TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[puma1986]

Belle: I am very sad to hear that we won't be graced with your presence as often. I understand though. There's definitely a healthy mindset that must be maintained. And it's hard when you want something so badly. I'll look forward to your check ins and I hope that increase in frequency as you get feeling better.

Green! You've been missed! Any new news or updates?

Star - the thing is...I wouldn't do it either if I hadn't become so fascinated with learning about my cycles and have the power to see what exactly is going on with my body from implantation and AF. Missed days on FF look terrible as vein as that sounds lol!!! If you want to do it, do it! My favorite inspiring quote is "we make time for the things we want and care about and excuses for the things we don't" it's really that simple This isn't to say that it will be easy creating a new habit. But using that determination to continually get better will produce the desired results

 

[greenarcher]

I thought it was really interesting to learn about my body too!

Got the unofficial woRd that husband didn't get the job. I'm 6dpo and completely forgot about ttc until today. Will test Wednesday through Saturday. Not expecting anything because husband still needs to recover from hot bath last month

 

[puma1986]

I'm just one day behind you although I think FF can easily be a day ahead or behind when we actually ovulated. Im sorry to hear about your DH Green. I know how hard he worked in prepping for it.

So I've been losing a lot of hair I'm horribly exhausted all the time (going on years) to the point of being able to sleep 18+ hours if undisturbed. (im always woken up) and my joints in my wrists and knuckles have been killing me. My Ana Titer is 640 which is a strong positive likely indicative of an auto immune disease. My husband told me that if the rheumatologist tells me I have an autoimmune disease that we won't be trying to have a baby anymore since he has an autoimmune disease, he(we) don't want to pass it on. I feel so hopeless.part of me is selfish and hopes that we conceived this month because I don't know if he will be willing to try again until we have a diagnosis. But the other part of me is heartbroken realizing that my son may never have a brother or sister. I seriously dislike everything right now

 

[greenarcher]

I'm so sorry to hear that! You should look into DNA testing services like 23andme. Just because yall have an autoimmune disease doesn't mean that it is one that is hereditary! Did either of your parents have one? How about his?

Yea FF may be off, I didn't track well or do OPKs every day. I technically never got a positive one. 6 or 7 today. Maybe I'll start testing tomorrow

 

[puma1986]

Do it! Especially if you have a bunch of cheapies!!

What a great idea. I checked out their website! 199 is a bit expensive but having all of the knowledge would be priceless. Now just have to convince my DH! Thanks for the advice

 

[greenarcher]

You're very welcome!

The baby shower yesterday was wonderful. I got to see so many classmates I hadn't seen in months. I got to meet the wife of my friend (who I was worried about blabbing--unfounded, didn't come up), and turns out they had had trouble conceiving too! She said they were about to do a fertility work up, he was on fertility vitamins, so was she. The month they tried EPO was the month they got lucky! I'm hoping since this was my first month on EPO, we'll get lucky too! If not, I'll need to make sure I'm better about taking it in the future.

Check to see what autoimmune testing is done with their service. It may not have a specific one you're interested in, in which case it may not be worth it. If cost is an issue, maybe just have him tested since you already know he's been diagnosed.

Other than that, how are you doing, love? Any symptoms? You're 6 DPO today, yes? When are you planning on testing?

 

[StarGazerRose]

Thanks for the suggestions!

I'm a snoozer too -- I have it set roughly around the time when my husband leaves for work, so I know a few more minutes and the hot water will be back. -- so I might put it with my phone, that way it's there when I head for the bathroom.

I'm really wanting to get started on figuring out things a bit, but I just feel so unmotivated by my body's lack of will to be consistent!
I downloaded Ovia (I also have Clue and um...another ) and decided to try updating them as much as possible.

I took day 1 of my Provera today, so perhaps I can start my temp tonight. So it's a perfect day to start following other signs. In roughly 10 days AF will be showing up, so I'll have more to track.
I'm kinda excited that this month I'm getting bumped up to 5mg of Letrozol...

Anyone know good intel on how well bumping dosage helps? I had a 1.1 progesterone spike on the 2.5mg (but that was back in october), but the past few tests kept getting lower.

 

[greenarcher]

No idea, sorry I can't be more help!

I used fertility friend and really enjoyed it GL

 

[StarGazerRose]

I might try it to see how I like it. (I just have to do it when I get home, cause the time it takes to input my info is more than what I can probably do without getting a look from my super)

I'm thinking about removing Clue, cause it's more-or-less just a period tracker. And with Provera only cycles right now, tracking my period isn't all too important to me until i have one that isn't induced by a pill.

I so far like Ovia because it gives little articles here and there to read, based on symptoms and info that I log.

 

[puma1986]

Green: I found a bunch of articles today which indicated that ANA levels as high as mine have a strong correlation to infertility and other issues. Mainly, it attacks the nucleus of cells and causes the babybean to lose the ability to implant. In addition to that, the follicular fluid would also have ANA in it which would ruins the quality of my eggs Grrrrrr.

Yep! I'm 6DPO today. Nothing out of the ordinary, really. Some tugging, pulling, and occasional pinching, but I have experienced all of these before and still gotten a BFN. Truthfully, I'm beginning to think that I'm not going to be able to conceive. If we don't conceive this month (which I'm fairly certain we won't) I'll be heading in cycle 7 and I honestly just don't know how much more I can take. Even if we do conceive, the odds are in favor of having a miscarriage. I just feel so hopeless I asked my DH why he never really talks about TTC anymore and he said "I don't know... I mean, I guess it would have happened sooner than this". I could see that he has partially given up as well.

How are YOU feeling besides having a great time at the baby shower and having good conversation?

 

[greenarcher]

Like shit, honestly. Physically and mentally. Stomach problems, super stressed with work. Up now at 2 am after a nap so I can keep working.

I'm not very good at my job.

 

[puma1986]

Sounds like you're awesome honestly. Your sacrificing sleep for it. Be careful missy. Nothing is important enough to put your health at risk!

 

[greenarcher]

Thanks love, when are you testing?

 

[puma1986]

Can I say never? I'll probably test around 9 dpo. I don't want to. Testing or having AF arrive is me having to accept that it could be months before I have a diagnosis. My DH has made it abhorrently clear that we will not be trying for a baby until we find out if I have an autoimmune disease. If we get a BFP this month (highly unlikely considering my body is attacking anything right now) then I'll be thrilled. I have some false hope that even if I do have an autoimmune disease that it won't touch my baby. Sigh.

So yep. 3 days and we should know hopefully.

 

[puma1986]

Having been super pessimistic, at least my temps are looking awesome.

 

[greenarcher]

Haha right?! Lovely temps!

I'm having small globs of snotty mucus the past few days. If we had BD recently, I'd assume it was leftover baby juice. It's stretchy and clear, but more sticky than slick.

Buuuuuuuut I tested this morning (10 dpo) and it was negative. I give up. I just want to get really really drunk this weekend.

 

[puma1986]

Haha right?! Lovely temps!

I'm having small globs of snotty mucus the past few days. If we had BD recently, I'd assume it was leftover baby juice. It's stretchy and clear, but more sticky than slick.

Buuuuuuuut I tested this morning (10 dpo) and it was negative. I give up. I just want to get really really drunk this weekend.

I've read that sometimes yellow cm is a good sign of the mucus plug forming. 10dpo could easily still be early! You're not out yet! Drink water my cycle compadre!

 

[greenarcher]

Weird thing is, it's completely clear and colorless. I have no idea.

PM test today was negative. Tomorrow night starts the celebrations. I really had hoped I would have a definite answer by then!

OMG HURRY UP AND TEST, YOUR CHART IS BEAUTIFUL

 

[puma1986]

Weird thing is, it's completely clear and colorless. I have no idea.

PM test today was negative. Tomorrow night starts the celebrations. I really had hoped I would have a definite answer by then!

OMG HURRY UP AND TEST, YOUR CHART IS BEAUTIFUL

If that isn't CM you've had before it could be a good sign!

I tested today and I didn't see any lines. My temp went up a tiny bit again. I've never had a chart like this before with so many consecutive rises. Could mean nothing! I hope it means something though!

 

[greenarcher]

Boo negative test! Negative for me too with fmu (I'm 11 dpo).

I need to decide if I'm going to drink tonight :/ not spotting yet, and I usually do the day before. But something like 80 of women have a positive test by now. And I've got like no symptoms.

Are you 9 or 10 dpo?