TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[puma1986]

Sorry for my absence ladies! I was out of town working the past few days! Excited to catch up to see how everyone is doing. Should O any day. Tty ladies tonight!

 

[StarGazerRose]

I called to set up my progesterone blood test ... *sigh* I falls on a Saturday, and I'm trying to set it up for a Friday morning... It's just easier to do it during the week (it's in an office i know, it's during morning hours so i just go in to work late...)
"It might not be as accurate", yes, but this whole cycle is kinda screwed up, so i might use my opk I bought and see how that goes along with tracking my CM.
DH and I have been scheduling BD all week so I'm hoping staying on track with that might lead to some positive outcome, regardless of the blood test.

Hoping that things work out. I'm still a little stir-crazy waiting for a reply about this job.

I left my breakfast at home this morning, I'm a little grumpy this morning. :/

 

[greenarcher]

Puma, hurrah for O! Are you still using OPKs? You might have said something before, but my memory is absolute shit lately.

star - surely one day won't make too much of a difference. Bummer that timing isn't convenient.

Belle - how long is the wait for your HSG?

AFM - it is what it is. I bought a soft cup to try out next AF. I'm wondering if maybe using tampons is prevent me from fully shedding my lining. My AF is so short and light normally. I've done 3 days of OPKs (since last cycle was so weird), and CD4 was quite dark, close to positive on my wondfo. The past two days have had very visible lines (though not positive). I'm going to continue testing daily to see how things progress. Hurray for weird cycles....

 

[StarGazerRose]

Well, the nurse that called me back was SO much more personable (i might have gotten a non-morning person the first time, i totally understand that )
She was trying to help me out and got it okay'ed to coming by the office on the friday before. I told this girl that my cycle was little odd this time, so doing it early might be beneficial.
And since I don't really know all what was going on this cycle, it was all kinda weird to me...so i might be off a day which then puts me at the correct day.

anyways. how's is everyone's day going ?!

 

[BelleNuit]

Green, I have no idea now long the wait will be. There is a serious lack of resources for fertility services in my city. So a brand new fertility clinic just opened up in July to fill this need (this is where I was referred, other place has a 6 month to one year waitlist). They are in the process of getting the required equipment so that they can do their own HSGs in house. Right now I think they are only referring out the most urgent cases. Others like myself that are less of a priority are on the waitlist. Honestly I'm okay with being on the waitlist as an HSG is very invasive and I don't really want to have it done unless I'm past the one year mark anyway (November). If November rolls around and I still don't have an appointment I'll call again and be more pushy.

Green, I tend to have a heavy AF for 2 days but then it turns very light for like a day or 2 (like could be considered spotting but I usually just count is as light AF). So I also wonder if I have lining issues because my AF is so short (last month was only 2 days!). I'll let you know if acupuncture helps for me because I've read it is supposed to promote circulation and actually can assist with developing a thicker lining. The nice thing about lining issues is that they usually respond to treatment right away (you don't have to wait 3+ months for better quality eggs or swimmers for example)

I actually just went and bought natural pads (like 100% cotton, no plastics, etc.) because I was reading how horrible the synthetic plastic materials they put into pads and tampons are for your body. If men bled every month you can bet they'd only put the finest materials into pads and tampons! They were more expensive, but i feel like I'm doing my body a favour. They'll biodegrade too, so nicer for the environment.

Star glad to hear that nurse was so friendly!

Puma so stoked to hear you will be Oing soon! woo hoo! So happy you guys are still trying!!!!!!!!!

 

[greenarcher]

Star - I'm really glad to hear the testing day is going to work out.

Belle, wow that's a quite a wait. I guess US healthcare is good for a few things I should hit up my gyno again before I quit my job and lose my good insurance.

I'm... having a really shitty day today. I've been doing weekly evaluations with my boss because I'm not performing up to standards. I've been distracted with a lot of things (husbands unemployment, TTC, life in general), and it's made it really hard for me to focus. I've been working weekends to try to make up for my shoddy performance during the week. I constantly feel like I'm trying to catch up. I really just want to be a stay at home mom with a side legal business. That's my dream. I want it so bad, but I can't even manage to get pregnant.

Husband refuses a S.A. I just bought a home kit from Korea that was pulled from the shelves here by the FDA.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Archer, Sorry to hear about your issues with work. Kinda sucks when evals come up. My last one I was disappointed as well. They can't give anyone a higher eval and anyone else -- they told me the only way was to exponentially process more items. But in this case, a new manager was placed in charge over things, and they have no clue what I've done. So i stopped "overachieving" cause it wasn't getting me anywhere. I know it's a bad way to look at it, but the people who evaluate me, and monitor that stuff don't actually look at what I do or have done.
Life sucks in general and it's hard to separate things -- especially with so many heavy burdened items... Try to keep your chin up!

I'm getting worried about my new job possibility... I know it's too early, but in my head i answered things wrong, i should have monitored what i said more, but I was so freakin nervous (it was the first time being in front of people with major responsibilities....) idk ... Kinda feeling like I just wasn't the best option for them...

I'm trying to focus on other things -- like my crafts -- to occupy my mind so that if either of these things don't work out, I have at least something that I've put energy into.
Wanting to think up ideas for side projects for when my main one gets boring. I've decided on crochet and recycled material earrings.

 

[greenarcher]

Crafts are a fabulous distraction, I've found. Knitting for me, but I've crocheted a little too! Obviously you should make us all baby caps

I hate the whole, everyone gets a trophy mentality. If you're a harder worker (consistently) than everyone else, you should be rewarded. If the variation isn't significant (like maybe you had a few more good days than others, but they also work hard), that's a different story.

I'm not advancing here (I can't, it's a 5 person company!), so my meeting are more about, how can you bill more work to the client? The obvious answer is work 8 or 9 hours without a break, but I can't keep my head in the game that long!

And I know how to make you feel better about your job interview. One of my first job interviews ever, when they asked about my weaknesses, I told them that I have anger issues (i had gotten into a fight with my boyfriend that morning, so it was the first thing that came to my mind). Can't be much worse than that.

I really hope you hear something soon. I really hope my husband hears something soon, too. FX for each of you.

 

[StarGazerRose]

I'm working on wanting to sell stuff. But my main project takes god-awful long (i'm hoping I can get this done in under 6mos) so I've been seeking other projects (to also sell) for when I get bored of working on the same project for that long! The main project is Cross Stitching whole images and derivatives of photographs.

I would LOVE to make baby caps (i'm just horrible with sizing). And I'd rather make something that would last for more than a few weeks on a baby.
My crochet plans were to make little binky blankets (the ones with a head of an animal in the center, and a blanket coming out the bottom/neck -- with possible little "paws" or "feet" at corners but that just came to me...and i need to learn how to effectively do the first before going that far)
The jewelry ideas are recycled pieces (not trash ....) used for fashion earrings. (and possibly bracelets) Basically cutting my cost to things I already buy and I'd just have to up keep the little ear pieces.

I've been seeking a way to make money with all the crap i have in my craft room. I just need products to be finished before I can put up a shop. I'm a long way off

DH was telling me a few days ago that "Less is More" with interviews, so I was having flashbacks and I just keep thinking about everything "little" thing that I said too much on ... which could add up to being a bad thing. And I keep trying to tell myself that the positives that I remember are a good thing...
I'm one of those that if you give me an inch, my mind Runs with it for ages, but I beat myself up every inch of the way my mind runs -- and with my vivid imagination, my mind is already settled in some fancy office (of which i have NO clue if i even get) with the walls decorated in stuff, a bookshelf next to my desk with tons of design tools, my paper cutting machine set up and ready to go .... and I'm working on some HOA poster for some community gathering. Yeah ... I'm hopeless...
Kinda why I need to know like NOW if I got this, so my imagination can settle on reality (which could potentially be a little-hole-in-the-wall cubicle with a rotten smell of the past tenant)

 

[BelleNuit]

Got a call back from the fertility clinic. They are in business for the HSG and it will be booked for my October cycle. Just supposed to call them on the first day of my cycle. Will cost 250. Not terrible I suppose. Next cycle will be my 14th cycle, so I feel like that is a fair enough time to have an HSG done.

 

[mnelson815]

Hey Belle,

Where in Canada are you? I just had an HSG done and mine was covered under my provincial health care?

 

[BelleNuit]

I'm in Alberta. I'm wondering if its because I've gone to a private fertility clinic. The other clinic had astronomical wait times.

 

[mnelson815]

I was at a private clinic as well? I am also in Alberta. I didn't know we have publicly funded ones here?
I was at a private clinic and all my blood work, HSG, SA and that was all covered.

 

[greenarcher]

Got a call back from the fertility clinic. They are in business for the HSG and it will be booked for my October cycle. Just supposed to call them on the first day of my cycle. Will cost 250. Not terrible I suppose. Next cycle will be my 14th cycle, so I feel like that is a fair enough time to have an HSG done.

That's excellent news! Here's hoping you get pregnant this cycle and can cancel it

 

[BelleNuit]

We will try our best Green!!! LOL

 

[mnelson815]

I also know quite a few ladies who got pregnant on their HSG cycles! Apparently it makes a really good home for the egg to travel down and sperm to meet up in, so here is hoping that works as well!!

 

[puma1986]

Woohoo Belle! I hope you can find a way to have it covered since mnelson has had success!

Green: No OPKS here! Just watching signs (EWCM) and I am definitely around the peak period for ovualtion so we will be BD'ing every day for the next two days (including the last two).

Our fertility appointment is at the end of October! I hate waiting, but I'm glad we have it set up I also was able to move my rheumatology appointment up to the end of this month so either way we should have some answers soon! I'm curious to see what my DH's SA shows, since he has never conceived before

 

[BelleNuit]

Mnelson I hope we get lucky with the HSG cycle! It depends on when it happens though. They will book it between CD 6 and 11, and I usually ovulate CD 12, so if it happens on CD 11 we won't be able to try next cycle. I'll try to get them to book it earlier for me.

Puma thats super exciting to hear you got a fertility appt. set!! I hope you get the answers your looking for and that there will be solutions!!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Oh I meant to take an opk this morning ... was in my groove and was thinking about paying a bill more than anything else.... ah well, perhaps tomorrow...

 

[greenarcher]

OPKs are better in the afternoon, from what I hear! Just take it a little later?

Holy crap you guys, so last month I tried evening primrose oil for the first time, just 500 in the morning, 500mg in the evening. Didn't really notice a difference. Yesterday I started taking it for this cycle. I took 1500mg last night for the first night this cycle and woke up to a freaking waterfall.

I did have a dream that turned me on, so I'm not sure if it was true CM, but holy crap, I haven't been like that in at least 5 years.

If this keeps up, I will sing EPOs praises from now on!

Also, I got a close to positive OPK on CD4, and it's been fading since then. I'm wondering if maybe I had a really really long cycle and only just Od. I'm going to keep up with OPK testing for 10 more days and see if it gets any darker. Last months wonky cycle really threw me off. urg.