Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[trying2beamom]

really hopping this is our cycle because we would find out we are pregnant before mothers day and that could be my present to my mom

 

[weeyin09]

Hi Girls, I am at that point I need a place to vent, I posted in the vent thread in ttc yesterday but since we are ttc no1 I should be here ...

We are in cycle 15 now & I would say until now I have been doing okay with it, last month the witch came two days early & on the same day I found out two of my friends are pregnant & my hairdresser so I was a bit stressed but I thought okay move on will be our turn next..

Just found out yesterday my best friend who wasn't trying is pregnant and didn't take that so well, I am so happy for her but so sad for me, all I done yesterday was cry when I should be happy for my best friend

To top it of three girls at my work are pregnant & my friends dog !!

I do feel like giving up, I honestly don't know how long I can do this, I feel like we have no chance now as my two best friends are both pregnant, the three of us used to do everything together & I just think the odds of all three of us being pregnant together are like zero, I just know they both going to give birth & I am still going to be ttc

Sorry for long post just really struggling now....

 

[tamithomas]

Not ttc related but I thought I had your typical run of the mill cold but it has turned into the full blown flu including headache, muscle pain, the face looking like I went through a Rocky movie ect. Please someone punch my lights out so I can get some sleep. 2 hours of sleep in the passed 24...every time I start to fall into deep sleep I wake up needing to blow my nose. I hate to do this but, for the first time in a long time even though I swore never to touch that stuff again am going to get some Robytusin this morning when the pharmacy opens or Buckleys. Been on Tylenol cold for the passed day or so. Tylenol cold usually it works within 3 hours..that's how I know it's the full blown flu.

 

[Sam10]

Hello surprise period! Why have my periods become so light? I don't get it. Also I wasn't expecting it to show up for like 2 weeks. My cycle is so off now I don't know what to think or do.

 

[ashntony]

I am so sick and tired of the waiting game... hoping that I am pregnant before christmas

 

[Jett55]

grr stupid ff I finally got my crosshairs yesterday & then today it took em away :/

 

[Hoping girl 2]

SIL's baby scan all over fb. I can't help feeling ridiculously jealous and a bit bitter. She found out dh and I were ttc on our first month trying (suspected when I wasn't drinking over Xmas) and proceeded to mention she was trying for her second the next month. Of course she got pregnant fist try! She has a 9 month old baby already! Why couldn't she wait? And saw MIL yesterday and she very helpfully mentioned SIL had told her about this friend of hers who had to wait for a year after coming off bc before she got pregnant. She told me this to 'reassure' me that's there's nothing wrong with me because not pregnant yet. It grates me cause even though I know it's well meaning, first of all it means that they have been taking behind my back about my 'lack' of pregnancy. And also... It's ONLY MY 4TH CYCLE TRYING!!!! Give me a break! I'm sorry I can't be super fertile like her daughter is!!!!!!

 

[Limm]

Today is turning out to be one of those days that I wish I could pack a bag and go away on my own for however long it would take to feel better about everything.

 

[Ameli]

Today is turning out to be one of those days that I wish I could pack a bag and go away on my own for however long it would take to feel better about everything.

I feel pretty much like you do Today. So frustrated with the ttc process at the moment. Sorry you're feeling this way too. I am usually a fairly positive person, but it is so draining to get your hopes up every month, only to have to start over again.

 

[shorty42383]

I found out today a girl I new when I was younger is pregnant. She is a couple years younger than me and just got married in September! I would normally be excited for her if I haven't been tryin for awhile now. We got married in may and I feel like I should hve gotten pregnant first. Again, normally I would be happy for her just frustrated with my own situation.

 

[tamithomas]

Flu hasn't budged a single inch, Been 2 days now. Can't take this... and apparently hospitals don't take you seriously unless it hasn't budged for a week. Getting flu meds that apparently helped my mom tomorrow. Worst weekend EVER!!!! First flu ever too. Hope to God my last ever as well.

 

[Limm]

It's been a number of things today, not just the TTC. But yeah. :/

I've been feeling crappy about my weight the last day or so (especially since I thought I was finally losing some of it). Main reply I have gotten is "Maybe you're not to blame. You might be pregnant."

Great, so there's a chance of me building my hopes up AND feeling huge when the test comes back negative.

TTC just seems like a waste of time because I can't imagine ever actually being pregnant or having a child, despite wanting it so badly to happen. It seems as likely as winning the lottery.

 

[FireLyte]

We did our taxes over the weekend, and I expected to owe the government money, but yikes! I was thinking ahead to next year, and how it would be nice to have a dependent to claim on our taxes, but that can't happen, because no bfp now will result in a baby before the end of the year =(

 

[shorty42383]

We did our taxes over the weekend, and I expected to owe the government money, but yikes! I was thinking ahead to next year, and how it would be nice to have a dependent to claim on our taxes, but that can't happen, because no bfp now will result in a baby before the end of the year =(

We are in the same boat! Somehow we owe this year as well and I would love to have been able to add a dependent to next years taxes. What an amazing tax break that would be. But nope, not this year.

 

[Limm]

Went to GP and it turns out my normal doctor is back from maternity leave. She asked lots of questions and went through my notes and she is going to call me when she's looked through the guidelines for being referred to an infertility center.

DH's sperm results were brilliant so it's obvious that I'm the problem. I don't want there to be a problem, I just want something in my life to go right already!! Sick of this!!

 

[Ameli]

I hope you get some answers! I also hope you all get your bfp very soon. I understand the apathy about ttc, but it is good that you're seeing doctors who can hopefully help you move forward.

 

[awifey]

I am tired of my husband deferring again and again to make an appointment. His SA had zero, now he needs to see a doctor so we can try and figure out why and try to make some changes! We have cheap healthcare at the moment, but that will change in just under three months… Grrr!

 

[Ladybuggz]

CD 38 and no sign of AF. Definitely not pregnant (missed O by 5 days and tested BFN), which means my cycles are still wacky, despite being off the pill for nearly 8 months :/ Just crossing fingers for AF soon, really don't want another 90 day cycle! These irregular cycles are really starting to concern me, I'm debating going to the doctors (despite not trying for a year yet...)

 

[AlyCon]

My vent for the day.. The other night me and DH were BD and he tells me
"the secret is to pretend we can't get pregnant"
And I said what? And he repeated himself and I was confused but we kept BD and just as he was "finishing" he leans into my ear and says,
"We can't get pregnant so it's okay"

I honestly don't know how to feel about him saying that. Especially while we were BD. I know he was trying to put me at ease about things but he knows we don't have to "pretend." WE REALLY CAN'T GET PREGNANT!! I think that's the part that bothers me the most. And it doesn't help knowing that I'm the problem I'm not mad at him or anything but my feelings are definitely hurt. At the same time I feel bad for my DH. He wants to be a dad so bad he's willing to do anything to make it happen.

I wish TTC wasn't so hard and complicated. I never imagined growing up that I would be having these problems. That's the part that hurts most, the shock of being told you're infertile after living your whole life thinking it would come easy like it does for everyone else. Why must I be so unlucky?

 

[Sam10]

Well what I thought was my period ended up being light pink spotting for about a day. It came with cramping so I was so sure it was AF. WTF am I suppose to think now?!