Trying To Conceive #1+ Vent Thread

[stiletto_mom]

I'm totally sitting here brooding and glaring at my chart - waiting for my egg to drop.

It is now CD 27.

 

[Astraea98]

So glad this board exists! Anyone else out there beginning to hate the stupid flashing smiley face on cbfm?!?!? I swear it's taunting me. Endless days of high with NO PEAK! I've had the ovulation pains that i always get and the watery/ewcm but no peak and ff hasn't detected ovulation.

 

[starryjune]

Another cycle that I'm out... and this morning teased me with light pinkish brown spotting AND a significant temp rise... tested, whitest BFN ever. I am starting to wonder what the point of my life is.

 

[TXsweettea]

Anyone else have a friend announce a pregnancy on Easter?

Don't get me wrong- I was born and raised in Texas, and I have a complete and total appreciation for hospitality and treating people with kindness, but sometimes don't you just feel so BUMMED when you see yet ANOTHER couple leave your own little network of "trying to conceive" couples to join the newly pregnant category?? You are so happy for them and at the same time you're like GOSH when is it my turn?

Bahh! Rant over.

 

[ttc_Mera]

I just spent $70 on 30 CBFM sticks at Walgreens! This Sh*T BETTER WORK!! I am so tired of spending money and seeing nothing but BFNs! Ughhhh

 

[5starsplus1]

Another cycle that I'm out... and this morning teased me with light pinkish brown spotting AND a significant temp rise... tested, whitest BFN ever. I am starting to wonder what the point of my life is.

Oh starryjue don't be sad....I know how you're feeling...im on cycle #3 of trying and no baby yet....don't give up, we are in this together now...by the way in new here

 

[LaLaArt]

Hi guys!
I'm a fresh ttc-er, i have irregular cycles, they go from 25 to 36 (sometimes even more!) but this saturday we got in the action for the first time... I don't think we're going to be lucky from a first try, but I have to say that I'm not sure why am I feeling some cramps and an unussual amount of discharge! My last period started on 27th of March and my AF should come for at least a week!

 

[HopefulDLC]

Hello, I have been ttc for a while now. My husband and I have been together five years, never used birth control. Two years ago we decided to actually try. I'm in my mid 20s so everyone keeps telling me not to worry. But we have started telling people we aren't trying because when they ask why we don't have kids it breaks my heart. I have tried a tracking app from the beginning, and recently bought ovulation kits to help. But today when shopping with my grandmother who came in from out of town, she kept stating that she wanted a great grand baby who was a girl. After the second time we walked by clearance Easter dresses and she asked when she was going to get to buy one for my kid, I didn't know if I would scream or cry.
To make things worse, I'm really scared to see a physician about the issue because I'm sure it's me who is the issue. My husband had a little girl when he was a teen and put her up for closed adoption. I know he is ready to be a dad and I feel so helpless. I've never ranting like this or even told my closes friends who all happily have kids and wouldn't truly understand. Please tell me Its comforting to know there are others going through similar issues.

 

[cntrygrl]

HopefulDLC-- I would go to the doctor, even if it is something on your end. It could be a simple fix. It took DH and I over 2 years to get pregnant and that was with the help of a fertility specialist. The pressure that family and friends put on us is unbearable sometimes. If they know you're struggling then they do back off and offer support, rather than questions of "when". Good Luck to you

 

[Chrissy05]

We've been ttc for 6 months. After having what seemed like early pregnancy symptoms all last week, I decided to take a pregnancy test and it came back negative. I was all emotional on the drive to work but determined not to let it affect me. First thing that happens when I get there... colleague of mine announces that his gf is pregnant. They weren't even trying, the condom just malfunctionned, and BAM! she's pregnant. It was just too much for me, and I broke down crying. A few hours later... my period came.

 

[Tryin4No2]

Hopeful Your story is eerily similar to mine. I had a daughter almost 9 years ago. I have been married to my husband for almost 5 years. We have never used birth control and never prevented pregnancy. 3 years ago we began actively TTC and have not been successful. I joined this site maybe 6 months ago? It was helpful to know I am not the only one and many other couples are struggling just like us. I recently had to take a break from the site though to regroup and focus on other things. We also have asked family not to ask "when" or "why?" Instead they hug us and let us know they are praying for us. That is much better for us. What a celebration it will be when we can finally share some good news with them!! I'd love to keep up with your progress and encourage you!

Hello, I have been ttc for a while now. My husband and I have been together five years, never used birth control. Two years ago we decided to actually try. I'm in my mid 20s so everyone keeps telling me not to worry. But we have started telling people we aren't trying because when they ask why we don't have kids it breaks my heart. I have tried a tracking app from the beginning, and recently bought ovulation kits to help. But today when shopping with my grandmother who came in from out of town, she kept stating that she wanted a great grand baby who was a girl. After the second time we walked by clearance Easter dresses and she asked when she was going to get to buy one for my kid, I didn't know if I would scream or cry.
To make things worse, I'm really scared to see a physician about the issue because I'm sure it's me who is the issue. My husband had a little girl when he was a teen and put her up for closed adoption. I know he is ready to be a dad and I feel so helpless. I've never ranting like this or even told my closes friends who all happily have kids and wouldn't truly understand. Please tell me Its comforting to know there are others going through similar issues.

 

[Firefly Skies]

Hello, I have been ttc for a while now. My husband and I have been together five years, never used birth control. Two years ago we decided to actually try. I'm in my mid 20s so everyone keeps telling me not to worry. But we have started telling people we aren't trying because when they ask why we don't have kids it breaks my heart. I have tried a tracking app from the beginning, and recently bought ovulation kits to help. But today when shopping with my grandmother who came in from out of town, she kept stating that she wanted a great grand baby who was a girl. After the second time we walked by clearance Easter dresses and she asked when she was going to get to buy one for my kid, I didn't know if I would scream or cry.
To make things worse, I'm really scared to see a physician about the issue because I'm sure it's me who is the issue. My husband had a little girl when he was a teen and put her up for closed adoption. I know he is ready to be a dad and I feel so helpless. I've never ranting like this or even told my closes friends who all happily have kids and wouldn't truly understand. Please tell me Its comforting to know there are others going through similar issues.

Grrr! The people who tell you not to worry because you're still young can shove it where the sun doesn't shine. I had a friend who was constantly-- constantly-- telling me that I shouldn't worry because I "still have many years to try" (I'm also mid-20s) and she should be the worried one because she's older. You know where she is now? On maternity leave. She started TTC at least 6 months after we did. Now she's a mother, and I'm still just trying. Or, at this point, trying to try since I have proof I'm not even ovulating so I can't even try without medical intervention.

Being in our mid-20s doesn't make it hurt any less when you've gone from asking yourself, "When will I conceive?" to asking yourself, "Will I ever conceive?" Or when you see multiple people you know go from single to parenthood-- all in the time you've just been trying. Or when commercials come on the TV or radio about becoming a parent, or parenthood in general, and you get that ache because you want that experience and you don't know when/if you'll be able to get it.

I know exactly what you mean when you say you feel so helpless. I feel the same way. When my husband and I started TTC, I thought that would be a decision we would make together. We'd say, "Okay, it's time to have a baby," and some months down the line I'd be pregnant and we'd be on our way to parenthood. It was truly a remarkable and exciting moment when we decided to start TTC because, I thought, that would be it.

And then some months go by, and then more months go by, and then even more go by, and now we're at the point where it's not even a decision that's up to us anymore. Even with medical intervention, it's not guaranteed. And it's just so goddamn frustrating! It seems like everyone else around me can say "we want to have a baby now" and it happens. Meanwhile, I'm jumping through hoops and doctor's appointments and blood draws and medicine to maybe have the possibility of being able to try. Which I'm more than happy to do, but it doesn't make it hurt any less that I still have no fathomable idea of what our future looks like. Being in my mid-20s doesn't help with that.

Well, hopefully you can get some answers soon. Just know that you're not alone.

 

[ttc_Mera]

Cd 13 here , got a high CBFM yesterday ( cd 12) and today. I had an appointment with my primary doctor .since DH and I have been Ttc for about a year I thought she offer to refer me to a gyno but nope she wants us to try more because we're young ( I'm 25 ,26 this December and DH is 28) I wanted to cry because I feel like weree not getting anywhere. She said she wanted to do an ultrasound to make sure everything is good in there since my miscarriage but that's it. I really like her my I feel like I'm not getting anywhere with her...I get that we're young but i still should get some answers. I feel like just giving up. What a waste of a $25 co pay.

 

[PrincessTaz]

Urgh stop moaning and just be greatful to be pregnant! If kill to be in your shoes!

 

[tiki012]

Just venting here cause I have noone I can talk to about this. I'm about 7dpo and I used a wondfo hcg test yesterday just cause I'm a poas addict. I was expecting it to be negative, but a faint positive line showed up. I show dh and he blew it off.... he tries to not get excited because we've had a mmc at 15 weeks and a cp. Anyways I bought a frer and another faint positive line but can only see it at the right angle came up within the 3 minute time frame. I don't want to show dh cause I know he'll blow it off again. Plus now when I wipe I'm getting brown discharge and yhere was some dark red blood. I did have implantation bleeding with my first pregnancy but I heard it was rare. So I don't know what to think of all this. I don't want to get my hopes up but I want to be excited and have a positive mind set. I can't even talk to my sister cause she thinks I'm crazy for poas so much.

 

[PrincessTaz]

Just venting here cause I have noone I can talk to about this. I'm about 7dpo and I used a wondfo hcg test yesterday just cause I'm a poas addict. I was expecting it to be negative, but a faint positive line showed up. I show dh and he blew it off.... he tries to not get excited because we've had a mmc at 15 weeks and a cp. Anyways I bought a frer and another faint positive line but can only see it at the right angle came up within the 3 minute time frame. I don't want to show dh cause I know he'll blow it off again. Plus now when I wipe I'm getting brown discharge and yhere was some dark red blood. I did have implantation bleeding with my first pregnancy but I heard it was rare. So I don't know what to think of all this. I don't want to get my hopes up but I want to be excited and have a positive mind set. I can't even talk to my sister cause she thinks I'm crazy for poas so much.

My oh is the same so I probably wouldn't even show him but I'd definitely yell all you bnb ladies.

If you want to get excited the get excited. I get excited every cycle when get those stupid evaps on ICs hoping it might be the start of my bfp and even though every cycle it's not and frer is always bfn I'll still get excited hoping. If there's no excitement in ttc anymore than I've let the ttc get the better of me and win.

Have you made a testing thread in the pregnancy test section, it's hard not to get excited there and there's the best line experts ever. I've never had a line on frer except a bfp so.if it's there even if faint I'd say it's the start of yours x

 

[Cheekygringo]

over it all.

 

[Autumnflower]

over it all.

Completely agree. I've had a really shitty month. Flu at the beginning, ending it with a head cold. Af is due in 5 days and I just have a feeling she will get me this month, again for the millionth time. Meanwhile I get to see all of my family pregnant and people I know having "oops" babies. It may just be that I feel horrible because I'm sick but I really do feel over it all right now.

 

[ModernMaven]

over it all.

Completely agree. I've had a really shitty month. Flu at the beginning, ending it with a head cold. Af is due in 5 days and I just have a feeling she will get me this month, again for the millionth time. Meanwhile I get to see all of my family pregnant and people I know having "oops" babies. It may just be that I feel horrible because I'm sick but I really do feel over it all right now.

Flu must be going around. sitting/laying in bed right now with the flu feeling horrible. Im on CD 25 and AF is due in 6 days. I don't think ill get a BFP this month with getting a fever and all. Doesn't exactly make great conditions for an egg to implant. Cheers to next month

 

[Mrs. MB]

Hello Everyone! I'm new to this forum and to ttc. My husband and I have been together for 10 years and married for 8. Last month we decided that it's time to start trying for a baby. I took my last pill on 06/05 (had a week of pills I did not finish left) after 12 years. My withdrawal bleed started early morning on 06/07 and lasted through 06/11. We've been actively trying all month. DH has difficulties reaching climax every now and then so he only came inside twice this month (06/06 and 06/27). Otherwise there were days when we went several times... After 12 years on the pill I really don't know what is and isn't normal for my body anymore. Earlier in the month I definitely had strong cramps and have had very tender breasts for the last week or so (on and off). Pain near the right ovary during s-x the last few times. I've been nauseated more than usual and very tired. No spotting since 06/11. I have been constipated for the last several weeks which is driving me crazy because I'm bloated beyond belief. I've also had a lot of gas which is very uncommon for me. I know that my chances of being pregnant are slim to none this month but has anyone experienced similar symptoms coming off the pill? Seeing my Dr. on 07/15 for my first off the pill/ready for baby appointment. If I'm on a 28 day cycle AF should be here 07/05... Any replies are much appreciated. Very lost and new