Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[Limm]

If there is a God, he is an asshole.
No offence to any believers.

 

[Jett55]

No offense taken God "loves us so much" why does he create children just to be aborted or give children to women who don't take care of them. It makes no sense obviously he isn't as just as everyone says I know life isn't fair but hell he cares soo much but doesn't do anything about it. I'm convinced he's a sadist

 

[Ladybuggz]

Rant for today...MOTHERS DAY!
Never bothered me before, but now I feel like it's punching me in the face! Everywhere I go there's adverts! I think they're should be a TTC Day, where anyone going through ttc receives some lovely gifts!

 

[natetopler18]

I believe He's a kind God. I He is all you think He is you might not even be able to air your views let alone speak. If He kept you long enough to want a little one too, trust me He will give you one but you have to change your perspective too.
I've been at it for 1 year, i.e. ttc and my periods are like clock work Jan 3rd, Jan 28th and Feb 22nd. I cried last night to sleep, joined this forum minutes ago and I still believe God is good and He has a baby for me very soon.

 

[tamithomas]

Dear Mom: I know you love me very much and I appreciate that. I love you too, but your bombardment on Facebook with the "share if you love your daughter" or "share if you're a proud mom" posts are about to make me lose it.

I don't want to tell her what to post because it's her free will but my goodness... those drive me batty.

And to me: never ever sit in a rocking chair on sale at a store again. Overwhelm in emotions in a crowd is so embarrassing. I'm sort of ashamed that something as simple as rocking in a rocking chair can get me that wound up emotionally. Didn't realize just how bad TTC has taken a tole on me until that very moment this weekend.

 

[Limm]

For anyone wandering what's currently tempting me to go mental, see my "Thoughts??" thread.

Can't be bothered to repeat myself.

 

[Fizzyfefe]

I missed my freaking fertile window. I'm so mad I could punch a wall. I KNEW it was going to happen. I just knew it.

 

[PCOSTTC]

No offense taken God "loves us so much" why does he create children just to be aborted or give children to women who don't take care of them. It makes no sense obviously he isn't as just as everyone says I know life isn't fair but hell he cares soo much but doesn't do anything about it. I'm convinced he's a sadist

I literally say that all the time. The way I see it is if there is a god, he is one sick *******. Rape, murder, sick kids, Dying kids, Giving babies to people who dont deserve it and keeping them from those who do. Sick sick sick. Which is totally why I have zero belief in god!

 

[Sam10]

It's easier to be an Atheist.

 

[AlyCon]

The Lord never said Life would be fair, only that he is a fair GOD.

I am a firm believer in GOD and I do have faith that I will be a mother someday soon. However I do have my moments where I'm like "Really GOD? That unemployed uneducated unmarried drunken druggie who lives off the government is blessed with five kids and I can't even have one?"

It's hard to keep believing when my faith is tested like that but at this point I can't afford to lose faith because its all I have left.

 

[sukanya]

Hi,

I am 28 now and my AMH level is 0.33 only. I am so worried. Is it possible to conceive in such low AMH?

Plz help me?

 

[Hopeful1479]

Ok just about lost it last night... My husband will be 30 and I am 34 and in his eyes we have all the time in the world!! In my eyes the older I get that damn clock ticks louder and louder and the more bitter I get!! He says "babe don't get all crazy about this or it will make it harder on you" which I then replied "babe I will get crazy and make it harder on you!!!" Which I know its no his fault, but I am tired of people asking me if I am pregnant YET, yet being the word that I ferak out about all the time. And yes I know stress slows things down and worrying and all that crap. But what about an obnoxious cycle which can't seem to get its mind right??

And I agree aout a Hallmark holiday for those TTC...

 

[tamithomas]

Thank you AF...for showing up 4-5 days late

 

[cntrygrl]

Ok just about lost it last night... My husband will be 30 and I am 34 and in his eyes we have all the time in the world!! In my eyes the older I get that damn clock ticks louder and louder and the more bitter I get!! He says "babe don't get all crazy about this or it will make it harder on you" which I then replied "babe I will get crazy and make it harder on you!!!" Which I know its no his fault, but I am tired of people asking me if I am pregnant YET, yet being the word that I ferak out about all the time. And yes I know stress slows things down and worrying and all that crap. But what about an obnoxious cycle which can't seem to get its mind right??

And I agree aout a Hallmark holiday for those TTC...

So sorry. Sometimes they just don't get it. Plus we have hormones and sometimes meds intensifying these emotions not making it any easier on us. I see you're in Upstate NY also. Where are you?

 

[KatyR]

one of the girls I work with has just announced she is pregnant - wasn't even trying, completely unexpected. very happy for her but can help feeling a bit sad too

 

[Limm]

I need to get out of this house in the next 30 minutes before I go crazy/scream my head off.

 

[Hopeful1479]

Ok just about lost it last night... My husband will be 30 and I am 34 and in his eyes we have all the time in the world!! In my eyes the older I get that damn clock ticks louder and louder and the more bitter I get!! He says "babe don't get all crazy about this or it will make it harder on you" which I then replied "babe I will get crazy and make it harder on you!!!" Which I know its no his fault, but I am tired of people asking me if I am pregnant YET, yet being the word that I ferak out about all the time. And yes I know stress slows things down and worrying and all that crap. But what about an obnoxious cycle which can't seem to get its mind right??

And I agree aout a Hallmark holiday for those TTC...

So sorry. Sometimes they just don't get it. Plus we have hormones and sometimes meds intensifying these emotions not making it any easier on us. I see you're in Upstate NY also. Where are you?

I know he only means well... I am in Buffalo, what about you??

 

[Hopeful1479]

Thank you AF...for showing up 4-5 days late

I know how that is... AF was 3 days late and all I got was a day of spotting!! So do I count that as CD1????????????????????????????

 

[tamithomas]

Thank you AF...for showing up 4-5 days late

I know how that is... AF was 3 days late and all I got was a day of spotting!! So do I count that as CD1????????????????????????????

CD1 is usually the day where AF shows up full bloom. There have been many debates over this lol.

And to boot, my AF decided it was only spotting..I've stopped within 24 hours. So confusing especially since there's zero chance of BFP as we didn't get a chance to BD this month so technically I haven't started AF yet Time to find an official thyroid doctor. Maybe my levels are what I consider a "finally" high enough to get meds for it. I have Subclinical Hypothyroidism meaning I have enough to detect it but not enough to do anything about it..this was a diagnosis 6 months ago. Health can change in a heart beat. I'm usually to the hour on time AF wise but this is twice in within a span of 3 months that I'm irregular. We're talking regular since I hit puberty.

I know hypothyroidism affects fertility but I have been stuck in that in between of having it but not high enough for meds so it screwed us over fertility wise.

 

[Hopeful1479]

Thank you AF...for showing up 4-5 days late

I know how that is... AF was 3 days late and all I got was a day of spotting!! So do I count that as CD1????????????????????????????

CD1 is usually the day where AF shows up full bloom. There have been many debates over this lol.

And to boot, my AF decided it was only spotting..I've stopped within 24 hours. So confusing especially since there's zero chance of BFP as we didn't get a chance to BD this month so technically I haven't started AF yet Time to find an official thyroid doctor. Maybe my levels are what I consider a "finally" high enough to get meds for it. I have Subclinical Hypothyroidism meaning I have enough to detect it but not enough to do anything about it..this was a diagnosis 6 months ago. Health can change in a heart beat. I'm usually to the hour on time AF wise but this is twice in within a span of 3 months that I'm irregular. We're talking regular since I hit puberty.

I know hypothyroidism affects fertility but I have been stuck in that in between of having it but not high enough for meds so it screwed us over fertility wise.

That must be so frustrating... It blows my mind how fast a body can change and decide what it wants to do. I too had regular periods even after stopping BC, EXCEPT this month. I am too afraid to test to be honest so I think I will just wait a couple more weeks. Have you been looking in to any thyroid doctors in your area? I don't have much experience with hypothyroidism, I wish I did so I could ease your mind in some way... Keep me posted, I wish you luck!