A big welcome to all the new ladies- Sorry, there are several pages of posts that I just skimmed through so I don't remember anyone's handles- I've been on a break for quite a while, but I'm glad to see that the group is quickly picking up and that their a lot more ladies in this thread to keep up with and be able to pass the time with as well
Congrats if there have been any BFP announcement's since I've been away, again, sorry I don't know names if ladies have announced.
AFM: We had our second CP in 3 months last cycle, and even though I cont'd getting on directly following the CP, it just become too much for me to handle, seeing all the successful BFP announcements and I had to remove myself from the forum to keep my sanity, although my hubs would probably beg to differ that it aided in keeping me sane
I don't know why but something about this last one just hit me REALLY hard. All of the others, and even the early MC I was able to take in stride and keep going, this one left me just devastated and shattered. I don't know if it was bc the BFP's I go were so obvious this time and they were clearly progressing when with my other one's I kind of knew from the get go that something wasn't right because my levels would fluctuate wildly and I would get a squinter, then nothing, then a line, then a squinter, etc, etc, until they disappeared. This one I really thought was "it" and when the lines disappeared it left me gutted. Poor hubby didn't know what to do with himself bc in the past I had taken it all in stride and this time I was just an absolute mess and inconsolable. I took a break this last cycle, well I say that. I never did any BBTing, no charting of any kind, on LH strips, no monitors. We BD'd one time this entire cycle, and I'm inclined to say it was probably past my O day, but my luck after all the stressing and shit I put myself through up until now, this will be the cycle that we actually conceive. lol. I have no clue what dpo I could possibly be, nor do I even know if I have in fact O'd. I just plan on waiting for AF to show and starting over... To sum it up, this has been a very stressful last month for me, it has completely put me through the wringer and I am praying that we get our BFP soon so I can just put all the TTC stuff up and behind me (planning on passing it forward to some lucky lady so soon as I'm done with it, actually
) and being able to move on to the next phase of enjoying a pregnancy that will more than likely be my last one
So I plan on cherishing every moment of it.
Hope everyone else is doing well and is in good spirits, I'm still having a hard time pulling myself out of the funk this last cycle dumped me in, but hopefully I will be able to put it all behind me soon and move forward with a positive and hopeful attitude. That hasn't happened just yet, but I'm trying. :/