Thanks to everyone. I was in a really bad place on mothers day. DH didn't really know what to do. I've told him that whenever I get AF I don't feel whole, and I'm just not the same person. I struggle with affection etc. The whole saying that men are "yay, period means blowjob week" is not in this house. I can't stand any sexual things as it makes me so depressed I can't do anything, and why should I do something like that when their is little enjoyment and I can count on one hand the amount of times he's done it for me. Then he compared to having your period is just a part of you, just like when I get an awkward boner. Dumbass it's nothing like that! 5 days of bleeding and pain, and realising your not pregnant AGAIN! Wasting another cycle is nothing compared to a boner than pops up every now and then.
So unfortunately mothers day was a write off, but he said he would make it up to me another day. I really want to go and try this amazing bakery that's over 45 minutes away. so might try and convince him.
How's everyone else going? Any other testers coming up?