TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[StarGazerRose]

Thanks Puma!
I'm still 7 days til I can test ... URGH this week went by fast, but these two weeks are driving my NUTS!
Which reminds me, I should go buy some tests ... *scribbles down a note*

My bbs are feeling weird, but I think it's just cause i've been focusing on them -- ya know you kinda start imagining things the longer you examine/look at ... but like i said they are already annoying me being of different sizes ...

haha MIL visiting kinda screws things up!
I've had waves rush over me while I'm at work --- just thinking about hubby.... weirdest feeling ever to maintain a calm while wanting it so bad (and sadly those are the says that DH is too tired and won't budge)

 

[greenarcher]

Golden - that's really nice to hear. I think he's still depressed about being unemployed. And like Star said, it's not as bad as it sounds. He'll do anything I ASK him to do, I just get tired of asking (and often I have to ask 3-5 times before it gets done). I would just like him to take the initiative, realize what needs to be done, and just do it.

Star - we each do our own laundry, like Puma. Stop doing his. Force his hand! Dry cm isn't abnormal. I think you're fine. As long as you're not dry around O, you're good.

Belle - I'm glad you have good EWCM to help you pinpoint O. You're very lucky! Definitely post photos of your positive OPK when you get it!

Puma - I know EXACTLY what you're talking about. It's so god damn frustrating! Go for a drive and find a church parking lot to bang in! I lived in a very wooded area, and that's what we used to do! They're usually empty if it's not Sunday

I've had like 3 different, almost positive OPKs this cycle (including yesterday). I think maybe I had O pain this morning (I usually O around today)? I have no idea. Forgot to temp this morning. I'll do an OPK here in a few hours. No idea if/when I'm going to O. I guess I'm just going to keep temping and keep BD, and hopefully get some answers in a few weeks. Ugh.

I've kept all my OPKs this month, I'll take a photo and post them later tonight if I remember. It's driving me NUTS.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Well, end of last week was when I had water for a few days, then a day of ewcm, then a day of watery again.
We BD on all but the day of the ewcm, cause we'd been doing it so much ,we needed a break *snicker*
I took two opk tests one the second day of the watery (Low), one the ewcm day (High). And since we BD the day after I think I would have hit it.
Pretty much each day after the last "watery" day I had felt wet but dry liner, and these past two days have just been dry.
So i have NO clue what day I actually would have O'd on. I assume the day after the ewcm? the one which we BD'd on.

My acid reflux is bothering me ... omg it never kicks in during the day like this unless i odn't eat --- I'm eating lunch right now ... what the crap man?!

...I will not symptom check, I will not symptom check, I WILL NOT SYMPTOM CHECK ...

 

[greenarcher]

Holy balls, okay I had my opk turn very positive, finally! And I left work early because I was so distracted and turned on! Got it on and took care of business. Wow I haven't felt like that in a while

 

[BelleNuit]

Bahaha! Green I love your advice about the church parking lot!! I grew up on a farm so our go to spot was always the barn, a field, or a neighbors field haha

OPK was positive today! No pictures to show because I just use the digital clear blues. I can't be bothered with line interpretation LOL. If it's positive again tomorrow it'll be a CD 13 ovulation. If it's negative my O date will be tomorrow.

Going to BD tonight! If positive again tomorrow I'll try to convince DH to do it again for good measure

 

[BelleNuit]

Woo hoo Green for your + OPK! So nice to finally have a cycle buddy!

 

[puma1986]

Woooo! Green! Get it girl! LMAO That's how I've been feeling today with NO WAY TO FIX IT!!!!! I'm envious! I bet you feel WAYYYYY better now, too!

I really have this absurd but insane feeling that one of us ladies are going to get our BFP this cycle. I'm serious! I think it's in the cards! And if we do, I called it!

Or more hilariously (and awesomely) if all FOUR of us got our BFP!

 

[puma1986]

Woo hoo Green for your + OPK! So nice to finally have a cycle buddy!

You jerk! You stole her. She was MY cycle buddy for months.

Rude.



Just kidding. But really... what the hell Green! Where's your cycle loyalty?!

 

[greenarcher]

Yes! Excellent two positive opks for this thread!

Star, it sounds like you're 4 or 5 dpo. Just a little early for symptom spotting

 

[BelleNuit]

Woo hoo Green for your + OPK! So nice to finally have a cycle buddy!

You jerk! You stole her. She was MY cycle buddy for months.

Rude.



Just kidding. But really... what the hell Green! Where's your cycle loyalty?!

LOL Well just think, you get to be the star of the show now! No cycle buddy means its all about you!

Puma! I SO hope that you called it and that one of us gets a BFP this cycle! Its been too damn long!!!

 

[StarGazerRose]

you guys are awesome!
I've been too exhausted lately to enjoy a nice rumble-in-the-sheets. I was tired at like 8 and fell asleep on the couch probably around 9
Makes me what to have tested one more day... But i didn't I got a "high" but didn't test for a "peak". But my cramping dissipated after the ewcm, so I think I might have still O'd one of those two days!

I had my progesterone blood work this morning. I love lab visits, in and out in 10 mins!
But ... Urgh I hate nurses that MOVE THE DAMN NEEDLE!!! My arm is killing me now! I'll have a stupid whelp!
Results Monday .... Fx for a HIGH NUMBER!

Yeah I figured I was kinda too early for any real symptoms, so i'm trying to ignore everything I "think" I feel.

 

[StarGazerRose]

Anyone else on regular occasions have weird dreams?
I've noticed that some of mine lately have been tied to events that have happened, but they are still so off the wall.
Like the other day we had to pick up my MIL's car for her. And I was having issues finding my passwords yesterday.

My dream was I was told to go pick something up, my car (which was her car) wasn't big enough so I needed the van (which no one has one irl) anyways. I pull up to the destination, which is the house on the corner of my road (I don't know the people, never see them, never talked to them...) I'm there to pick up a Doe ... a full size deer! Some how park "my" car, drive the van into the yard. After fighting with the deer for a while I get it in the van. I leave the car on the side of the road. I'm having issues stopping the van. I'm driving from the passenger side, with no petals or wheel. I'm panicking trying to call DH for help, he refuses to come because I can handle it. So after almost wrecking, I caused another car to wreck into the people's suv from the house that I just came from. I freak out. I'm on the phone again trying to tell DH that I just caused an accident and he's still refusing to come. Then I notice ... the car is missing.... and all of my important documents are in there. Now we have to cancel all our bank cards, change all our passwords ... our life was over...
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Oh and I've had a couple (for the past few days) dreams about either affairs, sex toys, or something related to arousal ...

My normal dreams are less "domestic" and other worldly, so I'm used to odd dreams of no meaning...

 

[greenarcher]

Woo hoo Green for your + OPK! So nice to finally have a cycle buddy!

You jerk! You stole her. She was MY cycle buddy for months.

Rude.



Just kidding. But really... what the hell Green! Where's your cycle loyalty?!

LOL Well just think, you get to be the star of the show now! No cycle buddy means its all about you!

Puma! I SO hope that you called it and that one of us gets a BFP this cycle! Its been too damn long!!!

Amen! And I'm sorry puma! Believe me, I wish I was still on track with you, but my cycle decided to not cooperate and delay!

Star, I totally feel you on nurses that dig for a vein. Owww! And I totally have dreams like that! Completely normal feeling to the point where I'm not sure if they're memories or dreams.

Guys, my best friend told me she's 5 weeks pregnant!!!! Ahhhh!!! I'm so freaking excited! She's been pregnant before, but miscarried at about 8 weeks. I really hope this one sticks. And I really hope I get to be her bump buddy, and bump buddies with all of you! She got pregnant her very first month after getting married lucky dog! My husband is a little sad because we're not pregnant and we've been trying for a while. Now he's having performance anxiety! it sucks!

But I don't have a speck of jealousy! I could not be happier, and I am so excited to spoil the shit out of her kid! I don't have any nieces or nephews yet, so this is going to be the first baby in my life since my 17 year old brother! Ahhhhh!

 

[greenarcher]

AND my other close friend transferred 2 embryos last this week!!! This is their last try at ivf. We could be the terrible three!

 

[puma1986]

Star- LOL! I can understand how those dreams could be confusing. I've always had extraordinarily realistic dreams. To the point where I sometimes wonder if I've ventured into a parallel universe while dreaming. It is extremely difficult to separate dreams from reality when I first wake up. You can imagine how problematic this might be when I have dreamed that my DH has cheated on me. When I wake up, I understand that my dream was simply a dream - but it is intensely difficult to shake the raw emotion.

Green - Hooray for your best friend!!!! This is awesome news. Also for your friend who transferred her embryos! I really have a feeling that one of us are going to get lucky this month!

Speaking of lucky... WTF MAN!!!! AF is due in 5-6 days and I don't have sore BB's Just watch, I probably didn't even ovulate the month I chose not to temp! Not that I love sore BB's - I totally don't, but I am bothered that they aren't when they have been every single cycle for the past almost 9 years! I keep poking them thinking that they'd be sore. NOPE!

 

[StarGazerRose]

No one i know is having babies, most of them already had them (and they are on 2 or 3)

6 days til i can test... this next week is gonna kill me! I'm ready for Monday already --- I want my results from this blood test!

So sleepy today, even after going to bed early last night. Might be the carbs i devoured ...but still sleepy regardless!
Added some Vitamin B to my water (surprisingly decent flavor add-in by MiO) and I already drank half the bottle of water!

 

[BelleNuit]

Puma with all that great ewcm you recorded I'm positive that you O'd! Maybe the fact that your bbs aren't sore is a good sign! Especially if every other cycle they were sore and AF always came! I bet with all your good feelings you'll be the one pregnant this month! I'm not feeling particularly hopeful or pessimistic for myself. Feel pretty neutral. I've check out in a way I think

Green so exciting for your friends! I hope you 3 can become like the 3 musketeers... Or some other cool trio Lol. That's good that you are still able to feel happy for your pregnant friends. I didn't get bit by the jealousy bug until later on. Now I just avoid the things that upset me. I actively block every pregnancy post/baby picture on my Facebook news feed and feel happier for it!

Star that's awesome that you found a soda alternative that works for you! Woo hoo!!

Well either today or tomorrow is O day for me! Hopefully some magic will happen in the next 24-48 hours. At this point conception really does seem like magic!

 

[greenarcher]

Puma, I 100% agree with Belle! All that ewcm is a great sign AND anything different in the tww is good! Ive heard so many stories of women whose only symptoms were the lack of symptoms! I've got high hopes for you! When are you testing?

 

[greenarcher]

Star is af due in 6 days? You and puma seemed to be pretty close in cycle too! I can't wait for you guys to test!

 

[October_baby]

First time posting on any site. TTC #2 with husband (first unplanned while in college 6 years ago not by husband) We are on Calendar month 8 and it has been so overwhelming. Every month DH is excited to test and I hate feeling like a complete disappointment. I had an HSG done on Sept 21st both tubes are clear, ovulating monthly, AF is like clock work. Its devastating to get BFN month after month. I just wish I didn't want it so bad. I literally obsess over it daily.