Hi ladies!! I was on vacation and missed the launch of our own 35+ forum - I'm so excited!!
My story is that DH and I are both 36 (I'll be 37 in two months) and we're TTC #1 after 2 mcs - first at 12 weeks in May '09 (mother's day weekend, no less
), second at 8 weeks in Mar '10. Both times we've gotten the BFP with just one month of ttc, so I guess we're fortunate on that count. After the 2nd, my dr sent us to a specialist for testing - we should get the last results in about two weeks. So far it's turned up that I'm heterozygous MTHFR. Probably didn't cause my losses, but it does make me feel a little better anyway.
We've been married 11 yrs now, it just took us 10 yrs to decide we wanted kids. Now that we're having trouble making that happen, I have to keep reminding myself that I'd still rather be an "older" mother than a reluctant mother, one who had her kids when she just wasn't ready for them.
Lately I've found myself thinking absolutely horrible ugly thoughts every time another friend or acquaintance or relative announces her BFP. I have to tell myself there's a big difference between thinking ugly thoughts and actually wanting them to come true... it's not like I actually want anyone to ever go through the pain of loss like we have, but in those moments I am overcome with feelings of envy and anger that it's so easy for so many - they have no idea how lucky they are.
love, love, love having our own little corner on B&B!!