Spoomie: Sigh. Another damned doctor. Those people need training on how to deal with people. Really. Hon. First of all, you don't need to apologize to us (and I think I can safely speak for everyone here). This board is full of women who have been told by a variety of docs that we are too old. And some of the women on here then proceeded to get pregnant and give birth to happy healthy babies. And most of the rest of us will follow in their shoes. I do believe that. I think that the FSH test is a good start. It will give you an idea of your ovarian reserve. If it's low or normal, then you proceed from there. Given the fact that you are an athlete and therefore probably eat well, don't smoke, don't drink to excess, your egg health may be that of a 35 year old woman. This is where the science fails. It cannot predict entirely whether you can/will get pregnant. And therein lies some of the frustration. Was this a GP or a specialist? If GP, I'd try to get myself referred to a specialist and have this kind of conversation with her/him. Frankly, you could claim that you suspect that you have PCOS and have them run the battery of hormone tests (for free). That may be something to consider, but research PCOS before you go in so you can sound like a plausible case.
As for feeling betrayed, I can see that. But it also seems to be that your OH maybe should be talking to a counsellor as he clearly feels the strain and needs to get it off of his chest. Can he go with you to the bereavement counsellor? Or his own counsellor?
Also--why no egg donation? Not judging, just wondering. I'm not sure I would consider it, but I honestly don't know. OH would consider it and so I may as well if I get to that place.
As for keeping my positive vibe, I dunno. I guess I just refuse to believe, that with all of my hormone levels looking normal and the fact that I am young for my age, I won't get pregnant. I did it in November. I plan to do it again and this time it will stick. There are many articles showing 40+ women having babies. So why should we be any different?
Hang in there, hon. Just breathe and take what the gp said as statistical information. After all, sure, the odds are not AS good as for younger women. But so what? That doesn't mean crap, finally. Women over 40 get pregnant and have healthy babies. And we'll be there soon too.