Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[Ellette]

Hello! I'm new here, and I have been trying to conceive for two years now, going onto year number three. I get to finally see a Doctor in July (yay).

I have to say this journey is so frustrating at times. Small things that people say are 'signs' of pregnancy make me hopeful and then I end up disappointed when Aunt Flo comes along.

Right now I am going back and forth on, 'I need to go grab a pregnancy test' to 'No, pregnancy tests just eat away my funds and always bring bad news!' It drives me insane.

My husband always says to wait, and keep waiting until I've gone x amount of time without a period and have more symptoms. . . He wants a child just as bad as I do, but I honestly don't think he understands the way things work in my head

 

[starryjune]

Well, this will be our 9th cycle of trying and I know I need to stay positive but I'm just thinking it should have happened by now. We time it right, use Preseed, OPKs, I temp every morning, etc. But AF always shows, and each month there is some new very positive "sign" - but of course it's just PMS-related or hormonal or whatever. I am not really sure if we are trying this month or even until May, when we will be in Mexico for a week - DH doesn't like the idea of me possibly being in the first trimester and out of the country. It seems like there will never be a good time. And he's been sick or we've both been in a funk or tired lately and he never even initiates DTD/BD since last cycle's fertile window. I feel like he's not attracted to me anymore and that this has all become a never ending, unproductive chore. Sigh.

 

[lady124]

I have started Clomid this cycle. I feel like I am having a race against myself to get pregnant this cycle. But I can't believe it will happen. I can already feel the disappointment of my period coming. Grrrr

 

[MamaBear1211]

TTC #1, it has been a very trying and heartbreaking road. I do not have anything wrong aside from not ovulating. Dr. has run a million and one tests on me, some very painful. Have had 2 failed Clomid attempts, third attempt is next month, I really needed a break from all this.

I have had several mental breakdowns here lately, makes me feel like I am crazy. My husband will just look at me and beg to know why I'm upset, but he just doesn't understand I don't think.

 

[rockstarlove9]

So this is my first time ttc i mean i guess you would say im ttc im not really trying but not preventing i guess im kinda just letting go and letting GOD for lack of better words. Well any way for the past month and a half i've been freaking out because im currently on a 60 day cycle with no sign of AF. I was freaking out literally driving myself insane and obsessing on every website about late BFPs as I begin to miss my second cycle in a row. Freaking out like almost to the point where i knew in my soul i was pregnant but for some reason these darn BFNs just keep happening. I was literally praying bargaining for God just to send me my BFP or my period already because I'm so frustrated with this never ending cycle then i realized something. I had two depo shot injections one in April of 2014 and the last one in July of 2014. So the shots ran out in Oct 2014. Now i have been on depo and gotten off before but before when i got off immediately got on the pill so my cycle never really had to regulate itself before. This is the first time in idk like my whole life since starting bc that i have been off for more than a month or so. I have been completely off bc for 6 months now and i though my cycles had began to regulate themselves as my period came on in decemember, albeit kind of light, and then exactly 28 days later in january but im starting to realize that perhaps it hasn't regualted maybe mother nature was just playing a really foul joke on me.

 

[lemon_tree]

It's 9:00 and this morning, there were three new pregnancy announcements/ultrasound pics on my newsfeed. I'm so happy for my friends, but that's a painful way to start the day!

New resolution: remove FB from my phone, be happier and more thankful for what's right in front of me, and spend more time snuggling my kitties. Oh, and less symptom spotting. That never ends well!!!

 

[aprilwonders]

I vow never to symptom spot or test early...

I wasn't actively trying to conceive last month however I did desperately want to be pregnant. I swear I had loads of symptoms of early pregnancy; nausea, headaches, dark erect nipples (new thing for me), metallic taste, mild cramping, pimples...

I spent way too much money on hpts (all bfn), af was 4 days late and only lasted for 36 hours. Stupidly got my hopes up reading about decidual bleeding and implantation bleeding. The reality is that I've been incredibly stressed out this month and I think I've made myself ill. The doctor said I had signs of an infection (white blood cells in urine).

So officially ttc #1 minus the stress hopefully!

 

[Sam10]

First month of charting with opks. I feel like I have no idea what I'm doing. Fertility Friend tells me my temps are not normal, they change too much. Sigh. Every month that I use opks my line gets darker but never as dark as the control line. I feel like this is just too much to keep up with. Like it's really consuming my life right now. I had what I consider my first serious talk with my husband about all of this last night. He doesn't seem to understand why I'm making a big deal out of it since I'm "only 28". I feel like I'm not supported. We've been trying without much effort for going on 3 years now. Maybe I should just stop.

 

[aminah24]

i have been going crazy today, i have been researching for hours on different websites and ttc blogs and trying to find out all the things that i should be doing to make sure i get pregnant this cycle. i keep forgetting that i cant control this 100 %, but at the same time i have to try my best to make sure i do every thing in my power and leave the results upto Allah SWT.

 

[babyjourney89]

I'am so freaking out at the moment. People who don't even try ends up getting pregnant.(No hardship, stress or any sort of effort) While i have been trying since November 2014 and hasn't worked out for me, (Got married in June 2014 and since then haven't used any kind of protection). I know it hasn't been really long, there are couples who are trying for years and have gone through so many hardships.. May Allah swt help them and make it easy for all of us (TTC sisters).

 

[stiletto_mom]

Arrrggghhh my ovulation chart. JUST LOOK AT IT!!! Bah!!

 

[babyfever79]

I am SO happy that there's a thread to just vent. I've been ttc for just about 2 years now. All I've ever wanted since I was a little girl was to have lots of babies and be a stay at home mommy so my children can be as happy as can be and always have the time and love they need. I just don't understand what's wrong. I don't understand why I can't get pregnant. I get so happy every month. So hopeful. And every month I get a BFN. I'm thinking the problem may be my cm so I took mucinex extra strength, 1200 mg of guaifenesin, tuesday-sunday (I may take another one or two tomorrow) AND have been using Conceive plus. I had a really weird cycle last month so I don't really have high hopes for this month but it's really getting to me. 2 years is so long.. And i'm still so young! I'm started to get really confused as to how people have accidental pregnancies lol! I've been trying for 2 years and nada! Seems like what we want most in life, we don't get. No matter how hard you try :/ It's really effecting my mood as well. I want to be positive but it's just so hard after all this time. Everyone's always told me "Don't have sex! You will get pregnant no matter what!". I truly never thought it would ever be this hard. I wish someone warned me before hand..

 

[itsautumn]

I feel like such a failure. Why does my body not work properly?! Just look at this ovulation chart.. WTF is happening? Why? Seriously why? I feel like I'm doing mostly everything right but my body is sabatoging me by deciding willy nilly when it wants AF to come. 94 day cycle and counting... FML.

If one more teacher in my school gets pregnant I'm going to lose it.

https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/55fa43//thumb.png
My Ovulation Chart

 

[blairy]

please help me with answer.....we shouldnt try to concieve till the end of the month (I am after vaccination). but still we did it on 12. of April. It was by mistake (I didnt believe in the word "mistake" till that day . so I started to use OPK the day after and on 14. April it was positive, the days after that it was negative. Do I really have 20% chances to concieve? i am a bit nervous....what could be bad for all future efforts... but generally I shouldnt stress about it, right? It is still a low chance....isnt it?

 

[teako22]

Unexplained fertility. What an unsatisfactory reason. No reason why, nothing to try to fix, just no baby. How do some people get pregnant from a one night stand and we haven't been able to get pregnant for 7 years.

 

[littlebear627]

why is it that some women can take a hpt on the day their period was due, or even before, and get a bfp? while others get bfn after bfn until 6-8 weeks after the first day of their last af? but they were prego the whole time?????
if i am, i am. if i'm not, i'm not. I just want my body to quit playing with meee.

 

[WayPastReady]

Hi Ladies!

Just found this blog yesterday, and it's so refreshing to know that I'm not the only one who is going through this. You hear about other women having fertility trouble, but when you see all of your Facebook friends getting pregnant each day, it seems like they didn't have any trouble (even though you never know who had trouble)...and I'm left here feeling like a broken woman.

I'm 28, DH is 29, and we've been TTC for 1 year now. 1 year...wow...I can't even believe this is my life. My husband and I are young and healthy, take no meds, eat organic, don't use plastic, take supplements, exercise, get adjusted, and yet we're having trouble conceiving. (He got tested this past January btw and was completely fine) I don't even know what's wrong at this point, other than it's me. I feel like even more of a failure and an idiot that we're both doctors that can't get pregnant. I also have a short luteal phase, 9-12 days, which I have been told by my OB-GYN isn't impeding me getting pregnant (not sure I believe that though).

I take my BBT, check my CM & CP, elevate my pelvis after BD, was taking Vitex for 6 months to extend my LP with no change, have tried eating pineapple core after ovulation, and tried acupuncture for 3 months. I recently ordered Red Raspberry Leaf tea and Black Cohosh to start next cycle if I'm not pregnant this cycle. I'm currently 7dpo and GOING CRAZY!!!! I am over-analyzing all of my symptoms and don't know how I'm going to make it another 4 days till I'm supposed to get AF. Every month I convince myself that I'm pregnant, and every month I get crushed.

It feels like I have no one to talk to about it other than my DH, who is super supportive, but my mom and friends just don't get it so I usually keep quiet. They'd be shocked to know what I am going through because I keep it hidden 99% of the time.

I guess if this black cohosh and RRL tea doesn't help me in the new 2 months or so, I'm going to have to go back to the OB-GYN or go see a RE and get some testing done. I can't take another year of this.

If anyone actually read all this, thank you. I know you feel my pain. Prayers and baby dust for all of you!!!

 

[teako22]

Waypastready go get yourself tested. Better then driving yourself crazy with what ifs. You are not alone. 10% of couples have infertility problems. There are a lot of options out there. Hang in there.

 

[DBZ34]

Hi Ladies!

Just found this blog yesterday, and it's so refreshing to know that I'm not the only one who is going through this. You hear about other women having fertility trouble, but when you see all of your Facebook friends getting pregnant each day, it seems like they didn't have any trouble (even though you never know who had trouble)...and I'm left here feeling like a broken woman.

I'm 28, DH is 29, and we've been TTC for 1 year now. 1 year...wow...I can't even believe this is my life. My husband and I are young and healthy, take no meds, eat organic, don't use plastic, take supplements, exercise, get adjusted, and yet we're having trouble conceiving. (He got tested this past January btw and was completely fine) I don't even know what's wrong at this point, other than it's me. I feel like even more of a failure and an idiot that we're both doctors that can't get pregnant. I also have a short luteal phase, 9-12 days, which I have been told by my OB-GYN isn't impeding me getting pregnant (not sure I believe that though).

I take my BBT, check my CM & CP, elevate my pelvis after BD, was taking Vitex for 6 months to extend my LP with no change, have tried eating pineapple core after ovulation, and tried acupuncture for 3 months. I recently ordered Red Raspberry Leaf tea and Black Cohosh to start next cycle if I'm not pregnant this cycle. I'm currently 7dpo and GOING CRAZY!!!! I am over-analyzing all of my symptoms and don't know how I'm going to make it another 4 days till I'm supposed to get AF. Every month I convince myself that I'm pregnant, and every month I get crushed.

It feels like I have no one to talk to about it other than my DH, who is super supportive, but my mom and friends just don't get it so I usually keep quiet. They'd be shocked to know what I am going through because I keep it hidden 99% of the time.

I guess if this black cohosh and RRL tea doesn't help me in the new 2 months or so, I'm going to have to go back to the OB-GYN or go see a RE and get some testing done. I can't take another year of this.

If anyone actually read all this, thank you. I know you feel my pain. Prayers and baby dust for all of you!!!

Sorry you've been at it so long. TTC is tough enough without adding the stress of LTTTC to it. I definitely feel your pain. I've been doing this for almost 4 years now.

Have you tried B-Complex for your LP? You could also look into progesterone cream/suppositories, if you really feel that it's a problem.

But, truthfully, anything above 10 days is fine for conception. I know someone on here who got pregnant with a 9 day LP. It took her longer than she would have liked, but it did happen. I only say that to say, try to stay positive. You can do this! It might take some testing and investigation to figure out things, but keep going until you get your BFP.

 

[proudwifey]

Hi Ladies!

Just found this blog yesterday, and it's so refreshing to know that I'm not the only one who is going through this. You hear about other women having fertility trouble, but when you see all of your Facebook friends getting pregnant each day, it seems like they didn't have any trouble (even though you never know who had trouble)...and I'm left here feeling like a broken woman.

I'm 28, DH is 29, and we've been TTC for 1 year now. 1 year...wow...I can't even believe this is my life. My husband and I are young and healthy, take no meds, eat organic, don't use plastic, take supplements, exercise, get adjusted, and yet we're having trouble conceiving. (He got tested this past January btw and was completely fine) I don't even know what's wrong at this point, other than it's me. I feel like even more of a failure and an idiot that we're both doctors that can't get pregnant. I also have a short luteal phase, 9-12 days, which I have been told by my OB-GYN isn't impeding me getting pregnant (not sure I believe that though).

I take my BBT, check my CM & CP, elevate my pelvis after BD, was taking Vitex for 6 months to extend my LP with no change, have tried eating pineapple core after ovulation, and tried acupuncture for 3 months. I recently ordered Red Raspberry Leaf tea and Black Cohosh to start next cycle if I'm not pregnant this cycle. I'm currently 7dpo and GOING CRAZY!!!! I am over-analyzing all of my symptoms and don't know how I'm going to make it another 4 days till I'm supposed to get AF. Every month I convince myself that I'm pregnant, and every month I get crushed.

It feels like I have no one to talk to about it other than my DH, who is super supportive, but my mom and friends just don't get it so I usually keep quiet. They'd be shocked to know what I am going through because I keep it hidden 99% of the time.

I guess if this black cohosh and RRL tea doesn't help me in the new 2 months or so, I'm going to have to go back to the OB-GYN or go see a RE and get some testing done. I can't take another year of this.

If anyone actually read all this, thank you. I know you feel my pain. Prayers and baby dust for all of you!!!

Welcome to the blog! I had a very short LP as well. Spotting starting at 8dpo, sometimes sooner. I took BBT so I was able to acknowledge the issue. I started taking a b6 vitamin everyday along with my doctor prescribed prenatals. I also switched up the BD from the SMEP to just every other day, no consecutive days. I use Preseed as a lubricant because it helps your environment to allow sperm to live longer. I also completely took out caffeine from my diet. Yes, that means no coffee at all. Instead, I drank a non-caffeinated tea. I had been trying to get pregnant for a few months already, but as soon as I made these changes, I got pregnant immediately. My biggest advice would be the b6 vitamin and preseed. Best of luck and let us know how it goes.