Hello Ladies! You women are incredibly strong, i don't know how half of you are still going. i have been TTC since October and got my 4th BFN today and I have been a unconscionable wreck. Tears all day at work to the point i had to leave early, as i was sick of everybody asking if i was ok. Even though i haven't been TTC for very long i have wanted my own family and i've been actively searching for the perfect person since i was 18/19 so now i finally have them and this process is proving much more difficult than i expected it to be I'm very disheartened. Nobody in my family has every had any problems convincing (I'm one of 9 Children on my dads side and my mom had two other children when she was 35 & 38 first time trying with both) just as an example so i never even considered i would be in this situation. I know they say it can take 6-12 months for a healthy couple to have a child but i don't know anybody who has even had to try and everybody i know is either pregnant or have children. i have 3 childless friends and they are all childless by choice. I'm so worried i may have a medical problem or may never be able to have children and its affecting my everyday life. I think I'm going to ask my GP to refer me to counselling/therapy to help me deal with all these emotions as my other half is useless and doesn't understand why I'm "beating myself up" over this. I know I'm being stupid and maybe it's today's high emotions that are making me feel like i need external help but i also feel like i have nobody to turn to when i need to cry or express how I'm feeling, my friends try to be supportive but i can tell they just don't know what to say and i feel guilty to put them in that situation... I haven't got the point of jealousy yet, i have 5 wonderful godchildren and many more nieces and nephews and i love them all dearly everybody says I'll be a great mum and every people at work comment at how good i am if children every come into my work place but I'm just getting so fed up with trying so hard and getting nowhere.. when will it end.