TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[greenarcher]

Excellent! I'll hold my breath for you hopefully your lining will thicken up and this will be your month!

 

[StarGazerRose]

(sorry girls I don't get a chance to get on during the weekends -- funny enough, I have more time during the week at work)

Well I took one the day I had EWCM and it came back "High". But DH and I were pretty tired after 3 nights of BD...so we took that night off (I don't think we should have, but omg so tired! )
BD'd the next day, so i think we might be alright. (and I didn't test that day, but I'm thinking it might have been either a "High" or "Peak" )

And today 18th I'm on CD16.
I'm not really sure what day I could have O'd on. The cramping kinda stopped after the EWCM, so I'm thinking that was the day? (I didn't mark it as O day cause I wasn't sure)

So Entering the 2WW right now (app says 10 days til test, but if I am a real good girl I'll just wait until my projected period)
And so ... the wait begins!

 

[greenarcher]

Yay for 2WW! You've done all you can do! I'll be there with you in about 3-4 days

 

[BelleNuit]

The waiting begins!

I'll also be joining you in the TWW in 4-5 days. Will be so weird for me to have others in the TWW with me! For the longest time I cycled opposite of green and puma!

 

[puma1986]

Hey ladies! I haven't had the chance to catch up yet. I am somewhere between 2 and 6 dpo depending. No real signs.

Confession: I can't stop eating. This isn't due to possible pregnancy. I'm not even hungry. Yesterday I ate an entire bag of candy corn by myself Even if we were to conceive I don't think there's anyway they could survive. Too much freaking sugar.

I don't think DH and I are,going to conceive. Ever. Belle, love, I totally understand what you've been saying all along. Its hard to be positive. I'll be heading into cycle 8 if it's another BFN.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Awe Puma, keep your chin up! I've cried myself to sleep many nights thinking that it wasn't going to happen... But when I woke up the next day that looming feeling wasn't there, so I moved forward and I'm doing what I can to see that I get some sort of results!

I've honestly never been this far -- i mean with such a high possibility of actually conceiving, heck ovulating -- I'll take ovulating!
And I've never had any one to really talk to with situations where I need another girl!
(My friends are awol: a few don't want kids, the others are off doing god knows what they can and out of town, one is going through a separation, 1 had a kid (big huge deal with her family about that...) but moved nearly out of state for to school and work -- so i never get to talk to them. )

So glad that we'll all be in the same boat soon! Fx Everyone!!!

 

[greenarcher]

I know, it's so nice to have women in the same boat as me. Puma, I'm right there with you at 7 cycles. I have guesses at what might be causing my delay, but no way to know for sure. Enjoy a day of sugar, (or 3!) let yourself be sad because then the next day you'll have it out of your system and it will probably be better.

Star, I have high hopes for you! When exactly are you due for AF?

Belle - TWW buddies! Hells yea! Are you going to wait to test again?

Every cycle, I'm of the mindset that I'm not going to get pregnant this month. I've taken that mindset every month. It keeps me grounded and I don't get my hopes up too much. However, I do NOT let myself think "I'll never get pregnant." Never is a long time! Take a month (or cycle) at a time! Stay positive for others, we'll be positive for you!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Archer:
My app says October 2nd for AF. But that's based off my input of 28 day cycles. I'm not wanting to get my hopes up right now, cause it's WAAAAY too early. I'm just kinda excited to see results (in one way or another). I have a progesterone test this Friday, and I'll get those results either later that day or probably the next Monday! I'll be happy with anything over a 4 ng/mL!
(According to the doctor's notes: Mid luteal = 5.2-18.6 ng/mL or Pregnant Females First trimester = 4.7-50.7 ng/mL) My past two have been under a 1 :/ So that's why I want it to be with in those two ranges (preferably in the second range! like a 50! haha)

Puma:
And omg candy corn ... urgh I can't eat more than 3 before I'm done for another year... how did you manage a whole bag?!

 

[BelleNuit]

Puma you are right in a tough period of time. I've found cycle 6-12 really hard because there is something slowing things down but you don't know what. You don't know if you will be one of the lucky 15% who will conceive in the next 6 cycles (most people conceive in the first 6 months) or if you will be one of the 15% who tries beyond a year and is labelled infertile. It's hard because you don't know if you need testing or how long to wait. An infertility label is a hard pill to swallow. Accepting treatment is likely worse. I'm not ready to say goodbye to the hope that it could still happen naturally for me.

BUT I know for myself I have gotten amazing support from you and the ladies here. Sometimes it gets too hard to hope for yourself. So right now, I will hope for you so that you don't have to. You will one day be a mother of 2. It may take time, you may need help, or you may be one of the lucky ones. But you will get there. We are in this together

 

[puma1986]

Awe Puma, keep your chin up! I've cried myself to sleep many nights thinking that it wasn't going to happen... But when I woke up the next day that looming feeling wasn't there, so I moved forward and I'm doing what I can to see that I get some sort of results!

I've honestly never been this far -- i mean with such a high possibility of actually conceiving, heck ovulating -- I'll take ovulating!
And I've never had any one to really talk to with situations where I need another girl!
(My friends are awol: a few don't want kids, the others are off doing god knows what they can and out of town, one is going through a separation, 1 had a kid (big huge deal with her family about that...) but moved nearly out of state for to school and work -- so i never get to talk to them. )

So glad that we'll all be in the same boat soon! Fx Everyone!!!

Thanks lady love. If you have been able to make it this far then I most certainly can, too! You are a determined woman on a mission if I've ever seen one! And I think that's beautiful

Regarding the candy corn ----- Oh man. You hit it on the nail. I just walk away from it for about 15 minutes and then come back and eat more. It's really become a toxic relationship lmao.

 

[puma1986]

Puma you are right in a tough period of time. I've found cycle 6-12 really hard because there is something slowing things down but you don't know what. You don't know if you will be one of the lucky 15% who will conceive in the next 6 cycles (most people conceive in the first 6 months) or if you will be one of the 15% who tries beyond a year and is labelled infertile. It's hard because you don't know if you need testing or how long to wait. An infertility label is a hard pill to swallow. Accepting treatment is likely worse. I'm not ready to say goodbye to the hope that it could still happen naturally for me.

BUT I know for myself I have gotten amazing support from you and the ladies here. Sometimes it gets too hard to hope for yourself. So right now, I will hope for you so that you don't have to. You will one day be a mother of 2. It may take time, you may need help, or you may be one of the lucky ones. But you will get there. We are in this together

Aweeeeee Belle. This is exactly what I needed and you have absolutely taken the words and emotions straight out of my soul. It truly is so very difficult. I'm so thankful that you, green and I have stuck together through this! I've been on this thread for HALF A YEAR! O_O. And I'm super stoked that stargazer is now part of our tight knit group too because we all need each other, more than I think we even realize. I love you guys. And I love that we can all step away for a couple days at a time and refocus and come back and feel missed and welcomed. It truly is an amazing thing.

 

[BelleNuit]

I think I would have lost it months ago if it weren't for you and Green! Also very excited to add Star in with that too

I mean it! One way or another I'm here for you ladies until the end!

 

[greenarcher]

Puma you are right in a tough period of time. I've found cycle 6-12 really hard because there is something slowing things down but you don't know what. You don't know if you will be one of the lucky 15% who will conceive in the next 6 cycles (most people conceive in the first 6 months) or if you will be one of the 15% who tries beyond a year and is labelled infertile. It's hard because you don't know if you need testing or how long to wait. An infertility label is a hard pill to swallow. Accepting treatment is likely worse. I'm not ready to say goodbye to the hope that it could still happen naturally for me.

BUT I know for myself I have gotten amazing support from you and the ladies here. Sometimes it gets too hard to hope for yourself. So right now, I will hope for you so that you don't have to. You will one day be a mother of 2. It may take time, you may need help, or you may be one of the lucky ones. But you will get there. We are in this together

Wow, yep, you nailed it. 6-12, 15 percent.

 

[greenarcher]

A freaking men! You guys are the bomb!

 

[BelleNuit]

well got a ton of ewcm today (CD 9), so I'm 90% sure I'm heading for a CD 12 ovulation (on Friday). OPK will likely be positive tomorrow.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Awe you guys!!! I'm glad I joined in, finally having someone to talk to about stuffs, and support for when Hubbies just don't understand!!!

We'll get through this together!!!

Yippie Belle! Hope that your opk comes back positive!!!

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Any one have a clue how to still get the amazing taste of soda without drinking the crap? I've tried 4-5 different things, and the taste just isn't the same as Mt Dew. I don't like "soda water" it just tastes like bubbling acid to me (more than Mt Dew is), although I like the bubbling part, the flavor just blek!
I've been hunting down a solution for a while, and just can't grasp any that are good for the body and have a decent flavor that make me want more.
I don't drink coffee, so it's (the Mt Dew) the only source of caffeine that I get, and some days I drink only 1 can, an others I just can't stop drinking it (meaning another can or a bottle -- and if I go out I usually try to get sprite but sometimes get MD).
I was looking into juices, but they all have that aspartame and/or high fructose corn syrup < which is what i'm trying to avoid...
I even went back old school and drank some ginger ale for a while, but it also has both in it! I was shocked at that find, so I quit drinking it.

I'm at the point of thinking my Mt Dew might not be as bad as all the other crap out there now. It seems that if I don't want the one chemical, the other is in there.
Another issue I found, is that some healthier options like true "all natural" and "organic" don't see to be in any of the stores around me; and I hate shopping online.

 

[greenarcher]

Yay ewcm belle! I might be right there with you. I o between cd16 and 18, and today is 15. Opk negative yesterday, well see what today ahows.

Star, have you heard of stevia extract? There's a cola brand called Zevia that uses it as a sweetner, and it's a natural plant extract. Check it out!

Tried preseed before and after bd and cup today, and good grief what a mess. I don't think I put the cup in right, or maybe there was just a ton of goop in me! Any tips?

 

[BelleNuit]

Hey green! I've never used the lily cup, soft cups are a much different style! Are you using the applicators for the preseed? I find the applicators are useful because the "goop" is usually a little higher up. I also don't put preseed in after BD! Just before. Maybe do a couple practice runs with the cup to get the hang of it! The cups are a little cumbersome sometimes


Star why don't you try soda water with those crystal light mixes, or with a spritz of lemon. I also like mixing half soda water with orange juice to get a little extra flavour and tang. Pop/soda is super addicting! So I get where you're coming from! Honestly though it takes about 3 weeks for our taste buds to reset. I bet if you quit Mt. Dew for 3 weeks and then tried it again after a break you'd find it really sweet!

 

[greenarcher]

I actually am using a different brand, but yes, I used the applicators. I put it in before hand, then I put some more inside the cup prior to inserting it, not inside me directly. I had figured the cup out yesterday and got a good seal, but this time, it slipped out of my hands and unrolled early? Maybe that's my issue.

I think star had said she tried flavored soda waters and didn't like them

 

[BelleNuit]

I thought she had just tried plain soda water, my bad

The cups are definitely cumbersome