Trying To Conceive #1 Only Vent Thread

[sweet_18]

Looks like it is implantation spotting!! Good luck with BFP

 

[Evermore]

Hi, everyone! This is my very first post on any TTC forum, but I have been visiting as much as I can over the last month. It was our first cycle TTC and I was just learning the ropes and was very, very excited (and VERY disappointed at the end of the month, even though I knew odds were it'd take longer). We're now into cycle 2 and I should be ovulating sometime this week (trying OPK's this month, last month just did charting). As excited as I am, I'm also very worried about being let down--it hasn't taken me long to see how emotionally difficult this process can be. I have been wanting to get pg since we got married about 2.5 years ago, but DH just recently declared he was ready, so even though we just started TTC I am already feeling like I can't wait any longer! I actually have every confidence that my body will do what it needs to do when the time is right, but I am really struggling with patience.

ANYWAY, I joined this site to hopefully get support during this exciting/difficult time. I thought doing this might make me a little more crazy over the whole process, but just reading the experiences of others has made me feel so much better. None of my family or friends (even the ones who have been/are pg) seem to understand what I'm going through, or don't seem interested. I feel like all support is given to women after they GET pg, and no one ever talks about what it's like before that (that is, until I discovered these forums!).

Thanks for reading. I'm looking forward to getting to know all of you!

 

[Limm]

I don't have a clue how to bounce back from the bad stuff anymore or even if I have any energy left to do so. And this isn't just to do with TTC either.

 

[FireLyte]

Welcome, Evermore. Hopefully you're TTC journey is short and sweet!

 

[Boozlebub]

Aaah I really do not understand my body! Woke up this morning with what I thought looked like start of af! Not the best timing since next Tuesday is my would've been due date but I thought ok never mind try to be brave about it. Then all of the sudden out of the blue I get these intense pains in my uterus and all the way down my vagina it feels. I can't walk, move even lie on my back it hurts so bad. Lasted maybe 40 mins! Now I am hardly even spotting! What is going on?!?!?! So confused right now! Could maybe be implantation but don't want to get my hopes up! Why is this so draining?

 

[sweet_18]

Aaah I really do not understand my body! Woke up this morning with what I thought looked like start of af! Not the best timing since next Tuesday is my would've been due date but I thought ok never mind try to be brave about it. Then all of the sudden out of the blue I get these intense pains in my uterus and all the way down my vagina it feels. I can't walk, move even lie on my back it hurts so bad. Lasted maybe 40 mins! Now I am hardly even spotting! What is going on?!?!?! So confused right now! Could maybe be implantation but don't want to get my hopes up! Why is this so draining?

which DPO are you on? looks like implantation bleeding & cramping!
good luck with your BFP

 

[Boozlebub]

13dpo today! Thanks I hope it could be but I'm not feeling confident!

 

[Evermore]

Thank you, FireLyte!

 

[wellsk]

To the girl who's just announced her pregnancy on her Facebook... Stop complaining about being sick and unwell.
Do you have any idea how many people would give anything to be in your position! This evening I comforted a friend who's burying her baby this week... And you feel it's okay to whinge about feeling ill every 20 seconds!

 

[wntafmly]

Hi Ladies I am new here. I am 25, dh is 29 and we stopped preventing 3 years ago and have actively been ttc for 21 cycles. It's frustrating, impossible to not think about, and driving me to insanity that now all my friends who have just recently gotten married, and my older sister ALL got pg on their first try (when they were expecting it to take up to 6 months). DH is tested and fine, doc is concerned about irregular ovulation. I could definitely use a place to vent.

welcome to the family!!!!

Thanks!

Bah! Just found out my husband's cousin and his "fiance" are pregnant. She's 19, he's 20. He parties constantly and has always had issues with drugs and alcohol. He's trying hard to get his life on track, but it's another case of "why them". Like someone else earlier mentioned, you can't help but be bitter, but hate yourself for being bitter, because that's not really who I am as a person. Thankfully I have a great dh who just keeps giving me motivation even though he knows I struggle sometimes, and who finally understands the heartbreak that I, as a woman, go through each month. Men go through their disappointment and in their own way but I definitely believe it is not to the extent that we as women do....

 

[AlyCon]

Well my stress level just quadrupled! My mom just told me she's coming to visit in the fall (notice I said told not asked) and she doesn't know I'm TTC but she's not shy about letting me know that she thinks I should wait. Now I REALLY need to get my BFP by the end of summer. I CANNOT TTC with her in the house and I don't even know how long she plans on staying!! Ughh omg I can't even breathe right now just thinking about it. My anxiety is through the roof at the thought of it! But at the same time I fear if I was BFP before then and I told her she would plan to stay longer! And I definitely don't want that! And she would never forgive me if I was pregnant during her visit and didn't tell her until after she left. OMG I would never hear the end of that one!! So idk I guess if I'm pregnant by then I'll wait until she comes and have it be a surprise so that way she will already have her ticket booked to leave after a set time, and if I'm not pregnant then I'll just have to suck it up for a few weeks and try my best to keep TTC. Still stressed to the max about it though!

Even if TTC wasn't an issue right now, there's always that "mom's coming to town" anxiety that builds up inside of most people. And this will her first time visiting me in MY HOUSE since I've gotten my own place with my husband and all that. It's not that I want to impress her but I like having my own space and doing things my own way. and she's so bossy and controlling at times I just don't want her trying to tell me how to run my house/ life! But I know she will try to and I'm not sure how I will react. Ughhh...!!

Start wishing me luck now ladies..

 

[Limm]

Lots of luck with that hun! Just reading that made me feel anxious for you. :S

Had a day out with DH today and our friends decided to talk for a bit about how super his sperm is and how we'll be having octuplets before we know it. Just yesterday I got told by my GP that she's looking at referring me to an infertility clinic. Ended up having to slip out to the toilets so I wouldn't look stupid sobbing for no reason in the middle of our favourite pub, especially since one of the girls that was there is an ex friend/ex bridesmaid who used to constantly belittle me for every life decision I made. DH noticed something was up so took me outside for some fresh air.

Truly am sick of all of this already. I want my life to start properly already. I'm fed up of always having something to be upset about and losing my drive to do anything.

 

[tamithomas]

So tired of the "when we have kids" talks that usually last about an hour..once one of us does the "I bet when we have kids" it ends up in a laugh fest for that hour. It used to be just shake it off and have hope but we find ourselves rambling on day dreaming until one of us hits reality knowing that it may just be all talk and no really baby. These types of talks used to be uplifting and hopeful, now they're just down right depressing.

 

[tamithomas]

Also, I find myself hiding anyone now from Facebook who shares anything related to "I didn't know love until I was a parent" or anything of that sorts...those posts are so disrespectful. Why can't people think before posting?

 

[laurac1988]

Why is it that every chav and loser can get a BFP and happily carry a child that they can't look after without even trying... Yet there are so many lovely ladies on here who can't makes me so sad

 

[Boozlebub]

Well af came on in full force during the night! Onto cycle 6 it is then!

 

[Hoping girl 2]

Well af came on in full force during the night! Onto cycle 6 it is then!

I'm sorry to her that, hope you have a lucky May!

 

[trying2beamom]

ugh I better be having pregnancy symptoms and not an early period, fingers crossed I get my bfp before mothers day

 

[prayers12]

I have been having to avoid facebook because also evey friend of mine is pregnant or trying and it seems that no matter what I try it doesn't work for us. We have been trying to for 2 years with nothing. Some days I feel like just giving up because it's not going to happen. (that is my luck in life)

 

[ashntony]

Well I am now on CD95.... i am literally a mess... Going to the doc on Friday seeing that that is my first day off in almost 2 weeks.... Plus I started smoking again..... I just want a baby.... On a side note my ovaries have been in pain here lately....