Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[Angelgirl4573]

So for some reason I haven't really noticed the vent thread, but this is definitely something I could use, a good vent.

About 7 months ago I was diagnosed with HPV, much to my surprise, considering I had no idea I had it or how I had contracted it. My doctor informed me on the risk of cervical cancer and possible ovarian cysts. This really worried me because there's a small chance of infertility. Shortly after that, per my decision, I decided to get off the pill and start NTNP. This was in August of 2012. With 6 months of no pregnancies, the DF and I finally decided to start tracking my O using OPK's. My first month using them, I got a positive on 2/23 and 2/24. DF and I managed to BD on 2/22 and 2/24. Not sure whether that's enough, but I try to remain hopeful. With 6 months of nothing, I started to find myself getting depressed and re-thinking how my doctor mentioned a possibility of infertility. I try to talk to my DF about it, but all he really does is listen, he never really talks back to me about it. I'm sure he just doesn't quite understand where I'm coming from. This month I've felt fairly hopeful. Having good signs and symptoms so far and actually tracking O. I've been trying to keep the symptoms to myself because I feel like constantly telling DF my symptoms can be driving him nuts. Plus every single time I notice something new...AF shows up right on time. Tonight, upon noticing that I've been experiencing a different pinching/pulling ache in my left side that has lasted for 2 days and an increased new to pee..that maybe this is a good thing. So I mentioned it to my DF and his response was "maybe you're getting a urinary tract infection" this really hurt my feelings. I had hope...I told him I feel like he doesn't understand like I do..and every month AF arrives breaks my heart. He always says "it'll happen one day, I know that, right now I'm just happy I have you". He's very right, I love him more than anything, but sometimes I feel so alone in my emotions. Really hoping it happens this month, if it doesn't, I will probably take a break for awhile. I'm due to test Monday, but might try on Friday.

Thanks for allowing me to vent..I really needed it.

 

[Beebs01]

Angelgirl - I know how you're feeling. we've been trying since October/November 2012 and I basically have resolved not to stress DH out with all the details anymore bc it freaks him out and, like you said, he doesn't really understand how it feels to wonder if there is something physiologically wrong with you.

On a separate note, we both just started new jobs and finally got insurance again, so hopefully in the next couple weeks I will be able to go to the doctor and get checked out so I can maybe put my mind at ease and get a plan about how to go forward. If you haven't gone to the doctor, maybe you should do the same -- that might help you to rest a little easier.

Today I took another HPT. It was a CBE digi (all I had on hand)....negative again. AF is supposed to be here on Wednesday. I've basically lost hope for this cycle. It is getting frustrating and hard to stay positive at this point. I've been trying to stay solution-focused. Just never thought I would be one of those people who would have trouble getting pregnant. *sigh*

 

[Sunnyleah]

I'm stuck!! What is going on with my chart. Any ideas welcome.


My Ovulation Chart

 

[Sunnyleah]

Here's my chart


My Ovulation Chart

 

[AlliCat]

Idk what to do anymore... Hubby and I are both getting so tired. He said today that it is getting less and less fun when we feel like we have to do it. Feels great for both of us but when we HAVE TO because of being on our first round of Clomid and just being on Clomid in general, idk what to do...

 

[tamithomas]

Tuesday morning as still no af dafrig body? C'mon..I feel the cramps now start already! 10-11 days late now.

 

[Fizzyfefe]

Tami, I know you said it is impossible, but still... have you tested? Is there some miracle that you could be pregnant? Like the immaculate conception? No but really... Maybe you ovulated later than normal.

 

[tamithomas]

Tami, I know you said it is impossible, but still... have you tested? Is there some miracle that you could be pregnant? Like the immaculate conception? No but really... Maybe you ovulated later than normal.

lol that'd be hilarious wouldn't it? You could be right though about O, just odd as I'm someone who can practically time myself down to the hour when AF is due. Waiting until the 2 week mark and if still not here gonna go for the heck of it I'll test..if nil, make an appointment to see what's up. I keep waking up with cramps convinced surely this is the day but nope, the most I got was literally one spot of a tooney on Thursday evening, put a tampon in for the night..woke up, tampon was bone dry nothing since except sore BB's and cramps but those are also AF symptoms for me.

 

[AlyCon]

So I decided to try to get fit and start going to the gym. Yesterday was my first day of working out.. and today my tonsils are the size of golf balls!!! Stupid sweaty nasty germy gym equipment got me sick!! I should have known this would happen. I try to do something to improve my health and it makes me sick I have a doctors appointment later today so I can get some meds for this.

Now that I think about it, the same thing happened to me when I stared my first job. I got really sick just a few days after starting and my doc said it was probably because handling money exposed me to more germs than my immune system was used to. I guess going to the gym and touching/ using three different machines had the same effect. And to make things worse DH is gone and Im not even able to call him or anything. Ugh hating my life right now..

 

[NadiaSweety]

That's kind of harsh. Just because someone is overweight doesn't mean they shouldn't be able to have kids. That is kind of what it sounds like you're saying. There's more that goes into it besides your weight. :/

I'm sorry if it seemed harsh. As per the name of this thread I was venting. It may sound unfair and irrational but that is how I felt at the time. I just feel resentful of all the women around me who are able to get pregnant so easily. I did not mean to say that overweight people should have children. I am just frustrated that I can put in so much effort to be healthy and have it not affect anything. Where someone else can have their dreams cometrue without all that work.

I think she just meant the woman is unhealthy in comparison to herself, yet she got pregnant right away. It is fact that it is generally harder for overweight and unhealthy eaters to get pregnant. That is why if you go see a fertility doctor and you're overweight, they tell you to lose weight first before they will give you drugs or anything because it could very well be the thing that is holding back pregnancy. It IS frustrating when you've been trying for months...

Yes, thank you. I am frustrated. and I was just noticing the differences between she and I. Since yesterday I have calmed down a bit but I am still frustrated and disapointed in myself. One cant help but feel that you are doing something wrong when everyone around you is getting pregnant and you cant. It almost makes me want to go out and eat 3 cheese burgers.

 

[cntrygrl]

Here's my chart


My Ovulation Chart

You have too many temps taken at different times so if you did ovulate there's no way of telling.

 

[cntrygrl]

So I decided to try to get fit and start going to the gym. Yesterday was my first day of working out.. and today my tonsils are the size of golf balls!!! Stupid sweaty nasty germy gym equipment got me sick!! I should have known this would happen. I try to do something to improve my health and it makes me sick I have a doctors appointment later today so I can get some meds for this.

Now that I think about it, the same thing happened to me when I stared my first job. I got really sick just a few days after starting and my doc said it was probably because handling money exposed me to more germs than my immune system was used to. I guess going to the gym and touching/ using three different machines had the same effect. And to make things worse DH is gone and Im not even able to call him or anything. Ugh hating my life right now..

I don't think you can get sick the next day. Most gyms also have paper towels and cleaning solution you can use before & after or at least mine does.

 

[Angelgirl4573]

Angelgirl - I know how you're feeling. we've been trying since October/November 2012 and I basically have resolved not to stress DH out with all the details anymore bc it freaks him out and, like you said, he doesn't really understand how it feels to wonder if there is something physiologically wrong with you.

On a separate note, we both just started new jobs and finally got insurance again, so hopefully in the next couple weeks I will be able to go to the doctor and get checked out so I can maybe put my mind at ease and get a plan about how to go forward. If you haven't gone to the doctor, maybe you should do the same -- that might help you to rest a little easier.

Today I took another HPT. It was a CBE digi (all I had on hand)....negative again. AF is supposed to be here on Wednesday. I've basically lost hope for this cycle. It is getting frustrating and hard to stay positive at this point. I've been trying to stay solution-focused. Just never thought I would be one of those people who would have trouble getting pregnant. *sigh*

Thank you so much for your kind words. It's nice to have someone who can relate to me and my situation. I actually just recently started a new job myself. It's with a very good company and a good surrounding for me. My last job stressed me out beyond belief, I was constantly nursing a migraine or anxiety. I figured if I wanted to conceive a H & H baby, I should also be H & H myself. Right?

I do plan to make an appointment with my doctor if this cycle ends up brining me AF. She actually told me once before that she would rather I attempt conception for at least a year before they try and intervene for me. She's pretty much told me that at my age, 24, I should still be very very fertile with very good eggs. Won't know until we look, right?? Plus she always reassures me that AF should bring me hope, because it does mean that I've O'ed sometime in the month. Her first worry was that I wouldn't O at all. Pray that NEVER happens!!

AF not due until Monday for me. I'm just hoping the headaches stay away. That's a tell-tale sign of my impending AF. Hehe. I'll get a headache for about 3 days leading up to it. I haven't POAS yet, been holding strong to avoid any disappointment to early in. I'm 9DPO, how about you?? My cramping has subsided almost completely this morning.

Did have an odd symptom last night. Noticed the area that hurt, or surrounding area felt almost hard to the touch. It was a small circular shape that felt hard almost. This is located on my left side, right next to my belly button and a bit up from my pelvic region. I had DF feel it, he noticed it too. But he immediately assumed I had appendicitis, I explained that's located on the right side.

That's all for me so far.

 

[trying2beamom]

not ovulating sucks so bad. my doc is doing tests as soon as af ends. but since I haven't ovulated it could be months before my period comes. and I have periods without ovulating. and it kills me because I'm almost 19 I should be fertile as all can be but here I am 2 years of trying and no bfp. this is so frustrating. timing keeps getting better my relationship with my family is great. my husband has got a great job and I start school soon. everything in my life is perfect why can't I have my perfect little baby

 

[Wishing1010]

Hello all...I'm new here but not new to the frustration of TTC. I have not been on BC since Mar. 2010. Husband and I have not taken any precautions during BD since October 2010, hoping it will just happen. I fluctuate on my cycles....I'll be regular with about 32 day cycles for 4-6 months, then completely irregular for about 2 months (i.e., spotting/bleeding every two weeks for months). Then...back to regular again. So far, I've been regular since December 2012 but we have been so busy that we haven't really tried. I want to start doing the ovulation prediction stuff, but feel as though it's pointless in my case.
I have friends who conceived during one night stands (one friend conceived 2 babies with ONS!!!! argh!) and others who thought 2-3 months was a long time once they got a BFP. About to reach 2.5 Years now on my end...Will I ever be able to have a beautiful miracle of my own?! DH is over the whole subject at this point in time, he can't stand another let-down...Not sure if I can anymore either. I am only 25 so I do still have time, but how long do I wait before it is too late for nature to do her thing?

 

[Fizzyfefe]

Here's my chart


My Ovulation Chart

You have too many temps taken at different times so if you did ovulate there's no way of telling.

I take my temperature at a different time each morning, and still have a clear ovulation pattern.

 

[ChartsNHearts]

I take my temperature at a different time each morning, and still have a clear ovulation pattern.

I think you must be one of the lucky ones! For most people their circadian rhythm will affect their temps (i.e. the time of day they take their temperature), as well as their hormones. That's really why one of the fundamental principles of accurate temperature charting is to temp at exactly the same time every day.

Some people might be lucky enough to temp at different times and see a pattern still, but most won't.

 

[annmarie24]

Hello
I've been trying to conceive for about a year now
My last period was February 7th lasted 4 days (before that u didnt have a period since November) I'm on cycle day 25 and 12 days past ovulation. I had an HSG on February 15th both tubes were open no blockage. I hear that in the 3 months after an HSG there's a higher chance of conceiving. I'm not sure what to think I ovulated on the 19th had sex 15th,16th,18th,19th and 21st. I took a pregnancy test 2 days ago BFN I think it's still to early. I haven't experienced any implantation bleeding but I've been having cramps on the left lower side of my abdomen the past few days I never really have cramps when I'm getting my period so this is something new also my boobs feel a little heavier than normal. Im wondering if there could still be a chance of pregnancy even though the test was negative a few days ago?

 

[Twag]

WHY why is AF here I mean seriously perfect timing for 6 months and nothing arrghghghghhhhhh

I WANT MY BFP damn it - I did not want to see Cycle 7

 

[Shanea]

My period is supposed too come.on March 2nd but it never came than on March 3rd wen I went to the bathroom there was white mucas && wen I wiped there was blood I could tell it wasn't my period because it was pink && red than on the 4th I wen I went too the bathroom I noticed the sane thing so I put on a pant liner and it took a whole day too fill the whole thing && now today is the 5th and its only wen I wipe has this ever happened too anyone my periods are regular && im going crazy because idk wats going on could sumbody help. ??? I have been having unprotected sex with my sons father hoping for another