Mummy3ds, I'm sorry for your loss too. It's still really hard. I cry pretty much everyday and I have trouble controlling my emotions. I cried when my boss scolded me yesterday. It was humiliating! People think I'm not strong enough and that I should move on. Nobody understands how I feel. Lucky! DH won't even DTD without protection. He's that determined to not get pregnant this cycle. It sucks because I don't want to miss an egg if it's there. But I gotta make hubby happy too. He originally wanted to wait until next year which I couldn't do. Back to the waiting game.