and everyone else who just cant seem to get pregnant.e

 

[KnittedGalaxy]

I really want to vent and have no one to vent to. Apparently my ovaries don't work. Follicles don't open but my body just keeps giving me these stupid menstrual pains. For 2 weeks my boobs hurt. Like painfully. Then yesterday, I have freaking spasms in my left breast...on top. WTH is up with that??? If you aren't going to give me a child, then just go into menopause and be done with it. I'm sick of this. I can't even move my arms without pain. Trying to remove my shirt sucks. My temps are low and then because of my stupid heat, if I take my temp when the heat is on, i have a higher temp which also f(*&s with my head. I was all excited last month cuz my temps were high, but I was also taking it in the morning when the heating in our OLD ass apartment was on. Forced heat. It was all a crock. Why do I even F&^%ing bother?

 

[ferndalegirl]

Waiting for AF to get me. It got me the other 30 th months or so. Why do I put myself through this waiting hell. Oh yeah... Because you just never know do you.

Ugh, I know what you mean! Every time AF shows up, I vow not to get my hopes up next cycle - because why should next month be any different? But every frickin' time I get to 6,7,8dpo, I start feeling "symptoms" and getting hopeful, only to be crushed again.

It's a terrible emotional roller coaster that just keeps. on. going.

 

[ashntony]

CD29 and 10dpo... Another freaking BFN.

 

[Segs0621]

CD 45... BFN x3... Just found out a friend of mine who has been TTC for only 2 cycles BFP. Didn't expect it... But it crushed me. So frustrated.

Sending prayers out there for all of you who are TTC.

 

[Jannah K]

Cd45 bfnx3
So many friends & siblings expecting....this is my 5th cycle and I want this to happen now

 

[Lazydaisys]

Right here with you jannah cd 34 bfn bfn bfn bfn

 

[Jannah K]

Another bfn
Been crying a lot today

 

[Lazydaisys]

Another bfn for me day 36

 

[Kallie3000]

My vent for the day is that there is a ton of support and discussion about the two week wait (which I totally use and need).. but what about the time between getting AF and when you know you are even remotely fertile again? I am starting to think of this as the "Barren Wasteland Week" and feeling super down and grumpy and bitter about all the OVERWHELMING amount of pregnancy and fertility surrounding me. BLARGH

Rant over.

 

[Fellowes79]

Hi everyone. I've "only" been ttc #1 for 5 months. About 2 months ago I started spotting for the first time in my life. First month it happened I thought woo hoo, IB! Nope. Second month when the spotting happened, I thought maaybe IB? Hi AF. Nice to see you again. This month, here is the spotting. Took a test tonight just to fill my POAS addiction and clearly it was a BFN. I just want to scream! I guess if the spotting continues for the next couple of cycles I will go to the doctor. I just have been like clockwork for my whole life except for right now. Roar. There is my rant.
Thanks for listening and feel free to vent to me!

 

[shannongmac]

I realized my TWW is actually a three week wait, ugh....

 

[ashntony]

Af should be here tomorrow... typical. Doc appt is finally set up on the 25th. Hopefully we get the ball rolling and see what`s going on with my ovulation issues.