Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[WoWndUp]

[\QUOTE] don't apologise for how you're feeling

I get exactly the same too, so totally understand how you feel xxx[/QUOTE]

Thank you! it's so frustrating when i keep getting the "it'll happen when you're not expecting it" or "you're still young, you have lots of time". i don't think those help anyone but they keep getting dished out.
took a test 3 days early and BFN. frustrated beyond words....

 

[KLeigh]

I only recently started TTC and have no idea how it'll go. I am full of all different kinds of different emotions and absolute terror with the "what ifs?"
I've been lurking on this forum for a while now and I need to say that my heart goes out to all of you who have been having trouble TTC.
I hope you all get what you want in the future

I don't have too much to rant about now but I'll think of something eventually.

 

[Ready4it]

Well just got AF! It was my last hope before my lap next week. And of course she came late, getting my hopes up thinking that this was it. I guess every big step in my life has to entail a huge journey to get there. All I want is a healthy baby. TTC #1 over a year now with no luck. UGH!!!!! WHY! So frustrating.

 

[JenWantz2BMom]

I have been trying to conceive more than two years now. When my boyfriend and I first met 7 years ago, we never used protection, but was not trying, and no pregnancy ever occurred. I would miss my period and think I was pregnant, but the doctor diagnosed me with PCOS. I do not get the cysts, but I suffer from the hormone balance and had not been ovulating. I spoke with my doctor in September of 2013 about trying fertility treatments. Once I got my period stabilized, I started my first cycle of Clomid in March 2014 on days 5-9 50mg. I successfully ovulated once, had a huge corpus luteum cyst, but did not conceive. I took Clomid again and barely received a positive ovulation on 50mg. I decided to take a break after another failure and started my 3rd cycle of 50mg Clomid in August 2014. I researched and found higher success rates came from taking Clomid on earlier days, so late on the night of Cycle Day 3, I decided to start Clomid. This time I had 3 days of positive ovulation tests much earlier started on CD 16. I have had some heightened symptoms this month, which has me curious. I am currently 9 DPO and am experiencing cramping off and on, some back pain, but not everyday. I have sore nipples that get more sensitive at night. This morning I woke up with an extremely runny nose and sneezing. Since my ovulation positives lasted 3 days and I actually felt the ovulation pain, then my tests went negative, Im hoping this is my month.

 

[JenWantz2BMom]

P.S. I have had frequent urination as well.

 

[cdelmar]

Im over here getting a little anxiety lately (never experienced it so frequently) and the stresses of ttc is definitely weighing down on me : -/ earlier this month I was very optimistic but, as of today still haven't Oed (used to get smiley on CD 10 and on now I'm CD 17). Took Wondfo tonight and even though it's the darkest its been, it's still negative. But CB gave me a smiley but, hubby just wasn't in the mood tonight. Starting to feel like ttc is turning into a job :-/ So depressing!

 

[WoWndUp]

yesterday was hard and left me feeling kinda depressed. my sister just gave birth to her second child. I feel left out of everything, all my friends/family members are married/with kids and I'm not even engaged, married, or pregnant. we've been trying for a baby and still nothing. I feel like a failure especially when it seems so effortless for my friends. and its not just me overthinking, it's the questions that seem constant from people who mean well but say 'when are you getting married?', 'why don't you have kids yet?', and 'you don't want to wait much longer'. it's hard to smile when I just want to scream I WANT THOSE THINGS. it's to the point where I think maybe I should just give up and change my status from TTC to Not Trying, Not Preventing. I just don't know anymore. I wish they could just understand that they got to do what they wanted on their own terms and to stop pressuring me to live up to their ideals and let me plough my own way. so emotionally drained.
hope everyone else is feeling better than I am I know it'll pass but just needed to vent

 

[HisTiming]

Hello Ladies!

I am new to "babyandbump," and I'm extremely grateful that I stumbled across such a wonderful site where women can gather & chat/vent about their pregnancy/desire to become a mother, etc. I do not have any children, and my bf and I have been trying to conceive.

I had my last menstrual on 8/20, but it only last for 2 days (which is extremely odd). The first day was heavy, and the second one was extremely low. Since this is my first time actually trying to conceive, I found a ovulation calendar online.

Based on my last menstrual, ovulation for me was from 9/2-9/7!!! My bf and I did what was necessary in the natural. For the past few days, I have had some weird things take place in my body.

Breast: sometimes sore (but not to the point their untouchable) & the appearance seem a little different. Today 9/9, I was curious and squeezed both breast and clear cloudy discharge came out. Is that a sign of early pregnancy?

Cramping: For several days now I have had cramps (come & go) on the left side of my cervics!

Mood swings: I am a sensitive person, but it's been over the top. And my mood has been hot & cold.

Cravings: Lately, I've been wanting ice cream and then shortly after something salty.

Nausea: No vomit! But throughout the day I feel nausea.

Fatigue: I'm always sleeping lol! But longer now!!!

Aches/pain: I've been having lower back pain for 3 days now. Yesterday, my whole back was aching & my ribs. And the back of my legs began aching in the evening.

Urination: I haven't really seen a massive change with my urine, although there's a slight pain after I urine. (Possibly UTI- docs appt. set).

Could I be pregnant? I took a hpt (I know it's to early, was anxious) and it came back negative. But I know there's something going on with my body.

 

[Ybump]

So I have been ttc for 6 months. Not preventing or trying year before that. Now my dr put me on 1000 my of metformin. 1500. Was too much for my body. Nausea day and night. What I want to know is if anyone else is currently trying metformin to help them. And has anyone had good success quickly with it.

 

[laurac1988]

Ybump ask your dr for extended/modified release metformin. Makes the side effects easier to deal with

 

[ld276]

I've been ttc for almost 2 years now (21 months) - my tubes are clear and I'm on my 5th round of clomid 100mg, which seems to be working. This month I had an injection that ensures you release the egg and I did an IUI the day after.


I am due in a few days and the months of disappointment have gotten to me and it's difficult to stay positive.


My doctor says that the next round of clomid will be my last and I will have to wait 6 months before I can go back on it - I asked if there was anything else I could do but he didn't suggest anything.

Just feeling down and defeated...

 

[laurac1988]

Done with this. The world isn't fair. Nothing is fair.

 

[Ybump]

I agree. I feel like I am so done with this. Trying. Trying. And trying. Month after month after month. It's so frustrating when people around us get pregnant right away. Or have insemination by donor or injection. And it works first time. But then for us. Nothing happens. Ugh.

 

[k_arj_er]

Im new here but me and my dh have been ttc for almost four years !!! We have one lil angel baby who we cant wait to see one day !!! It is always so frustrating but I have faith in the lord we will have our lil miracle baby one day!!!!




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Trying to conceive , Christians !!!

 

[cdelmar]

i think AF may be rolling in tomorrow...I hope not!!!!

 

[MrsG09]

My first vent post.

I am so so so soooo frustrated right now! Just got off the phone awhile ago with my mom, who does not know DH and I are TTC (although being we've been together 10 years and married 5, she probably suspects. I know she hopes!). Her, my dad, and my siblings are on a little mini trip, youngest brother just turned 21 a few weeks ago. She broke the news to me that before they left, said little brother told her about the situation with his girlfriend of about 3 weeks.....yep. Supposedly she's pregnant. Meanwhile we're here still trying (only 5 cycles, so I know it's nothing compared to what so many have already been living with...but I've been waiting for DH to get on board for about 2 years. So I feel like it's been longer. I don't know). But what really gets me, is apparently this chick (18 years old) told my brother that she can't get pregnant, that she has maybe a 10% chance , but she's on birth control anyways. And they used a condom. But it broke. I just want to scream. Or throw something. Ugh. Maybe it's awful of me to think, but I really feel like she saw a good opportunity to trap a guy who makes good money as he just finished school this spring and got a great paying job right away. A couple of weeks ago he gave me the low-down of her entire sob story life, and I do believe he's pretty empathetic like me, so he probably felt compelled to be extra good to her...or something. I know her older half sister. We went to high school together. She dropped out and proceeded to have 3 kids from 3 different men. All I can wonder is what on earth was my brother thinking. I'm worried for him. I'm mad at them both. And I just plain hate that I'm still waiting and trying. Petty, I'm sure, but it's how I'm feeling. Won't be talking to him until I've figured out how to control my emotions about all this (especially since our mom swore me and my sister to secrecy for now lol).

 

[DBZ34]

My first vent post.

I am so so so soooo frustrated right now! Just got off the phone awhile ago with my mom, who does not know DH and I are TTC (although being we've been together 10 years and married 5, she probably suspects. I know she hopes!). Her, my dad, and my siblings are on a little mini trip, youngest brother just turned 21 a few weeks ago. She broke the news to me that before they left, said little brother told her about the situation with his girlfriend of about 3 weeks.....yep. Supposedly she's pregnant. Meanwhile we're here still trying (only 5 cycles, so I know it's nothing compared to what so many have already been living with...but I've been waiting for DH to get on board for about 2 years. So I feel like it's been longer. I don't know). But what really gets me, is apparently this chick (18 years old) told my brother that she can't get pregnant, that she has maybe a 10% chance , but she's on birth control anyways. And they used a condom. But it broke. I just want to scream. Or throw something. Ugh. Maybe it's awful of me to think, but I really feel like she saw a good opportunity to trap a guy who makes good money as he just finished school this spring and got a great paying job right away. A couple of weeks ago he gave me the low-down of her entire sob story life, and I do believe he's pretty empathetic like me, so he probably felt compelled to be extra good to her...or something. I know her older half sister. We went to high school together. She dropped out and proceeded to have 3 kids from 3 different men. All I can wonder is what on earth was my brother thinking. I'm worried for him. I'm mad at them both. And I just plain hate that I'm still waiting and trying. Petty, I'm sure, but it's how I'm feeling. Won't be talking to him until I've figured out how to control my emotions about all this (especially since our mom swore me and my sister to secrecy for now lol).

Is it bad that I read this and thought your brother needed to get a paternity test? It all sounds so crazy.

 

[MrsG09]

Oh, I agree with you entirely. About paternity test and being crazy. :/

 

[Lupole]

I just got started on metformin! I know what you mean about the nausea! I am only on 500mg right now and am working up to 1500mg daily. I am scared to think the nausea will get worse! Good luck in TTC! Keep us posted!

 

[Kallie3000]

I'm so down about TTC right now that I started looking at adoption information in Canada. That made me even more depressed. I feel like there aren't very many options available, and that everything is just built around waiting, waiting, waiting.

Waiting to get into a fertility specialist (TTC 15 months now). Won't even get in for another 2-4 months. Feels like years.