Pippi, I totally get what you're saying about DE, its taken me a long time to get here. However with 4 failed IUI and 2 failed ICSI, a low AMH and me being 43 next month I had to face reality. There's less than 5% chance of success with my own eggs, of course we'll try on our own until we get to the top of the list (managed to time perfectly this month so now 2WW). Butterfly pointed me in the direction of the DE forum on here and the stories are amazing. The way we see it the egg may not be mine but it's only a bundle of cells that goes back and if I get a BFP, the baby is grown from my tissues and nutrients and my love, it definitely wouldn't be any less mine. However like I said, it's taken me several years and exhausting all attempts with my own eggs to get here, so I fully understand the anguish behind making this decision. x