Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[FireLyte]

Feeling very frustrated today about my body. I hate knowing that I've only o'd twice in the past year. How the heck am I supposed to get pregnant when I'm not o'ing?! And still can't afford to go to doc because my insurance won't cover anything infertility related (ultrasounds, meds, office visits, etc). Arrrrrrrrrrgh!

Sometimes I find myself more hoping that I'll o, and know I've o'd, than for the bfp. Not like I can get the bfp without o'ing.

 

[cntrygrl]

Feeling very frustrated today about my body. I hate knowing that I've only o'd twice in the past year. How the heck am I supposed to get pregnant when I'm not o'ing?! And still can't afford to go to doc because my insurance won't cover anything infertility related (ultrasounds, meds, office visits, etc). Arrrrrrrrrrgh!

Sometimes I find myself more hoping that I'll o, and know I've o'd, than for the bfp. Not like I can get the bfp without o'ing.

Have you talked to your doctor is there a way around it? The doctor's can code things differently sometimes. Not all tests are just infertility related. I mean if you have PCOS they would have to do ultrasounds to check.

 

[MrsLemon]

Feeling like i am constantly being punished!!

what have i done so wrong

 

[NadiaSweety]

Well I'm either crazy, pregnant or pms-ing. Currently leaving the drugstore with a box of HPTs and a king size chocolate bar...

That chocolate bar always sneaks in the basket doesn't it.

 

[wellsk]

Just the one king size chocolate bar?!

 

[Lozzy1985]

If only it was all that simple, but all we want to b is preggers but like u say when it happens its worth it for the happiness you feel although I have had this twice already as had 2 miscarriages last year which broke my heart and that's part the reason I do t wana get my hopes up to much I just feel that odds are against me and my OH all we have is bad luck all the time I keep saying when are we due some gd luck.
Just want it to be us
But thanku for taking the time to talk to me as none of this is easy x

 

[lamago]

Did AF get you Mrs. Lemon? I want to vent that i'm not pregnant today because I got AF in the am. boooooo

 

[AlyCon]

Mad at myself for delusionally thinking I might have conceived just a few days before my last doctors appt and that's why my test came back negative. I mean of course anything is possible but who am I to think I would be so lucky? Trying silence these thoughts before my next appt..

 

[AJnJJ2008]

Sad bc i just foun out that this is the last cycle to conceive a baby due this year...

 

[trying2beamom]

i feel so alone ignored and invisible right now just sitting here balling my eyes out. thanks lovely husband of mine for understanding not

 

[AJnJJ2008]

i feel so alone ignored and invisible right now just sitting here balling my eyes out. thanks lovely husband of mine for understanding not

If you need a buddy to talk to I'm around!

 

[AJnJJ2008]

Today's Vent:

Friends who got preg. after 1 month NTNP telling us to "hurry up and get pregnant, so we can do ____ together with our kids". While I know it's from a completely innocent and good hearted place, it hurts. If I could hurry up and get pregnant, I would have been pregnant before them!!

 

[Hoping girl 2]

i feel so alone ignored and invisible right now just sitting here balling my eyes out. thanks lovely husband of mine for understanding not

We're all here for you and we all understand! I know it might not be the same but hope it helps! Xx

 

[trying2beamom]

thanks guys its just frustrating im not ovulating my depression is now back. my fb is full of pregnant people like a girl who is now pregnant with her 4th baby and she isnt even 20 yet. he keeps asking me whats wrong but it should he should know by now. its been the same thing upsetting me for over a year. i knew it was going to take us at least a year to get pregnant because it took my mom under 2 years to get pregnant with me but im going on over two years. my doc is now trying to help as much as possible which means a ton of visits at 20 bucks a piece and he says its so expensive and why do i need to go which just hurts so much because my only dream is to be a mom it shouldnt matter how much we have to spend. but he still spend over 8 dollars a pack on cigarettes which he was supposed to quit over 2 years ago we spend over 16 a week on his bad habit that we could be spending to help make a baby. so to say i have no interest in my husband right now would be an understatement sex makes me want to cry and never be touched again. another fun thing ruined by my inability to conceive. ugh vent over

 

[tamithomas]

Well it's official, basically 2 weeks late. I've decided that I'm not going to do anything about and just let things play out unless I miss a whole cycle which has never happened for me before. I'm a 21-22st of each month person always on cue but considering February as usual it moves forward 2 days so now it's 23-24. Not gonna think anything of it because if I start symptom spotting it will just lead me to false symptoms. The mind is a very powerful organ. Hoping this doesn't get any more serious then just an irregular cycle.

 

[AlyCon]

I know this picture is about finding a OH but for some reason I feel like it also describes people who are TTC and how it feels sometimes when people tell you "oh it'll happen soon" or whatever. Like this is me waiting to O, waiting to test, constantly getting BFN but somehow everyone else around me seems to get pregnant without trying. Seriously this picture is exactly how I feel like all the fish (ovulation, BFPs, babies) are just AVOIDING my hook. They're everywhere else but where I want and need them to be. Or maybe i keep trying the wrong things. And even though this picture helps me describe my feelings it's also kind of discouraging at the same time. But I just thought I'd share it to see if it makes sense to you ladies or if Im just crazy.

 

[Angelgirl4573]

I caved today. Decided to POAS at 10DPO. It was a very obvious BFN and my heart sank. I know it's still much to early, but I just kinda had a feeling. I keep trying to be positive, but it's so hard. I'm the only one left in my family without a baby. My brothers try and BAM, new baby. I try, and nothing. I'm worried there's something wrong and I don't know that I could afford help. Honestly. This week my family will be welcoming 2 new babies into the world. One on my side and the other on the DF's side. I know we'll be called to visit in the hospital, but is it wrong of me to envy and not want to see a beautiful baby that isn't mine?? I feel lost..and I feel like DF doesn't understand.

I'm thinking of NTNP again...I've got a new job starting the 18th and maybe if I throw myself into it, I'll feel less pressure. I found myself testing today, simply because of the ache in my left side. A pain I've never felt in any cycle of my life. I've had it for 5 days now and it's worrying me. I wanted to see if there was a BFP so I could looked at for complications. Should've known a BFN would hurt me. Don't know why I gave in.

Seriously feel like I'm the only one in this family who can't conceive. I have 7 nieces ans nephews from my brothers and each other my cousins have at least 2 babies. Same with my DF, lots of little ones in his family. What got me the most is that his 17 year old nephew and his 14 year old girlfriend have a baby coming...they're just babies themselves...

I'm off to shop..usually makes me feel better..

 

[Tasha S.]

Hey girls! I don't really belong on this thread, sorry for stalking ...I'm down with a migraine today, just waiting for time to pass and have begun to stalk B&B!

I'm really sorry that you are all going through what you're going through, I know what it's like to watch everyone around you get pregnant and you're scratching your head wondering: "What am I doing wrong?!" ...so I'm gulping down my shyness (lol! Because I don't know any of you!) and I'm going to share with you all my secret that helped me conceive along with my older sister's SIL! To all you ladies who have very irregular cycles or who don't ovulate on a regular basis, this will most likely help! It's called FertiliTea, and you can find it on fairhaven.com, it's 15$ for a month's supply (it says it's a month's supply, but it lasts at least 1.5 months if you ask me!.....and let's be honest, 15$ is about what we spend on pregnancy tests each month lol!), free shipping in Canada and the US (if there are any Canadians who want to try it out, shipping can take long due to customs, sorry!). I got pregnant on it the first cycle that I tried it, so did my sister's SIL! It's all natural, and it's a loose-leaf tea. It REALLY increases fertile CM, like, I found it disgusting! But that's conceiving kind of material! Check out the reviews on the fairhaven site, that's what sold me! Good luck ladies!! And hang in there!!

 

[Jett55]

Wow this girl keeps whining about wanting her kid back I'm holding back from saying if you were half the mom u should be u wouldn't have him at your moms to begin with she keeps saying how its her baby daddy's fault umm u had a chance to get our of the situation u effed up its your own dang fault don't complain to me I have no sympathy on women who don't take care of their kids. She likes the idea of saying she's a mom but she's too stupid to take responsibility gaaah restraining from snapping... Despite that she tells me I'm not ready for a child um her advice is invalid I'm way more responsible than she'll ever be... Yah I feel so much better after venting I'm so close to telling her off

 

[AJnJJ2008]

Ugh I think I'm going have a vent everytime we hang out with our best friends. They are arguing about the baby room (she's 2 months or less pregnant) in front of us. I let out a loud sigh ...oh man.