My partner and I have been TTC for 11 months now. I had an appointment this morning, to discuss possible fertility issues, with a specialist, as prior to taking prevara last month, I hadn't had my AF in 7 months. I don't know what I was expecting this morning, but I wasn't expecting to be told I need to stop many of my habits, and that even if I were ovulating my odds of being able to conceive are basically 25% or less. I hadn't realized I haven't been ovulating, or I would have asked to see this doctor much sooner than now. I feel so down right now, and all I want to do is call my partner and tell him about my appointment, but I don't see the point. When I told him earlier in the week about it, he told me we didn't need "help" and that we just need to try harder. I want to tell him and know that he will hug me and say we'll get through this, but I know that he's going to say something about trying harder and not get his swimmers tested like my doc. wants him to.
When I got into work, I told two of my coworkers what happened at my appointment, to try and vent in order to go on with my day. My one coworker shared her story of how she got pregnant in less than 3 months (I'm happy for her, but why would she think that would make me feel better). Thankfully, my other coworker was able to give me something to laugh about this morning, and did what she could to make me feel better.
I find myself unjustifiably angry at my sister, my coworkers who are pregnant/had a child recently, and friends who already have children. Everyone I know, who has shared their stories, saying how easy it was for them, and how their kids were 'oops' babies, or it happened the first month, etc. Why them, and not me?
I'm sure y'all can tell, I'm new here. Can anyone help me figure out all the abbreviations being used? There are a few I can't figure out and/or may use incorrectly.
cuz my chances are already slim because of pcos, and i feel like if i waiting any longer i will my only opportunity. and im not willing to risk that! 
