Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[CakeCottage]

AF Why have you arrived - YET AGAIN!!!!
I just want a child

 

[Mariposa1631]

Hello ladies, I've been especially frustrated since my Dr. tolm me Wednesday she can't see me until March. This after our last visit in Nov. after cycle 3 treatment, which included Provera to induce period, then 5 days of clomid & a trigger HCG shot on appropriate day.Into Dec. horrible stomach pain but no period; the pain got so bad following sex. I kept my Dr.informed & was told to wait for my period to start, Jan had come & still no period pain & cramping in my stomach, but nothing made appointments with Dr. But I woke up late, scheduled another appointment & she cancelled, scheduled another & I had car troubles & missed it. Call for another appointment & I get this crappy news with still no explanation for the horrible pain, in the mean time I continued to drink and party some, I eventually started some light spotting that never was brought down. I should also that mention that in all the time I was in pain I had the worse pain in my breast that I've ever experienced, I couldn't even lie on them, ' I was always espy & so was my husband. I never took a test because I figured that my Dr. wasn't concerned & I had a HCG quant done 10 days after HCG shot & she hadn't said anything. Well I'm now pissd I have to wait & I really feel like re over for me, my Period does seen to have started horrible, horrible cramps but surprisingly light flow nothing really coming down except 4 big clots this morning(TMI) in the shower. Still a light flow, or wipe only flow. I'm thinking not being able to see my Dr. just means its never going to happen I'm so tired of the disappointments #3 cycle with this Dr. with clomid & HCG shot twice ovulation was successful, but married 8 yrs. unprotected sex no preventing & never a pregnancy & I've been married since 18yrs. No hope left!!

 

[Lensbb]

Tired of dh thinking that a couple of times a month is going to miraculously produce an heir. My meds are not free from side effects. They are not pleasant, and this is my 2nd round on them. I would like him to step up his game as much as I feel I have, and no it's not a threat when I say I'm ready to go off of them.

 

[Astridastrid]

Feeling all the usual signs of AF. Dreadfully awaiting her arrival on Wednesday. But I know for sure that after Wednesday. I give up!!! I respect and admired all you ladies trying for years. As I could not survive that and come out sane. It's been six months and with my family history (5 girls and only 1 sister has a baby after several msc) I have already grown discouraged. My Fiancé seems to be badly affected by my obsession and pills and mood swings, plus I have exams. So I'm done! It's too much. Good luck to everyone else fighting the good fight. Baby dust to you all

 

[Jett55]

Just got off aunt flo hoping for a bfp this next cycle my fiance and I have literally been fighting because of me getting extremely upset over nothing happening yet he says were going to the doctor so I'll shut up about it. It's really irritating though cuz I really want a kid but he doesn't quite want one as bad. Uggg like every1 I know either has kids or is having 1 and its ticking me off that they keep telling me to be patient and all that stuff. I mean 8 months and nothing's happened yet it's annoying but I'm almost thinking that maybe my timings just been off and I keep getting "lucky" but to me It's not luck at all since I want a child.

 

[wellsk]

Jett, try not to worry to much. It can take a healthy couple up to 12 months to conceive. And if you live in the UK, the doctors won't do anything until then anyway.
I understand that it's frustrating and horrible, the whole not knowing is the worst part. And men often don't feel like fathers or don't feel so obsessive as women do about TTC, unfortunately it's just the way and you cannot force him into feeling it.
My DH eventually gave me time limits during the day where I could talk about TTC and then I could for the rest of the time. I end up being silent the rest of the time!

 

[Jett55]

Thanks I know that worrying about it isn't going to make it happen any sooner. Joining this forum has really helped me to stop worrying and to get my mind calmed down

 

[MrsLemon]

My husbands friend just text us to say they are expecting there 2nd, it was a complete surprise to them and they are actually 22 weeks... how could she have not known... Also Shes at least 25 stone. why is so easy for some people and i cant even conceive one

 

[Astridastrid]

My husbands friend just text us to say they are expecting there 2nd, it was a complete surprise to them and they are actually 22 weeks... how could she have not known... Also Shes at least 25 stone. why is so easy for some people and i cant even conceive one

I'm so sorry. I totally understand your pain my friend who hadnt evn been trying just told me she is pregnant possibly with twins. Baby dust to you. Hope u get ur BFP soon

 

[Jett55]

I know the feeling a girl I know just had a baby 4months ago and is already expecting again it seems soo unfair :/

 

[Jett55]

1 last rant I got fb today and one of my fiances friends is now expecting gaaah I feel like I can't get a break I'm def just going to just stay off of it for awhile so I don't keep getting tortured cuz every time I start feeling better something comes a long and messes it up :/

 

[CCS80]

Trying for 2 years, not a patient person. I swear every person around me has decided to have a baby! Well done, you're fertile....docs next week for ultrasound and bloods.
Everyone says don't stress...impossible! X

 

[CCS80]

1 last rant I got fb today and one of my fiances friends is now expecting gaaah I feel like I can't get a break I'm def just going to just stay off of it for awhile so I don't keep getting tortured cuz every time I start feeling better something comes a long and messes it up :/

I ended up crying or should I say wailing last week when I went on FB and saw that a friend was. Good luck!

 

[Jett55]

Yeah that's exactly what I did I started bawling because every time I turn around its always someone else instead of me. But much luck to you all

 

[mbish]

I'm new to this board, although I've been lurking for awhile as dh and I are trying to conceive #1. It's been 5 months now, and it feels like forever. I decided to finally post because I just heard from another friend that she is pregnant, after they just started trying. And after I hung up the phone with her, I just burst into tears. All of my friends are getting pregnant so easily, and I just feel if I get another "i'm pregnant" call, I'm going to freak.

I also just feel like something is off with my cycles, my luteal phase is way too short. Although my regular doctor dismissed my concerns, I've started doing acupuncture because I can't sit around doing nothing about it anymore. I'm hoping she can get my cycles more on track.

I'm just venting here because besides my dh, I've only told one other person that we're trying, and although dh tries to be supportive, I don't think he quite understands how hard it is for me to keep getting AF every month.

 

[tamithomas]

I know the feeling a girl I know just had a baby 4months ago and is already expecting again it seems soo unfair :/

I deleted a friend of mine after she was expecting her 3rd within 3 under 3 but sadly no HB at 8 week scan. She dared to say she knew what infertility was like and that she would never be able to have kids again (her words, not the doctors). Her DH had to snap her out of it because he knew my situation and he actually came to my defense saying to her to shut up because she had 2 under 2. Some women (slightly veared his eyes at me) would give anything just to have one. I was silently going "finally, someone has shut that tantrum throwing everything i want i get b**ch up"

 

[CakeCottage]

Dear AF,
Why are you taunting me??? Either show up properly instead of insinuating that you are going to grace me with your presence or kindly bugger off and give me my BFP!
Yours faithfully
Cake!!!

 

[tamithomas]

Why oh why do I always click on the IVF articles online? I always know it will shoot my blood pressure through the roof reading the comments. Dear fertile religious nuts who pop kids out like pez dispensers, not everyone is lucky to have a perfectly working reproductive system STFU!

edit: I don't mean all religious people, just the ones that are too stubborn in their ways to think that the only way a child should be conceived is via sex between man and wife that anything else should be forever shamed. I know many religious people who are pro IVF.

 

[Amelia8083]

Dear fertilityfriend, stop changing my ovulation date! I know when I ovulated and you are just confusing me

 

[FireLyte]

@mbish: This is a great place to get support when you don't want to share with your friends/family about what's going on. I think guys view the whole TTC thing differently than we do. Generally, it's the woman keeping track of when to do what and when the fertile time is, etc., so there's not much for them to worry about, beyond doing the deed. If you're not, I'd suggest getting and taking prenatals. They'll help prepare your body for your bfp, and they might nudge your cycle in the direction you want it to go. Good luck!