TTC #1 Hopeful and Obsessed! lol

[StarGazerRose]

Ladies, we have a period!
I'm a little excited cause it's the first natural i've had in forever, not from a pill!!!
Now I'm trying to contact the doctor to get my prescription filled, cause I'm still sure that I'd need it for my ovulation.

Belle, I feel ya on the natural idea. How nice it would be if we could just do it with out all this crap. But if by taking a pill gets me closer to my goal, I'll take 'em!

They might start you on clomid cause I think that's what they start most of us on. But there are a few other things that they can give you that do about the same thing.

 

[greenarcher]

Belle - sorry that spotting is heavier. I hope your HSG results are abnormal, because at least then you'll have a reason (and a solution!) for the problem. They better be able to fit you in. Have you considered calling around to other offices if your current one can't schedule you? Don't give up, love. It could be a matter of stress. You sound like work and TTC are tying you in knots. And fuck anyone that thinks assisted conception isn't as "good." What absolute horse shit. Someone told me once that, no matter what you do, someone will find a reason to judge you for it. Someone will think you're doing things wrong. You focus on you. Tell everyone else to go to hell.

HappyZ - Oh I'm sure there are a dozen other things you could do to improve your odds, according to one person or another. Maca root, red clover, fish oil, etc. But it depends on what you think you need help with. I think you're doing everything you should to improve your CM. The only thing I've heard about claritin is that women shouldn't take allergy meds because its bad for CM, nothing about the man. We're all with you. We never though it would take this long. Has your OH done a SA yet? Your temps look beautiful. maybe you're already doing everything you can, but since it's still only a 20-30% chance a month, you just need a couple more months of doing the same thing.

Sil - Keep testing! I'm normally an O around 18 girl, so I feel you on long follicular period. What kind of OPK are you using? I've found some tests never give me positives. Have you had any that were close?

Star - It's can be strange to celebrate AF, but god, I get you. It's great to not be in limbo anymore! And to know your body is capable of doing what it's supposed to! So maybe you have a longer LP? How do you know you were "late" if you don't have a standard to go by? Maybe that's what's normal for you?

13 DPO here. I tested using another IC this morning, still BFN. AF is due tomorrow, at the latest. No spotting yet, and while I don't ALWAYS spot before my period, I'd say I do 90% of the time. Temps are still up, and for some reason, I still have hope. This was our first month using preseed. It's going to be rough when AF starts. I had lots of symptoms yesterday, but nothing much today. A tiny bit of cramping.

Ladies, please keep us posted if spotting lightens up or turns into flow. hang in there.

 

[StarGazerRose]

I know right!!! I'm just happy that I finally know what my body is doing --- This part I understand!
I mean the only reason I was ever "28 days" was because of BC ... So I think that my cycle might be around the 32 I just had. My app has me at an average of 33 and my Luteal phase length as 14-18 days.
In all honesty i think this cycle might give me more information than last since I started with pills.

So all i'm waiting on now is my prescription to be filled and I'll be happy again (even though i still want to cry into a pillow, sit and great brain freeze from ice cream and bitch some one out)

Best of luck you ladies still waiting for tests and AF ... I hope that she stays away for SOMEONE!!!

 

[greenarcher]

Aaaaaaaand there's the spotting. It's barely noticeable, just some tan CM. But it's there. I'm pretty sure I can safely call me out this month.

 

[BelleNuit]

Damn it anyway Green, so sorry to hear about that spotting.

I don't know how to keep freaking going. Thank god its thanksgiving this weekend as that will at least keep me distracted from moping around. I'm never doing this again in my life. We will have 1 child if we can. I will never TTC again if we can just have one child.

 

[StarGazerRose]

We'll get there Belle!

As much as I want more than one, I just don't think that I'll be able to ... I'm already past the point I wanted to have my kids anyways. Kinda why I really want twins (haha)
My mom had my brother at 27 and 32 when I was born ... I'm 30, so three years after her. So I feel kinda feeling like I might be out of time soon ....

 

[greenarcher]

I love the shit out of you guys, but once my next cycle starts, I'm not TTC. I'm not tracking, not temping, no OPKs, no calendar watching, and no forums. I will pop in on occasion to see how everyone is doing, but this is not going to be a daily thing anymore. It feeds my obsession.

 

[StarGazerRose]

I know that feeling, I already feel addicted to my fertility tracking app more than anything else. I constantly open it and look at it --- it's it's gonna magically change in time with my body?! ...

Well Archer, I know we'll miss you

 

[BelleNuit]

A break every now and then can be good for a person Green. I've been thinking I may need to do another break from the forums too.

 

[OhHappyZ]

Me three. I have already slimmed down a lot on my forum time, but as for temping and symptom spotting, and obsessing. As much as I think I am doing a lot better at not obsessing as I did when I was in the beginning, maybe I just need to stop everything and go at it the au natural way. Next month. This month I'm changing the batteries in my thermometer and giving 'er another shot.

 

[BelleNuit]

Good Luck Z. I quit temping after my RE pretty much told me it was pointless for me to continue. Since I always showed a temp shift, and I regularly O'd between CD 12-15 continuing to temp didn't give any new information and just caused extra stress and resentment. That was the last day I temped, and I don't regret quitting it for a second. My mood has much improved since I quit.

I was doing some reading and for people with unexplained infertility who have been TTC for 1 year, there is about a 50% chance they will become pregnant in the next 6 months WITHOUT treatment... which is equivalent to the percentage of those who would become pregnant in the next 6 months WITH treatment. So I'm thinking we might just pursue expectant management for awhile as I don't think either DH or myself are ready for infertility treatments. About 95% of people my age will get pregnant after 2 years of trying without intervention, those are pretty good odds.

So I think that will be our plan, assuming of course that my HSG shows cleared tubes and no polyps. If there is any kind of blockage we'll pursue more aggressive forms of treatment. I was also reading that clomid alone doesn't significantly increase the odds of conception with unexplained infertility, so I don't know if we'll pursue clomid in the beginning or not.

 

[greenarcher]

I wouldn't pursue Clomid if you're ovulating. It will just dry you out.

I stopped temping after I established that I was ovulating. But then I had a wacky, long August cycle, so I temped this month to see if I was still doing weird things. Agreed that, if you know you're fairly regular, temping just adds stress. But if you're not, it's a good relief to know that month is a good month.

I think that's a great idea, that if you show all clear in your HSG, then just wait it out. Maybe go ntnp? As much as I'm sick of hearing other people say it, maybe it is the stress of TTC that is keeping us from catching.

Whatever. I'm going to get all the hand-me-downs from my two newly-pregnant best friends when I eventually get pregnant. I won't have to buy a damn thing.

 

[StarGazerRose]

I tried temping... it just doesn't work with how I do things. And to start getting up just to temp was too much to remember. When i'm at the stage of not wanting to do anything, I'd rather go back to sleep.

I agree, that if you are ovulating, i don't think that a pill that is used to create an ovulation, is the thing you should be taking. Perhaps the best thing is to wait and see what the results are from your HSG and then maybe see what you doctor has to say.

Urgh this day week needs to be over! I'm tired of my legs feeling like someone ran them over. And the cramps... >,< The glories of being a woman . . .

 

[puma1986]

Hi Ladies. I'm sorry for my absence. I haven't had the chance to catch up but I hope you are are doing alright. Remember me telling you about my ANA Titer of 640 and how ANA is your body's auto immune response and attacking itself? I just got another set of labs back and it has jumped up to 1: 5120. Considering a titer of 1:80 is considered positive and the labs don't measure beyond 5120, I'm pretty terrified. I don't know why my body is attacking itself. I'm losing hair, have 30mg/dl protein and ketones in my urine, my hands are swelling and my joints are killing me. TTC has been the last thing on my mind so I'm sorry for my periodic absence.

 

[BelleNuit]

Oh my gosh Puma, that sounds so awful. Is it rheumatoid arthritis?

I'm so sorry. I'm not even sure what to say other than I'm here for you and I will listen.

 

[puma1986]

Oh my gosh Puma, that sounds so awful. Is it rheumatoid arthritis?

I'm so sorry. I'm not even sure what to say other than I'm here for you and I will listen.

Thanks hun. No I tested negative for rheumatoid arthiritis. It's taking a long time to get some of the more specific labs back which concerns me. They said elevated ANA levels as high as mine can sometimes lead to cancer. My mom had uterian cancer at 35, and while my paps have come back normal I am still terrified. My Aunt also has MS. We shall see my dears. I've been an absolute wreck.

 

[BelleNuit]

Understandably, that is completely terrifying. I'm incredibly scared for you!

Are there more specific tests to be done? Or is it a wait and see what happens scenario? There must be something they can give you to slow down the autoimmune process??

 

[greenarcher]

Steroids I guess? Good grief I'm so sorry you're having to go through this! Please please keep us posted. I'm not a super religious person, but I'm praying for a good outcome

 

[BelleNuit]

HSG booked for Wednesday. Pretty nervous!

 

[StarGazerRose]

Awe Puma I hate that you are going through all that. But maybe having TTC off your mind might help? Getting other things figured out is the best way to make sure that your body can handle a baby.
We're here for you, even if you just wanna vent

AFM:
I got my next prescription set up and ready for me to pick it up, and I start it tomorrow!!!
Kinda excited about this round. My first natural period, and finally seeing that this pill makes me O

And now I'm setting up to have Hubby checked out. Waiting on a few calls about that and get him to deposit his soldiers to the masses for analysis. (I love making up analogies for what he has to do)

I'm in a MUCH better mood, considering I feel like some one is ripping out my leg muscles, and it hurts to walk.
Any one have a clue how to make that pain less... just less? I'm gonna start stretching in the mornings and see if that will help...
I have NO clue how long this period will last, cause I'm already past what it was last month.