AF just got me! Day 28 on the button!
So sorry Morgans
AF just got me! Day 28 on the button!
TWINNY IT IS COLD HERE!!! 4 degrees celsius yesterday overnight - yes it warms up during the day but it is amazing how quickly you can acclimatise, as soon as it drops below 20 we get the jumpers out!!!
Spoomie I am hearing you on the way you feel over that story cos it is the one thign we most want and those dont want it get it - there is a massive imbalance somewhere with the powers that be!!! And whilst I would have w3anted to chuck things around the room etc etc I can so totally hear where someone in that position would be coming from. Her children are probably art an age now where they are gaining independence, studing for final exams, they probably have a lifestyle that they have all grown with, she may have resumed a career etc etc etc and have plans for their early retirement and taking off to see the world etc etc etc etc. It may seem really selfish but she may have had her children younger, given the last 20 odd years to raising them and now it is her turn. I know being a mum never stops but there is a time when you get you back. D and I talk about buying an RV and just spending our whole life travelling around the country and dropping back to see the kids every now and then etc. Hard as it is to focus on anything other than a baby I can sort of see where someone would be coming from, 20 years gone and done and another suddenly slaps up and says hello I'm baaaaccckkkk! I did my living prior to having Jake so not a worry for me but for those that have done kids and then want to live I can totally see it. Does any of that make sense?
Hi Ladies
Well I'm not sure what to say....I'm still kind of lost for words at the moment...Morgans will tell you that is NOT like me at all I'm struggling if I'm being honest. I feel like I have been run over a 1000 times and had the stuffing knocked out of me. I am not sure what is worse the pain of the miscarriage or the fact that I almost died...dealing with both at the same time is pretty tough. My poor OH his parents are on holiday and don't know what has happened...we will have to tell them on Sunday just before we leave for holiday on Monday. I haven't even got the energy to 'think' about going on holiday at the moment. I'm struggling to sleep...I keep reliving the moment where I felt myself slipping away.....my poor OH said I stopped responding and he thought I was dead
Anyway...it's all far to depressing for this thread at the moment. I might start a journal...not sure if it will help to write it all down. I just want to feel like 'me' again.
Much love to you all.....
well girls i have had to most cm today that i have ever experienced, im 13dpo and af due in a day, the cm is like a very very wet watery cloudy cm and i keep feeling this let down and thinking oh god af is here but no just this wet watery cm so i may have to do a test in the morning and see if it shows anything am nervous coz all i get is BFN's and im really hoping that with this burning sensation going through my boobs too and the soreness thats at my armpits too with them that its all good but there's no telling til i get that BFP so fingers crossed it shows up tomorrow, will let you know x
Have a good holiday glowie ! x
Thanks everyone and Morgans...you know me so well I feel slightly better today and don't really want to bring this thread down...we all have enough to deal with. I am still following you all and hoping for some good news from someone while I am on holiday
well girls i have had to most cm today that i have ever experienced, im 13dpo and af due in a day, the cm is like a very very wet watery cloudy cm and i keep feeling this let down and thinking oh god af is here but no just this wet watery cm so i may have to do a test in the morning and see if it shows anything am nervous coz all i get is BFN's and im really hoping that with this burning sensation going through my boobs too and the soreness thats at my armpits too with them that its all good but there's no telling til i get that BFP so fingers crossed it shows up tomorrow, will let you know x
Have a good holiday glowie ! x